skirtboy》muke *UNDER CONSTRUCTION*

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{ don't blame it on me , don't blame it on me }

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michael

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i was woken up by the sound of vacuuming and i felt like it was all a dream ; waking up in lukes arms .. so i pinched myself and this was truly it.

last night was the worst night of my life and i just want to curl back up and cry .. but i won't , i can't .

i didn't want to wake luke so i went into the bathroom and brushed my teeth and wash my face but by the time i came back he was already awoken , i closed his room door behind me and sat down .

" hey ." he smiled putting his phone on the charger .

" hi ..uh thanks for last night."

" no problem .. listen im going to brush my teeth and stuff and when i come better be ready to talk about last night , okay ?" he said and i nodded .

it took him about 6 minutes before he returned and i knew this moment would come when i had to tell him .. when he wanted to know.

he sat on the bed with me and grabbed a pillow to put on his lap and leaned against .

" so what happened ? why were you crying ?"

" last night my mum.. she died." i finally admitted without crying .
it hurts so much that she's gone and we left off on a bad note , ashton kept crying and crying .. blaming himself . i couldn't watch him any longer i had to leave the house and i did .

" mike ... im so sorry ."

" don't be , there was nothing you could do about it ." i sighed laying back down and pulling the cover over me . he laid beside me and held onto my body .
" how'd it happen ?"

" i don't know yet .. they found her on the ground dead , i think it was her asthma but im not positive , there will be an autopsy soon ." i answered honestly he hummed on response .

" i really am so so sorry mike , i can't even imagine how sad i would be if something happened to my mum ."

" babe ill be fine ,sure im sad pissed mad any emotion in the book but im strong at the end of the day and it'll be okay .. i know it will be ."

" im proud of you ." he smiled and i nodded .

" the sad thing about it is .. before she left she hated me ."

" mike , she didn't hate you."

" yes she did .. ashton told me himself last night ."

" he was just mad he didn't mean it , everyone has there own way of grieving ."

" whatever .. im just afraid to even go back to ashtons ."

" what happened , you know how did you find out ."

" well ashton was on the phone and then he just started crying and crying , saying she's dead and when he said my mum my whole world just came crumbling down .. he hung up and he was yelling at me telling me it was my fault and when i argued back he pushed me against the wall . he apologized but i just left . seeing him crying and yelling at me was the scariest thing ." i fully explained .

" im sorry ."

" i told you .. stop apologizing it's not your fault ." i said and he nodded and i got up from his bed .

" i have to go .. tomorrow's the big game and I have to go train ."

" and you're gonna go to the game ?"

" yeah .. it'll help me forget about this all ." I explained .

" mike you can't run from this."

" everyone has a different way of grieving ." i said repeating his previous claim .

" will you come .. are you gonna come to the game ?" i asked him grabbing my phone off him nightstand .. this was it im gonna find out whether or not he wants to work on us .

" i have to think about it ." he said and yea he was leaving me hanging but it's way better than a no .

" okay .. ill see you later ." i told him and i kissed him on the cheek " i love you ."

he didn't say it back and that was probably the second worst thing . the first would be the fact that he thinks i don't love him .

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luke

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when michael told me the news my heart literally broke for him , i know how much he loves his mum no matter what they've been through .

it worries me that he's going to the football game , but if that keeps him from crying and thinking about it then i guess i have to keep my mouth shut .

i went into my mums room so i could talk to her and appreciate her talks since just like michaels she could be gone at an instant .

she had her reading glasses on a book in her hand but she put it down when she saw me .

" something on your mind ?"

" yeah .. i just don't know what to do about michael ."

" so i guess your date didn't go well ?"

" he's way too old for me .. plus i was thinking about michael the whole time ."

" listen , sweetie .. everyone has that one , everyone gets their heartbroken . you don't have a choice on if you get hurt or not .. but you do have a choice on who hurts you . do you think he's your one ?"

yes ..
honestly yea .

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yay or nay ?

so this was a filler sorry it's so horrible sorry

bye bae's