BLOOMING LOVE (JIKOOK)

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Chapter: Nine

(Flashback)
JUNGKOOK'S P.O.V
"Was that all hyung?" I asked Namjoon hyung, who was looking at his drafts on his computer. A few seconds later he nodded and smiled.
"Thanks kook-ah! I will take care of the rest," he said.
"No worries hyung. Just call me when you need more help." I told him, making him smile wider. I bade him goodbye and left his studio, heading back to the practice room. On my way there, I bumped into Yoongi hyung, who has a very big smile on his face. Just by looking at him, I couldn't help but remember that day when he told me he likes Jimin hyung. I was totally shocked for hours when that happened.

All I wanted was to protect our group, but I ended up hurting someone that I cared the most about, almost losing him. Just the thought of losing him pained me, and this time I knew what I had to do.

I sighed and waked passed him before stopping a meter away from him. I turned around and called him, making him to look back at me.
"You know I care so much about you, and that I love you, right?" I started, making him confused.
"About Jimin" I said sheepishly, causing him to focus more on what I was saying.
"I know you told me you like him and will take him, but even though I love you, I'm sorry, but-" I stopped short, thinking of how to continue.
"I don't think I would let you take him from me. I'm going to keep him." I said straight forward, finally admitting what I felt. That completely shocked him. He was confused and I thought he was still trying to understand what I just declared, so I left and continued to head at the practice room, where I'm sure Jimin hyung, Jin hyung and Taehyung hyung were. Once I arrived, I found the three talking and joking around together.

Hearing his laugh I stopped and decided to watch them for a bit, admiring him secretly without him knowing I was here. Because if he saw me, his mood will change again. That smile would drop and I wouldn't get to hear that laugh again until I don't know when. Hearing how beautiful he laughs made me to just leave them alone and not interrupt them. I didn't want to ruin his mood right after I saw how happy he was.
I sighed and went to the restroom to wake myself up and let my pounding heart relax.

I guess I really do like him a lot. Since my heart feels like wanted to jump out of my chest just by hearing his laugh. But what I'm still scared of, is what might happen to our group if I let my self love him? Would admitting and showing my love for him end good or bad? What if we don't end up together, will it ruin our friendship? Our group? What if we end up just hurting each other?
But then I think again, how would I know the answers if I wouldn't try?
The only solution right now is to take the risk. But that was the problem, I'm scared to risk the bond we have right now, knowing that it may end up badly and lose him.

I groan in frustration thinking again and again. This is why I just chose to deny it, why I kept on pushing him away. I looked at myself stressed out of my mind. I sighed deeply. I washed my face, hoping it could help for me relax, which, I guess, helped a bit. In that moment, Taehyung hyung went in and saw me. As if he had already knew the problem, approached me with a hug. All this time, only Tae hyung, was the one that knew about it. I am closest to Jimin hyung since I can easily open up to him, but I am also close to Taehyung hyung. Since Jimin was my worries, I always go to Tae hyung and ramble about it instead of Jimin hyung. Another reason why I am always with him is because he knows how I feel and understands me more than the rest right now.

"You'll be fine Kook-ah! I promise you that!" Tae hyung said, hugging me for comfort as I sighed, letting him hug me since that's what I needed right now. Even though I wish it was from Jimin hyung, Taehyung hyung's were good. Thinking of my mochi hyung, I started to tear up. My eyes widened in shocked and I pushed Taehyung hyung away from me when I saw Jimin hyung enter and see us hugging. He was also shock and didn't know what to do. He apologized for interrupting, even though he wasn't.
"Hyung, it's not what you think." I said, desperate for him to look at me. My plead made him, only for me to saw how his eyes was teary. The sight automatically broke my heart.
"I'm really sorry!" He apologized again and ran away. This time I didn't even hesitate and followed him.