Sing to the Stars

"Heart Attack" (Naomi)

So...back when I was listening to a crap ton of Demi Lovato songs (literally second-third grade), I stumbled upon this song. Of course, I knew it, but it's the only one of her songs I listen to in the present time.
And naturally, with me making Naomi and Zane exist in Her Curse, I felt I finally had a frickin use for this song.
So.
*Claps*
I.
*Claps*
Made.
*Claps*
This.
*Claps*

     I sat on the edge of my chair, studying a book on magic I'd found. Originally, it'd been Zoe who got me into the subject of magic, but she hadn't decided to study it like I had. She and Rachel liked to joke that I was nearsighted because I studied it so much, but I was nearsighted long before middle school.
     At one of the most inconvenient times, my phone rang. I sighed in annoyance, but picked it up anyway, not bothering to check the number. "Hello?" I asked.
     "I seem to be lost." Zane's voice said. I tried to put up my best "yep, I'm in love with you" act like usual, but I could feel it slipping from me slightly. "Okay, where do you need directions to?" I asked, already knowing his answer because it was a pick-up line I was all to familiar with. "Your heart."
     I made a little half-hearted "aww" noise. "Look in your hands. It should be there." I said playfully. "Thanks Naomi." Zane chuckled into the microphone, and I felt myself smile. "No problem, but see you tomorrow, okay?"
     "Okay. Bye, love."
      "Bye."

     Sighing, I put the phone down, letting my head fall onto my book. I'd have to play him soon, stop associating myself with him, or I'd let myself get soft. Shaking my head briskly to clear my thoughts, I went back to studying, trying to give my mind something to do that wasn't wondering and worrying about the next day.

***

     I adjusted the left strap of my backpack as I walked up behind Rachel. She'd just come back from another trip, and I hadn't seen her in any of my classes. "Hey." I said. "Yo. So who's the lucky guy this time?" She replied. I'd been dating him for a few months, but the longer I dated him, the more I felt like I was digging myself a deeper hole. At first it'd been like normal, but as we went along, it became so much harder. Playing guys was usually easy for me, but this one...I knew he was a well known player, but I still wanted to play him, and I knew he didn't know I'd been breaking hearts since 7th grade.
     The problem was that not only did I feel like I was digging myself a deeper hole, I also got nervous around him. And I wasn't able to do the other things that made guys fall for me so easily...even simple things, like holding hands, resting my head on his shoulder, and playful kisses. It was so weird.
     "Zane. That one player." I replied to Rachel. "Oh, so you're playing a player? Does he know about you?" I shook my head. "Well that's nice." She replied as Zoe walked up. "My God, Grey is slow." She said in annoyance. "Like you, Nao."
     "Hey!" I flicked Zoe's shoulder, and she started laughing. Rachel and I started laughing too. "Wait a minute, isn't that...?" Rachel asked after a minute. "What?" I asked, looking at her. She was looking at something behind me, and Zoe was smirking a little. I could feel a presence behind me, so I turned, but I could feel myself freezing up the more I saw of the person behind me.
     Just my luck, it was Zane. "Hey, Naomi." He said. I almost blushed at the obvious affection in his voice. Even though I knew I was supposed to be playing him, I was nervous. And...embarrassed. God, I hoped I wasn't falling in love. "H-Hey." I stammered, smiling and waving a little. "Didn't see ya there." I chuckled a little bit.
     Zane smiled, and I felt all of my muscles lock. I couldn't move, and my face was stuck in this stupid grin. "I'll see you guys later, Grey just got out." Zoe said, followed by the sound of light footsteps leaving. "If you two wanna go home together, I can call you later, Naomi." Rachel offered. "Y-Yeah sure." I said, not fully comprehending what she was saying.
     "You're oddly nervous today, love." Zane said. I finally shook myself out of my trance-like state, "Sorry, today's just been weird."
     "Yeah, I get that." He replied, chuckling. "Anyway, like your friend said, do you wanna walk home together?"
     Get it together, Naomi. He's nothing more than any other boy. I said to myself, nodding. He smiled, and began walking, but he made sure I was following. Just...just take his hand. It's not that hard, right? You've held hands with boys before. I told myself, reaching for his hand. The tips of my fingers brushed against his palm, and I felt something I'd never felt before. It was as if something in my chest had ignited. Like the base of a fire that could be lit, but hadn't until I'd reached for his hand. And when it did, I jerked my hand away a little.
     "You okay?" He asked. His eyes seemed so sincere. It was hard to believe he was a player, but then again I guess that's why he was so good at it. "Yeah, just...again, weird day." I said, shaking my head and reaching for his hand again. But before I could touch his hand, I felt overwhelming fear invade me, and suddenly I couldn't do it. My hand dropped to my side, and I continued walking just a step behind him.