Trip Down Memory Lane

Keep Calm and Carry On chapter 11

Deceit's POV

TW: blood

     I opened the door of the room, flipping my cape as too seem more dramatic and put together. All of the others looked up. I can tell that Virgil had literally just calmed down. My presents only made him shake again. 

     Logan nodded at Roman as the Prince side tried to wipe tears as he pulled out his sword. Logan snapped and came back with some anxiety meds. Logan helped me make them when Virge was just a lad. He would get such large attacks when Thomas was in middle school that he would start fading away. We knew he couldn't take human meds because that could hurt him even more, but we knew we had to do something. That lead to us working together all night to make those for Virgil.

     My thoughts almost distracted me from an emotionally stressed Roman standing in front of us two. Remus whipped out his morning star, but I took it from him and slid it under my cape back to my room. ¨Deceit, we do not need you here. Can you not see that we are struggling enough?" The prince broke out into an open sob that, as much as he wanted to hold back, could not.

     I wanted to join with him and cry, but Remus was right here and he would never let me live it down if he saw me get emotional. ¨We are not here to distress.¨ Roman looked up sniffling. ¨Quit lying you slimy snake! You are always only here to hurt. And I bet if it wasn't for the fact that we needed him, you would have been the one to kill off Patton before Patton even got the chance to do it himself.¨

That broke me.

My human eye started to tear up, but I was able to keep back the tears in that one, but my snake half is a different story. Droplets of blood started running from it as the human half of my face went red. Roman went from unsteadily on-guard to broken, ashamed, and understanding. I could see right through his eyes. 

     Remus was still behind me through all of this. He was just looking in between Virgil, Roman, and me, then back again. There was not a sign of a tear, in fact he was smiling and Roman was the first to make a verbal note about that. 

     ¨Why are you smiling? Do you really get THAT much joy out of seeing other people suffer that you can not even mourn the loss of Patton?¨ Remus looked into Romans eyes and gave the most serious statement I have ever heard the skunk give.

     ¨It is not my fault I was born the evil twin. I feed off of this. When everyone hides their emotions, I go hungry. I know that they feel bad, but because it is not openly expressed the mind can't count it so I go cold and hungry. I WILL miss Patton as much as any other side. I may have not been the most nice person to him, but I am not instilled in Thomas to be that way. Since everyone is mourning his loss, this is the most warmth I have felt. This is the most I have ever been fed. I know it is wrong, but I am finally not hungry anymore, or at least for a while. So, it is natural for my face to smile. It would be like if you haven't sang for 15 years than you got to star in Hamilton.¨

     Roman's face was blank as his chest heaved faster and faster. Virgil seemed well enough to walk and listen because both Logan and Virgil came from behind Roman and looked right at Remus with a surprised kind of look. ¨Do we need to assist you with anything, Deceit? I find it concerning that your eye is bleeding.¨ Logan asked with the most emotion I have heard come out of his robot voice. ¨I am fine, Logan. But I think we need to take care of these three until we figure out what to do.¨

     Remus and Roman looked up, seeming to have them same thoughts running through their heads. ¨I dont need to be taken care of!¨ Roman yelled as he stormed out of the room, pushing his brother aside. Remus would have most likely clunked him if it wasn't for his limited strength. ¨And I am fine.¨ Remus turn around and disappeared into the darkness of the mind.

     Virgil fell to the ground. Both Logan and Deceit rushed down to help him. ¨Virgil, can you see and hear me?¨ Virgil was fading and unfading as he chest went faster up and down faster than a lady bug's wings at flight. He was shaking more than a maraca on steroids. Then, from out of his widened, distressed eyes, I say dark black, ink like tears rushing down his face like a water fall.

     Logan tried every method of help that he has been trained to do over the last couple years. He tried the breathing exercises, but Virgil never made it past 2 and a half. He tried the ¨5 things you can see¨ technique, but he couldn't even talk. Logan pulled out the different scents of lavender, and white noise machines, but it only seemed to over whelm Virgil, making his state worse. Now it almost seemed as if Virgil was glitching. Logan would have tried to do back circles, but the contact would probably make matters worse.

     ¨At this point, we had no idea what to do. I was to scared to do anything, because usually just my presents scared him, I would not be much of a help. So I stood there just watching helplessly as Virgil lied on the ground, slowly fading and glitching away. 

     If Patton was here, he would know what to do. Patton always knew how to comfort Virgil. I dont know if this was true, but from what I know, Patton even help Virgil through something similar to this right after he left me. 

     I was sitting there, just starring and thinking until Logan handed me a list of thing to get. We needed to being as much comforting things to him as possible, since we couldn't move him to his bed without him freaking anymore. I swiftly took the list and left the room to go search. I knew I needed to help Virgil, no matter what happens.