Spaces between Us

**9**

Nevaeh's POV

I never realized how much I craved affection, feeling loved, being able to look into someone's eyes and tell them how much they mean to me. Zayn he is the exact opposite of what I thought he would be. I think....well I've been thinking that maybe it's time to call it quits. I don't want to be with someone who doesn't appreciate me.

Harry seems like he is such a caring and loving boyfriend. Sam seems so inlove but something was ood. Harry might claim that he loves Sam but for all I know, he likes me. How do I know? Oh it's so obvious. How he reacts around me, how he actually smiles around me and how he always seems to have his heart beat faster when I'm near. I can always hear it. It's funny how he changed so much. I don't know if it's the fact that his new look makes him more confident than he was before but I feel attracted to boys who are confident. Not saying I fancy Harry because that would just be awkward considering Sam loves him.

I stood up from my bed as I wiped my tears with my sweater sleeve. I looked into my mirror as I shook my head. Sam always gets the goodluck with the guys. Me, on the other hand, I'm not a virgen and not because I'm a slut because I am NOT. But because I thought I really loved a guy and if you're wondering what guy well it's one of Zayn's mate. Niall Horan. Yup. THE Niall. We dated for about a year in a half. From the end of freshman year to the middle of junior year. Of course no one knows about it. Niall was enough of a gentleman to keep what we had to himself. Sure we are friends but sometimes it becomes a little to awkward for me. It absolutely normal.

Just as I was about to go into the bathroom there was a knock on the door. So I groaned and yelled at the top of my lungs "COMING"

I stomped my way down the stair case and slipped my bunny slippers on since the bottom floor was hard wood floor instead of carpet.

I opened the door and to my surprise it was Harry. How long have I been crying? I checked the screen on my phone and saw that I have been at it for 3 hours. GO FIGURE

"Ühm what do you want" I sighed "here to humiliate me some more?"

He scratched the back of his head and shook his head "now you know how I felt but actually it was worse"

Everything suddenly came back to me. The ten years that I have made bullying him my main priority. I now realize I really was a total bitch.

"oh." I mumbled "i'm erm I'm sorry" I said awkwardly

He chuckled "no you're not"

I looked up at him with wide eyes and gave him my famous 'wtf'look

"what do you want me to say..... Look I'm sorry okay! I didn't realize how mean I was until today. I know it's a little too late but I am sorry. I won't do it anymore"I mumbled the last part

He nodded "Okay, uhm may I come in? It's kind of cold out here"

"Oh right"

I opened the door wider and I don't know what got into me but I shut the door and led him upstairs to my room. He looked at me confusedly once I let him into my room

"nice room"

"Thanks"

"So I came to apologize for what I did"he said and took a seat next to me on the edge of my bed

I looked into his green eyes and smiled "I deserved it"

"nobody deserves it" he said serioüsly "not even a beauty like you" he said

I don't know if it was jus tme but I felt him scoot closer to me. Shockingly I didn't scoot away. But Sam popped into my mind

"Where's Sam? "

He cocked his head and shrugged "She needed to go home"

I nodded "do you really love her?"

He looked away and fidgeted with his fingers "I want to say yes but I'm not sure really"

"Harry, can I ask you something? "

He smiled and nodded

"Why did you change everything about you?" I asked

His smile fell and turned into a frown "It's obvious isn't it? "

I furrowed my eyes but when I was about to say something nothing came out.

"For starters, I'm not bullied. My self-esteem sky rocketed-

"Ï can tell"I smirked

My eyes caught his lips and how pink they looked....

"Thanks? Anyway and also well now I actaully can say I have a girlfriend"he chuckled

I laughed with him and then I came to see that Harry isn't really that bad. He's actually funny and sweet. Everything Zayn isn't. Did you see Zayn come and visit me to check up on me? NO! Harry did and left his girlfriend that being my best friend to see if I was okay. See he does fancy me.

"One last question..."

"Do you have a list of questions because if then I'm going to have to charge you for this celebrity interview"

I rolled my eyes and poked his shoulder. He immediatly stiffened at my touch. I wonder if that meant something to him. Maybe just mabye we are already friends without neither of us knowing.

"Is it true that you uhm fancy me? " I asked awkwardly and blushed

Wait I didn't blush it was just hot in my room and so since I was wearing a sweater I felt hot.

He shook his head which made me sigh in relief. I was about to actually tell him it wouldn't -

"I don't fancy you. I like you a lot."He smiled as his cute dimples grew deeper making me feel all giddy inside.

"Then why-

"Maybe it's just an infatuation but I want to find out if you just let me find out..."he trailed off and suddenly I felt worried about what he was refering to.

"How? "

"Let me kiss you" he said and just lke that was how I ended up kissing the nerd. Or more like the hot nerd.

The kiss was not forced what so ever. It was one of the best kiss I've ever had, it was gentle and sweet. Of course on the back of my head I knew this was wrong in so many levels. He pulled away and I was breathing heavily.

"Harry I-

He placed a finger on my lips to make be quite and looked into my eyes "definetly not an infatuation. I felt it...did you?"

Ï gulped because I knew what he was refering to. He was talking about the butterflies in the pit of my belly.

I slowly nodded with my jaw dropped

He stood up about to head for the door and I ran after him yanking on his arm "where you going?"

"to break up with Sam"he said casually

I furrowed my eyes "No you can't do that! she really loves you! She would hate me! I can't lose her!"I yelled

He sighed "fine....let us enjoy this moment then"Next thing I new he carried me bridal style and lied me gently on the bed and lied down by me as he stroked my hair until I fell asleep in his arms. I felt safe, loved, and relaxed. Nothing can make this moment any more perfect.