Because Of The Journey.

9.

"Man what's up between you and Venus", I asked Avah as we were seated in class waiting for our substitute teacher to come in. Mr Daniels was on leave or something like that.

"Well", Avah trailed off. "Me and Venus, we like each other. At least that's what I think. Look man, I like her and everytime I try to tell her that she brushes me off. But when a girl throws herself at me she's the first person to get mad. Sometimes I think she's bipolar because one minute she acts like she doesn't care then the next she's all up in her feelings. I just don't understand her sometimes", Avah said with her hands on her face.

"Y'all playing games, just get together man. I know it won't be easy but at least try", I said patting her on the shoulder. "Dude who died and made you the love doctor?", she asked raising an eyebrow.

"Don't start, I've always been like this the fuck", I said laughing. "You and Ice will definitely look cute together", I know where the conversation was going so I had to cut it short. "Do you think Mr. Daniels is sick?", I asked trying to change the subject. "Mr Daniels is fine, Ice isn't", she said looking at me.

"Me and Ice are just friends and I told her that. She's cool yeah but we just playing man, that flirting we do is just fun and games", I said. "Fun and games for you because Ice seems to be catching feelings, she's falling real hard", she said looking very serious.

I seriously wasn't looking for no relationship and that's what I had let Ice know. I mean my life just took another turn so right now I just need some me time and plenty of space. Not to say she'll be crowding my space, I just need to breathe.

Time flew by and school was out. I quickly rushed out, Blacky is an impatient motherfucker when he wants to be. I walked out the school premises and saw his car parked by a tree near some ice cream truck.

I was honestly not looking forward for going back to that house, but I guess I had to.
So I walked up to Blacky's car. "Sup Blacky?", I asked while closing the car door. "I'm straight Youngin', you good?", he asked. "I'm Okay, I'm straight."

My inner voice was screaming saying "I'm hurt, I'm sad, I'm tired and fucked up!" Nonetheless I just smiled at him. You could tell he wasn't believing me but he let it slide.

5 minutes later he pulled up infront of the house. I didn't even notice till he called me, "Youngin', we're here." So because I didn't want to go inside the house, I decided to start up a conversation.

"Uhm, you know any places to rent out here?" I asked looking at him. He looked so surprised and asked "You're planning on moving out?" "Well yeah, I mean these are newlyweds so I was thinking of giving them some space. Plus I got some money saved up so I could actually afford my own place" I said trying to sound convincing.

"Don't worry Youngin' I'll let you know when I get the best place for you." I cheesed so hard and said bye. As soon as I got out the car, he drove off.

Here I am contemplating on whether to get inside, get in using the window or just run the fuck away from here "I'm a big girl and big girls are strong, I can handle this", I said trying to calm myself down.

After a minute or so I got in. My mom was in the kitchen cooking supper and the nigga Jason was sitting on the couch watching TV.

"Shane you back?" Jason asked smirking. I don't know if he's dumb or what but he clearly sees that I'm back so why ask? I sarcastically answered rolling my eyes and said, "Nah I'm not back, I'll be back by midnight." "Shanice don't be rude!" I heard my mom shouting from the kitchen.

"It's Okay baby, Shane is just trying to make me laugh", Jason said. I just gave him a look and went up the stairs to my room, I honestly had no time to entertain a clown like him.

I got in my room and locked the door. I decided to take a quick shower before I do my schoolwork. So I went to turn the shower on while getting undressed. I plugged the aux to my phone and went on to 'Chasing Summer' , an album by SiR and let his voice fill up the room.

- 18❤.