Do you ever have those days where you wake up in a crappy mood? Everything gets on your nerves and you just feel sad? That's me right now.
It was now noon and I have been ignoring everyone since I've woken up. My parents tried asking me whats wrong and I just told them its one of those days. I've been getting calls from all the guys but Ive ignored them feeling guilty when I didn't answer.
At 2 pm I heard a knock at my door.
"Come in" I said quietly not sure the person behind the door could hear me. The door opened slowly and I saw Austins head peak around the door.
"Hey" He said quietly. I moved over to the other side of my bed and patted the empty spot. Austin walked in closing the door behind him and he crawled into bed with me. We immediately found each others body and laid there in silence.
"How are you?" Austin asked whilst playing with my hair.
"I'm fine" I said sighing.
"Just fine?" He asked.
"Better now that you re here" I replied. Austin gave me a kiss on the top of my head as we continued to lay there in silence.
"Are you on your period?" Austin asked nervously. I laughed at him and nodded no.
"Just finished it actually"
"So why are you sad?"
"I don't know"
"Oh"Austin simply said. I got off of Austin and got up from my bed. I started pacing back and forth.
"Alexa whats wrong?" He asked getting in a sitting position.
"I'm worried about the future" I said finally telling someone why I was in this mood. Austin didn't say anything so I continued.
"I'm worried about college what if the stress is to much for me? What if I cant do it? What if we wont make it? What if we end up going to colleges that are a million miles away and we cant handle that distance so you say we need a break. Which would completely break my heart because I love you but I would agree because you suggested it probably cause you aren't happy and I want to make you happy! What if I loose my best friends? I cant loose you or them because you guys are my world." After that whole speech I finally took a breath and wiped away the tears that were falling. Austin got off the bed and put his hands on my shoulders so I would stop moving.
"Alexa listen very carefully. You can make it through college. Okay? You will never loose your best friends because they love you so much and would never be stupid enough to let you go. And you will never ever loose me because I love you so much and I'm in it for the long run. If I lost you I would be loosing my world"
My dried eyes were wet once again. I pulled Austin into a hug. I never wanted to let go. After awhile I finally did.
"I love you so much" I said.
"I love you too" Austin said. We stared at each other, and then I felt his lips on mine.
"Do you feel better?" Austin asked. Its been a few hours since my little breakdown and we were currently laying down on my bed watching The Office.
"Yea all thanks to you" I said turning on my side so I could look at Austin.
"Can I say something? But you gotta promise not to get mad" I said. This caught Austins attention and he got on his side so he could see me better.
"Sure?" He said making it sound more like a question than a statement.
"I would totally make out with John Krasinski" I said in my most serious tone. Austin tried to pull off a mad face but ended up cracking a smile.
"You re such a dork!" He said. Austin got closer to me and ended up straddling me.
"He is just so beautiful" I said while laughing.
"Well for now you only have me to kiss" He smirked and crashed his lips onto mine.
Literally cant. Pay attention to Alexas speech! *hint hint* Just a little warning this story might not end in a happy note. Anyways please vote vote vote and comment what you guys like to listen to while reading this or if you perfer silence.
I usually listen to chill music like Ben Howard.
