Long chapter to make up for my bs but then again aren't they usually long lmao
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Billie's pov.
"Uh hey Billie. I feel like you're not gonna listen to this message and I don't blame you at all. You have every right to hate me and never trust me again. But I just had to at least have somewhat of a chance of saying what I needed to say. First of all, I meant everything I've said to you. How I felt about you even if I wanted to deny it was so real. Every time I called you beautiful, had you shivering at my touch, or even laughing with you about stupid shit meant everything to me. You've affected me soo much and I'll never forget that. Yes, Spencer approached me and offered me a big sum of money just to hurt you. When I accepted all I thought of was how I could finally pay all these home bills and pay my mother's medical bills I was drowning in because my two jobs weren't cutting it. And he described you like such a douche so It made me feel less guilty. It's not an excuse for what I did but just my thought process. And being around you made me question everything...I kept telling myself how looks can be deceiving and whatever just so I wouldn't get too deep. But I ultimately failed at that because I couldn't imagine someone as beautiful, inside and out, as you could do such a thing. And I guess I was proven right and it came to bite me in the ass. I told myself while the fire illuminated your face one night that I would come clean and call off the deal because it was eating me up and I started to care about you too deeply to keep lying. But I never got the chance and that's my own fault. I wanted us to work and I just wanted you Billie but I realized maybe we're not good for each other and were not meant to be. We're so messy and complicated so this will be my last time contacting you. You deserve someone you can trust and who can make you happy and I don't think that's me. So I've decided to move on with someone else. You will always mean a lot to me Billie....alw-"
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I end the voicemail quickly not bothering to listen to the automated machine. My screen then starts to fill up with the tiny droplets that managed to creep their way down my face without me noticing.
Until I'm just full-on sobbing.
Then all of a sudden I feel warm arms wrap around me and I'm now sobbing into a chest.
"I hate her Finneas...I fucking hate her," I cry as my hands bunch up the hem of his sweater.
"Shhh it's okay it'll all be okay," his calm voice fills my ears while he strokes through my hair softly.
"I-i loved her.....i love her,"
"I know Bil...I know,"
Three weeks later
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