Miraculous YN

Chapter 7: I... I don't know.

AN: This chapter is gonna be shorter than usual probably. Because I'm kinda tired. Enjoy anyway though!

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What? I'm cold. I'm aching. What am I doing? I'm... floating? Chat? I think as I see myself floating metres above ground, my right arm raised, aiming at Chat who was pinned to a wall somehow. He had slight fear in his green eyes. Ladybug however, was nowhere to be seen. What is this weird purple glowing stuff around my hand? Oh my God. I'm I'm akumatized. Oh my God what am I doing! I'm gonna hurt Chat! I grab my right arm with my other hand and try to force it down. It won't budge. I try harder as the glow around my hand gets bigger. "Stop it!" I yell to myself. "Don't. Hurt. Him." I say through gritted teeth. This is taking up so much energy. I could just drift off again. The heroes can handle it. They always do. No! LB isn't here! I could hurt him. Keep. Trying. My previous statement seemed to have gained the cat's attention though as he says my name in a suprised manner. Still gripping my arm I nod and this action seems to relax him a little bit.
"Chat, I'm trying but I can't-" I start "it's okay YN. You'll be okay. I promise." He cuts me off. I can't do this anymore. I-

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"Pound it!" I hear LB and Chat Noir say as they fist-bump infront of me. What the hell? Aurore didn't remember anything either... did I wake up in the middle of that? God that was horrible. It's already dark out!? Before the heroes can turn to me I run away. Luckily, I know where I am. The park. I know my way home from here. I run home and don't look back.

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No one is here now. Thank God. I need to go for a swing right now. I go upstairs, put my suit on. I swing from building to building, instantly feeling a bit better. The sadenning events from the sleepover, the fear I felt as I heard Hawkmoth's voice in my head, the pain I felt when I woke up, the guilt I felt for almost hurting chat, turning against my friends who are the only ones to understand the stress of being a hero, the worry. The constant worry that I hurt someone badly but won't remember anything. It all slips away. Only for a moment. I land on a roof. And sit on the edge. "Hey." I hear Chat's voice say.
"Hey." I respond. "You weren't here today. Are you okay Milady?" He asks. "No. I'm not. I......" I search for an excuse "my powers malfunctioned somehow. I might not be able to help for a few days." I tell him. I'm still shaking. I feel, violated slightly. Someone took me over and used me to hurt people. I feel Chat put his arm around me. "You're shaking. You gonna be okay?" He asks me. "Yeah. I will be. I just need a bit of time." I say as I put my head on his shoulder.