A Chance At Love

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Kaylee

My girls came to get me around 5:30, and I couldn't be anymore grateful. I didn't want Romeo to find me or even think about me. I honestly think I'm overreacting, but how do you expect me to react in this kind of situation.

He didn't tell me anything about him, and I want to have a loyal and truthful relationship. And I can't have that with him looking at the walls and floors like they're going to give him answers.

You know what that's what I hate

Did he honestly think I was going our entire life together without knowing anything about him?

But the real question is why in the hell did he hesitate so hard? He could've told me if he had any siblings or a favorite color or anything about his family background, but he chose to ignore my pleads and I can't deal with that childish mindset.

I can't deal with the itching fact that he could be in some sort of danger. I don't want him to be in danger, but I can't help what I don't know, and I'm not going to try.

"What happened?" Maya asked lowly

"I don't wanna talk about it right now." I replied slowly shaking my head

"Ok." She replied starting the engiene once again

We drove in silence the entire way home not daring to make a sound, but I honestly didn't want to be alone with my thoughts because sometimes they go against me, and I don't think I'm going to be able to deal with them going against me, because I feel as if the world already is.

I mean think about it, I have my shitty parents, a shitty place in life, and a shitty life in general.

All I want to know is why

The same thing in all of those factors is me. And I feel as if everything is going wrong because of me. But why? Haven't I been the same throughout my life?

Maybe that's the problem...

I've been the same

I haven't done anything different. I mean I've been the little clueless girl who has been looked over, but I don't want to become one of those people who uses that excuse as a cover up.

I don't want to become someone who acts before thinking. All of my decisions have been made with critical thinking. Which was most likely why I stomped out of Romeo's house like a child without talking to me.

You did give him a chance, he was trying to ask the floors and walls the answers remember?

My mind reminded me why I actually walked out his house.

It wasn't me...

It was him

I still haven't even got a call nor a text from him saying he was sorry or even saying he was being over dramatic.

So was him being hesitant intentional or did he just need to to get his thoughts cleared?

It doesn't matter

Until he gets his shit together and tell me at least something about his personal life...

I'm done