skirtboy》muke *UNDER CONSTRUCTION*

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{ i get drunk on jealousy but you'll come back each time you leave cause darling im a nightmare dressed like a daydream }

SURPRISE !!!!

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michael
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when i woke up i basically pulled myself out the bed and into the shower . ashton hasn't spoken to me since the other day he's just been ignoring me and going to work back to back day and night avoiding my mums death .

her funeral is in a few days and i know he's been planning it that's why i heard him crying last night .

i have a game later on tonight after school so i decided to just out on my skinny jeans , varsity jacket and converse . i put my football uniform in my nike bag and grabbed my phone before heading downstairs and surprisingly ashton was down there too .

" goodmorning ." he finally spoke to me since he pushed me the other day .

" morning ." i muttered grabbing a granola bar out the cabinet .

" listen , sit down for a second." he told me and i listened sitting down on one of the kitchen stools .

" i wanted to apologize for one night .. i was just so mad at myself and i wanted to take my anger out on someone else."

" i concur .."

" seriously .. im sorry i shouldn't have put my hands on you . her death wasn't your fault , it was mine . if i was there she wouldn't have had an asthma attack i was the one responsible for giving her , her asthma pump when she couldn't breathe and i wasn't there ." he said and i could tell he was holding back tears .

" ashton it's not your fault , it's no one fault . people die and we can't blame ourselves . i know you didn't mean to hurt me , it's fine . i was mad too."

" alright .. well , you should get to school.." he told me and i nodded .
" i love you ."

" i love you too , and we will get through this together ." i told him and he agreed .

when i arrived at school everyone was staring at me probably because of the fights i had last week .

it finally hit me that i can't really talk to the people i thought were my friends . not calum , not louis , and i just recently found out not zayn or josh either .. they all bullied and hit luke . each and every time i think about it i get pissed .

they were all suspended for three weeks and i had three days . i saw luke by his locker and he looked extremely tired as if he had been up all night. niall and harry were talking to him and the old me probably would've automatically punched niall in the face but i decided to just let it go since it would just make everything worse .

instead i just decided to eavesdrop .
" it's fine , im over it ." i heard lukes voice say .

" no , seriously luke im sorry i didn't respect the fact that you had a boyfriend . i can only imagine how josh would be if someone tried to touch me like i tried to touch you i deserved for michael to fuck my face up like he did ." niall laughed and is it just me or did he get way cooler now that he's not trying to steal luke away from me .

" i accept your apology , im happy for you .. you know , about you and josh ."

" thanks , and listen .. hopefully we can be friends and forget about this all completely ." niall said and luke hugged him and of course i got a little jealous because he hasn't hugged me like that in a while but i just swallowed it .

they broke apart and harry put his jacket in lukes locker since they've been sharing one lately.

i stopped listening and made my way to my first class .