polar opposites (jikook)

leaving

Jungkooks pov
((1am))

I quietly get up from my bed and grab a small bag that I packed earlier on. I leave a note on the end of my bed.

Quietly I walk out the room not waking anyone up. I gasp a little when i see IN in the kitchen, he looks at me "are you really leaving?" I sigh "IN...I can't stay here....at least not for now....I plan on going to Busan.....and I don't plan on coming back"

His eyes widen "so you're just running away?" I nod "what else can I do?? It's either this or I take my life"
However....I plan to do that soon anyway....
He shakes his head as tears roll down his cheeks "you weren't gonna say goodbye" I shake my head "no....it's better if I left without anyone knowing"

I gasp when there is a knock on the door. Luckily nobody wakes up, me and IN walk to the door,I open it and tilt my head "yoongi?" He nods "I'm coming to Busan with you.... you'll stay with my parents.... because I know what you're thinking of doing"

I look down "no...i-" he growls "I didn't give you a choice, jungkook may I remind you I've been in the same situation as you...in coming with you....were friends....you're like my little brother...come on... before anyone wakes up" I nod "okay..." IN grabs my hand,I look at him,he has tears rolling down his cheeks "please stay in contact"

I nod again "I will....I'll see you again hyung...." He lets me go, I hug him tightly and then walk out with yoongi, I look at him once we climb into his car "why are you coming with me exactly?" He starts to drive "because I know you plan on taking your life...and i won't let that happen...if I can help you then I will....I don't care that I have to move away....if I can stop you from taking your life then I will"

I sigh "people are gonna think I forced you to run away with me" yoongi shakes his head "I told taehyung...and left a message for hoseok....I love them both with all my heart... They know id never run off....did you leave a note for your team?" I nod "yeah..."

Yoongi chuckles "look behind you" I tilt my head and turn around "young-jae?!" I look at yoongi "I thought jimin-"
Yoongi intturrupts me "jimin isn't in the right mind set to look after a child....he's being a dick and needs time alone....you both do...."

I nod "I see..... So your parent's live in Busan?" He shakes his head "nope but jiyoung does, I rang her and we can stay with her....I explained what jimin said to you...and what happened and she understands" I gulp "does she hate me??" He shakes his head "no....she's obviously protective over her son but....she understands why you did what you did and wants to help you as much as she can"

I smile weakly "thank you yoongi... You really are like my older brother"
He chuckles and parks the car "well I'll start treating you like my younger brother then, since you'll be staying with me for awhile" I nod and we both climb out, I pick young-jae up and giggle "and I'll treat you like a older brother" yoongi chuckles and grabs bags from the car.

We both walk into the airport,i look at young-jae "it's gonna be okay baby.... you'll grow up in Busan with your eomma and uncle yoongi" yoongi laughs a little "uncle yoongi?" I nod "yep!" Young-jae babbles making me giggle
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Yoongi ends up buying the tickets,I did try to pay but he growled at me.
We are sat in our seats about to take off, I was still holding young-jae because I don't want to let him go again....

Yoongi sits next to me on his phone, I sigh "you really didn't have to come with me" he looks at me "I explained this to you jungkook, we're friends now and if I can do something to stop you from taking your life then I will take that chance...I can't just sit back when I know you're going to take your life...I can't do it"

I smile a little "I really do appreciate it yoongi"
But I won't stay with you for long....I will end up ending it soon....
"But yoongi....if anything does happen to me....then I want you to take care of young-jae....make sure he grows up into a handsome young man" yoongi glares at me "stop that.... nothing is going to happen to you"

I sigh....if only he knew exactly what I was thinking....
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We arrive in Busan a while later, I hold young-jae and grab the bags, yoongi had gone to get us a coffee. I gasp when I see jiyoung "JIYOUNG!" She turns to me and gasps, she walks to me and hugs me "hello Hun" I smile and hug back "thank you for letting us stay" she giggles "don't mention it....I get lonely so I need the company!"

I smile more, she gasps "can I hold my grandson?" I nod "of course" she takes young-jae from me, I pick up the bags and giggle when yoongi comes back holding three coffees, he hands one to me and takes some of the bags "thanks yoongi" he nods "no problem....here you go" he hands a coffee to jiyoung who smiles "thank you yoongi..."

We all walk to jiyoungs house,it was massive! It was a long walk but walking is good for us so we didn't care, well yoongi complained the whole way but that made the walk more fun.

I tilt my head when my phone rings. We arrive at the house, I look at my phone "oh....it's jin-hyung" jiyoung smiles "you should answer it...I'm sure they're worried sick...I'll go out young-jae in his new room" I nod "yeah....okay"
I walk into the kitchen and answer the call
"Hello?"

"Kookie?! You're there! I was so worried! Where are you?!"

"Jin-hyung calm down....I'm in Busan with yoongi-hyung"

"What why?!"

"I couldn't stay there hyung...it was this or I take my life"
But obviously I'll do that anyway....

"You can't be serious...you didn't even say goodbye"

"No hyung because I knew you'd react like this....I knew you'd try and stop me... yoongi-hyung is here with me so I'll be fine....please don't worry....I just need time away.... young-jae is here with me...  I'll keep contact with you all...I just need time to myself"

"I understand....just please take care of yourself kook....we miss you... we'll call everyday"

"I know hyung...I miss you too....bye"

"Bye Kookie"

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I sigh and put my phone in my pocket....I really need to end this soon.
I look around and then down at my wrist....I deserve this....

Soon enough it'll all be over.
The problem will be gone
Jimin can smile again
......................
All of this is for jimin....so he can smile again
I feel bad for dragging yoongi here when he'll have to go back alone with young-jae.....one day I will see the sunset but I won't see the sunrise....

I just need a perfect time when I'm alone to do it.......
To end it all

((A/N: this chapter I relate to so much, which is why I wrote it....I moved away from my aunty to the UK because I was bullied a lot...this sounds attention seeking but I just wanted to share...I tried so many times to take my own life... I think about it a lot...all because I was bullied about my music choice, I am bullied because I'm not originally from the UK....I guess wherever I am there is no getting away from the bullying

I lost my friends because I don't ship taekook...they're army aswell but hate that I ship jikook
I guess I am better off alone...I have been that way all my life and I guess I should plan to be like that the rest of my life as well

BTS have helped me love myself a little but....I guess it's not enough... they're amazing and I love all 7 members and they've helped me be apart of something....but getting picked on makes me realize that maybe I was better not being apart of something

Sorry for ranting I know I must sound attention seeking but this ff made me remember why I moved to the UK, away from my family because they didn't accept me...sorry I made this sad....I must sound like a wimp....
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