polar opposites (jikook)

the talk

Jungkooks pov

There is a knock on the door followed by jimins voice "jungkook? Yoongi said you wanted to talk to me?"
I gulp and look down "uh....yeah come in"
The door opens and he walks in closing it behind him

He sits down at my desk "what did you want?" I look at him "can't you be a little bit nicer?" He shakes his head "why should I be? You weren't exactly nice when you broke my heart"

I laugh "jimin I said I'm sorry nearly a thousand times! I apologized! Why are you acting like such a dick?! It's a tiny crush! You've got sluts hanging off your arms!"
He nods "and it's a good thing I do!! Because I don't need you anymore and you know what.....before the mistak-i mean young-jae happened you were just another one of those sluts!"

My eyes widen "get.out" he tilts his head "excuse me?" I growl "you Hurd me....don't ever set foot in this room again....god...to think I was about to listen to my heart and apologize again...what's the point when your crush calls you a slut?"

His eyes widen "wait.... jungkook i-" I growl louder "GET OUT!!!" Tears start to roll down my cheeks, he stands up "hear me out!" I shake my head "I just did! You called me a slut! And you fucking called your own son a mistake!! so bring my son back and then stay the fuck away from us!!!!"

He crosses his arms "you can't stop me from seeing my son! When in reality you were about to get rid of him anyway!" I nod as more tears roll down my cheeks "because you told me to!!!" He laughs "so I get the blame? Can I remind you that it was YOU who begged me to cum inside of you just like a slut!"

I walk towards him "and it was you who came into the bathroom when I was there!!! You could've went out and bought me suppressants or even came here and got my suppressants!!!but no!!You were the fuckboy you are and played with my heart!!....and I assume it was you who spraypainted my locker?"

He laughs "I did yeah because now your locker describes you!....and I played with your heart? Bitch you played with mine! Saying yes to the date and kissing me and then turning me down last minute! If anyone's a fuckboy its you!"
I am now stood right in front of him with tears streaming down my cheeks

"You wrote that note! You wrote that song! You were the one to stand up in front of the whole school and tell me you love me!!!.....When we went on that date...when we kissed... I was listening to my heart....my brain wasn't working....my heart and feelings were in the driver's seat....but when you asked me so suddenly to be your boyfriend....my brain clicked back and it made me remember how worthless I am! How I shouldn't be here anymore! So I said no!"

He sighs "jungkook....." He puts his hand on my cheek, I slap it away "don't fucking touch me....I guess my heart was wrong about you....you really are a fuckboy that plays with people's hearts and then breaks them....have fun with your sluts jimin....have fun living a happy life....but before your Happy little life starts 1) bring my son home and 2)help mina pack her things..."

He scoffs "you can't just kick her out cause you're jealous!" I laugh as more tears roll down my cheeks "jealous?? Why would I be jealous? No jimin you dumb fuck! I relied on her for support....she was the person I went to with my problems....she was the one who was helping me get over you! But I was just blind and didn't see that she was using this whole thing just to get your dick! So I am not jealous I am pissed off"

I step away from him and use my sleeve to wipe my tears but they don't stop "please go.... I'll stay up here so you can bring young-jae back..."
He shakes his head "I'm not bringing him back....he is my son!" I shrug and look down "fine...keep him....have full custuty of him....even though I am the one who grew him inside me for ages and then pushed him out of me..."

He rolls his eyes "oh please, without me he wouldn't be here!" I nod "without you i would be happy!!!"
He gasps "you bitch!" I nod again "well done! I'm a bitch! I'm a slut! I'm a whore! I'm worthless! I'm fat! I'm attention seeking!! Wanna add any more to the ongoing list?! I know what I am!! So just go away!"

He walks to the door "I really was wrong about you jungkook... I didn't think this would end up like this....I wanted to talk nicely" I scoff "no you didn't, you walked into this room with some bitchy attitude like you didn't even want to be here! Yoongi was wrong.....my heart is wrong"

He laughs "remember jungkook that yoongi has two boyfriends,I don't think he wants a fourth~" I growl and my eyes turn yellow "GET OUT!!!"  His eyes widen, he opens the door and then walks out closing it again behind him.
I quickly walk to the door and lock it, I slide down it and cry harder

I jump a little when there is a knock on the door followed by yoongis voice "I guess it didn't go well?" I quickly stand up and open the door, I hug yoongi tightly who hugs back and rubs my back, he walks us to the bed and sits down still hugging me "it's okay jungkook...he-"

I sit back "you were wrong hyung! I should never listen to my heart! He was the one who spraypainted my locker! He called my son a mistake! He called me a slut! It's over hyung! I can't do it anymore! I can't deal with people bullying me!!"

Yoongis eyes widen "jungkook what are you saying?" I look down "I'm thinking of two things" he nods "which are?" I sigh "moving back to Busan and staying there.....or-" he intturrupts me "don't you dare say that last thought....you have no idea how many of us that will affect!" I look at him and he wipes my tears "will it though? Will it affect you all? You all seem not bothered when I am crying myself to sleep....or starving myself....so why can't I just erase myself all together?!"

Yoongi pulls me into a hug, I cry and grip his shirt "I can just get rid of the Problem! Jimin will be happy!! He will be able to smile properly! I'll do it for him!!" Yoongi shakes his head "jungkook you can't.... Now get some rest" he strokes my hair, I grip his shirt and cry more and slowly I cry myself asleep while clinging to yoongi

Yoongi is the best person in my life right now....well....I would say young-jae but I can't see him now....my team are too focused on school to see how much I'm hurting....which I prefer
Yoongi is the only one that can see that I'm in pain and is helping me....I don't love him but I appreciate him so much....
Like a big brother
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But in the end i will end up doing one of my two options
1)move far away
2) end it all