A few weeks have passed since Austin and I last talked. Of course he's tried many times to talk to me but I just wasn't ready to accept the fact he cheated on me. I know he didn't do it on purpose and it was a drunken mistake but it doesn't change the face he kissed another girl.
I sighed and smashed my face into my pillow and let out a scream.
"What did the pillow ever do to you?" I heard a voice from my door.
I turned toward the door and saw Alex standing there.
"Hey" I said turning around and facing him. Alex walked to my bed and sat down.
"We missed you today." He said patting my legs. He was referring to lunch today, they invited me but I wasn't feeling it.
"Yea sorry I just wasn't feeling it."
"He wasn't there you know? Even if he is our best friend what he did was wrong." Alex explained.
"Please just don't stop talking to him. I still love him and I don't want him to loose his best friends over a drunken mistake. Sooner or later him and I will fix this." I said.
Alex grabbed my hand and kissed my forehead.
"I won't I promise." And with that he left leaving me alone.
**
It had just felt like I just went to sleep but in reality I have been sleeping for 5 hours. I woke up at three am to the sound of my phone ringing. I didn't bother looking at the caller i.d and just answered.
"Hello?"I groggily said.
"Alexa?"
"Austin what do you want?" I asked kind of irritatingly.
"It's three am and I'm thinking about you and how badly I screwed up. Ive lost you already and I don't want to loose you again. I love you." He whispered making my heart flutter.
"Austin just please go back to sleep." I begged. I didn't want to talk to him and I definitely didn't want to talk to him at three in the morning.
"Fine but just know that I'm really sorry and I love you so much."
"I love you too Austin." I hung up and let a few tears fall.
I felt like a hypocrite doing this but I ended up calling Zach even though I was complaining about Austin calling me this early.
It took awhile for him to answer but he finally did.
"Alexa I love you and all but it's three in the freaking morning." Zach said instead of saying hello.
"I'm sorry it's just Austin called me right now." I said explaining to him why I was calling him at this time.
I heard moving in the background indicating that Zach had sat up in his bed.
"What happened?" He asked sounding a little more awake this time.
"He said he was really sorry and he screwed up and he said he loves me."
"What did you say back?"
"I said I love him too."
Zach sighed and we just stayed quiet.
"Are you okay?" He finally asked.
"Honestly? No." I whispered my response. He didn't answer letting me continue
"I just feel so pathetic for letting one thing make me feel like this. I never wanted to be the girl who's whole world ended when her boyfriend made a mistake, but now I'm that girl and it sucks because I love him so much and I don't know what to do." At this point I was choking back tears.
"I'm going to come over okay. Meet me outside?" He said not saying anything else. I said yes and hung up. I put on some shoes and a jacket and tip toed outside and waited for Zach on the front steps.
**
About 10 minutes later I heard a car driving up my driveway. Zach walked up the driveway and planted himself next to me on the steps. He put his arm around my shoulder and I rested my head on his shoulder.
"I'm sorry for calling you so early and making you come here." I said the guilt barely reaching me.
"It's fine you would do the same for me." Zach said giving my shoulder a little squeeze.
"This was supposed to be a perfect summer before we all went our separate ways." I sighed.
"It still can be you just have to talk things through with Austin." He said.
"I'm not sure if I'm ready for that though."
"Well I hope you are because I kind of told him to come over." Zach said quickly getting up before I could hurt him.
"What?" I said my voice higher than before.
"Alexa I hate seeing you cry all the time. It pains me to see you like this." Zach said trying to explain his dumb decision.
I didn't say anything and just glared at him.
"Look just give him a few minutes. I'll be in your room waiting for you." Zach quietly opened the front door and went inside.
"Hey" I heard a whisper behind me. I turned around and there was Austin in sweats and a t shirt.
I motioned for him to sit down next to me. He plopped down next to me and sighed. I took this time to look over him and noticed the bags under his eyes.
"Why haven't you been getting enough sleep?" I asked worriedly. Even if he did cheat on me I still love him and he's still my best friend.
"Every time I close my eyes I see your face the morning we were in the car after the party, tears running down your face." Austin responded.
I guess Austin noticed the bags under my eyes because he asked the same question.
"I dream about you a lot so I'm afraid to sleep because I don't want to think about you." I said not afraid of telling him the truth.
Austin sighed and rubbed his eyes.
"I'm really sorry and I know you're not ready to forgive me but please don't leave me." Austin let a few tears slide from his eyes. I grabbed his hand and intertwined it with mine.
"Austin I will never leave but I don't know if it's the right decision to get back together." I was basically breaking up with him and it hurt me so much and by the looks on Austin's face it looked like it hurt him too.
"So are we breaking up or?" Austin questioned.
"Not breaking up but taking a break, I don't want to loose you either but I need to gain your trust again."
Austin engulfed me in a hug and I relaxed into him.
"I can work with that."
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