I'm in love with his brother(boyxboy)

Chapter 25

This is the last chapter because this story has finally  come to an end.

         Dear Journal,
Have you ever had the feeling like everything has been stripped away from you? Like a part of you was snatched away and torn away and then you're left with this big ass hole in your chest well that's how i feel. How many people can actually say that they lost their twin, their other half or whatever people call it. I just know that i feel so empty and even though i have alex and even though he's any gay guy's wet dream nobody can fill this empty void. Damien was perfect in ways i can't even describe and i will never be ashamed to call him not only my brother but my friend and my lover, and i certainly don't have any regrets when it comes to him.
  After the funeral nathan and jacob were rarely seen, it hurt but i couldn't really blame them damien was just the type of person to light up every room he set foot in. That's one of the things i adored about damien. I moved in with alex until i get back on my feet even though he says i can stay as long as i want. I never take pleasure in depending on others. I must admit though that i will miss the spoiling. Can you believe alex has me writing in a bloody journal? He says it will help keep my thoughts together, I suppose he is right. Most of these pages are filled with thoughts of damien it's my own personal way of talking to him sort of like walking down memory lane.
        I had a dream about him again but this time it was daytime and i was awake, you can say it was like a out of body experience. I know that sounds silly but its the only way i an explain what happened. He came to me in his old self before he died. He had on his favorite nirvana t-shirt and white skinny jeans no shoes ad he sat beside me laying his head on my shoulder. I remember him saying that we will see each other again but not too soon because he wants to see me happy as hard it might be at the moment he wants me enjoy life to the fullest. Honestly who's the oldest here? Anyway we sat for a while watching the sunset then he kissed me ever so sweetly ,his lips tasting like vanilla then he walked into the sunset. I cried a little but not out of sadness, no for the first time my tears were tears of joy because even in death damien is my anchor. And that's why journal that i can't give up not just yet because there is so much of the world to discover and plus damien would smack the taste out of my mouth if i gave up too soon. So i won't give up nor will i give in because when I'm living for myself I'm living for my brother, my best friend ,my lover damien.
                                              +Sincerely yours forever, Tristan+

-Epilogue- (3 years later)

      Some of you might expect me to comit suicide after losing half of me but really, life got better after a while. Alex stayed with me and we have two beautiful sons, damien and adrian. I stopped seeing damien but honestly I didn't need him to guide me anymore.Will i miss him? Of course but he wouldn't want me to bathe in my sorrows (even though i want to do just that) . I felt soft lips on my cheeks and my body shivered at the close contact when i turned around i expected to see alex but instead i saw damien standing in the flesh as if he never left. Smiling the same child like smile that i fell in love with. "You think too much." His voice was deep and smoothe like a river. He chuckled softly, it sounded unfamiliar because its been so long since i've heard it. "You're thinking again." "You were gone." He shrugged, a casual gesture that stirred something inside me. "Maybe you're thinking of me too much. Besides i came to say goodbye anyway." He begin to walk toward me. He stood in front of me and placed his hand to my cheek. My face began to burn, my pants tightened, I never knew how to act around damien when he touched me. "I miss you tristan. I miss your touch. I miss your laugh and your smile. Alex is really lucky." A tear fell down my cheek and i laughed softly. "That's one hell of a way to say goodbye." He smiled and shook his head. He stepped closer to me until our lips were inches apart then with a quiet i love you he kissed me softly, passionately and fiery ,savoring the taste of my lips as they moved in sync with his. I felt like i was drifting on a cloud in my dream land. Damien stepped away from me too soon placing a kiss on my forehead. "Goodbye. Tristan. " I watched as he walked away and faded like a ghost in the night. In that moment i knew why i fell in love with Damien Raphael Johnson

Well wattpad family that the end of I'm in love with his brother thanks for sticking with me i love you guys soo much and don't worry this is not the last time hear from me because i have plenty of ideas to come so stay tuned and don't forget that i love you all and stay awesome farewell for now