DEAR DIARY [JENLISA]✔️

LISA.

L I S A

I stared confusedly at Jennie who's leaving in a hurry the moment her eyes met mine. I watched her as she hurriedly gone inside their house but stole a quick glance on us—on me, I assume.

Seeing her again made the memories of the last few months starts to play in my head. "No. I'm in love with you." That the thing that kept repeating on my head for the passed month.

I kinda regret leaving that day and I didn't want to disappoint everyone so I decided not to tell them. It's a bad idea, I know. But why would I say goodbye if I'm planning to return anyway?

But that doesn't convince my heart to not see Jennie for the last time. That girl. That girl who has those cat-eyes that caught my attention the first time I laid my eyes on. The same girl that made my heart unknowingly happy whenever I try to annoy the hell out of her and when she unconsciously scrunched her nose due to annoyance.

I know I'm falling for her and I was just waiting for the perfect timing to confess. But when she kissed me before, all the fears I had starts to crawl up on me. I convinced myself before that I will confront her about that after our performance and confessed this crazy feeling I have for her. But then all my hopes that I build on that day scattered when she told me to just forget it.

"Bam, she obviously didn't like me." I tiredly exclaimed when I pulled and dragged him aggressively out of the auditorium.

"Stupid. She kissed you then you say—" Bam glared at me and smacked my head.

"She didn't mean it." I sadly told him and bitterly smiled as I looked down on my feet. He just confusedly looked at me. "Are you s—"

"She just told me earlier." His eyes showed sympathy as he pulled me in embrace. He gently tapped my back when I started to sob.

"You know what if you're going to just cry. We should just leave." He uttered and dragged me away.

Jennie freaking Kim, you don't know what that kiss did to me. That kept me up all night. That it even convinced me to stay here at Korea for good, knowing my parents will support no matter what.

Actually, I asked Ms. Solar before about transferring fully in the university. She told me that it might take time since I need to go back at Thailand to fix my papers that would allow me to go back at Korea and study here.

And when she told me that she's in love with me, I didn't hesitate to start fixing my papers the moment I'm back at Thailand. And fortunately, here I am, after a lot of convincing the school's principal which is my father, I finally and surely returned back.

I was snapped out of my reverie when Sooya spoke beside me. "Well, that's weird." she mumbled and chuckled on her sister's action. I internally laughed on my thoughts again. With all the odds, she also ends up to be my best friend's sister.

"Anyway, I'll go inside first so I can fix your room." She turned her gaze to me. "Continue checking on your things then follow me inside okay?" she said before punching my arm and walked inside their house after I nod at her.

As I continue checking my things, my eyes caught something lying on the ground. Wait, what is this? I asked myself as I picked the notebook up. I flipped the book and saw some writings. 23rd? J.K. to L.M I continue to flipped the pages and read the beautifully written header. June.

Entry# 175

It's the 23rd of June of the year 2020. The day when I first met her, Lalisa Manoban, says her name. I don't know why but I immediately felt annoyed by her presence. Ugh. Not with her cocky smirk and alluring aura. This isn't good. I thought as her eyes spotted mine and sent a playful wink again. No. This isn't really good for me.