Today I felt very unhappy but then Xowie did a 4 hour live stream talking about mental health. In the live stream she talked about how she copes with her depression and told us that it is good to keep a routine, so I am going to try to follow her's. Xowie also said it's good to keep a journal, so that's what this is. I have always been bad at expressing my feelings but I am making my journal public so I can share them without directly telling people. I really don't give a fuck about anyone anymore. I can do what I want and you cant say no. You gotta have that big dik energy, make people scared of how confident you are. Xowie also said that it is good to cry and not bottle up feelings, which I am not good at but I am hoping that we can change that. Then when Xowie was done, nose texted me asking if I was ok and I started crying. It felt good to know that someone actually cares about you when you've felt alone your whole life. Then I called her and she told me that she cared about me and loved me, and I started crying even more. Nose has been the only one I have ever opened up to, so it was fitting that I call her in the middle of the night when I was breaking down. Xowie and more importantly Nose, have helped me with a lot and I feel like I owe them the world, so I thank you for that.
I'll be your 1 up girl⭐️
