polar opposites (jikook)

changed

Jimins pov
((During the five years))

"He's actually gone?...yoongi aswell?" I look at Hyunjin who nods, we are at football practice at the moment and I asked where yoongi was and I've just got the worst news of my life..."jungkook left to Busan and so did yoongi" my eyes widen "I fucked up big time didnt I?" Kai nods "well you did call the mother of your baby a slut so id say yes!"

I look down "I wasn't thinking! I just spoke....I was angry and I had no idea what to say to him....he was gonna hurt me again...so I hurt him first"
Suho sighs "jimin that isn't how it works...you should've let him explain... Because now you've also lost your son" I nod "I've lost the two things In my life that were keeping me going"

Mina runs to me "hey baby!" I groan "go away....I'm not in the mood for you to be clinging to me...go away" she hugs my arm "what are you guys talking about" I pull my arm out her grip and walk to taehyung, Bangchan crosses his arms "we're talking about nun ya' it's an interesting topic"

Mina tilts her head "nun ya' ? What is that?!" Han smirks "nun ya' business bitch" I chuckle "good one guys" mina gasps "baby! You can't be serious! You're my boyfriend!" I shrug "so? I might be your boyfriend but I'm also a fuckboy... now run along" she gasps and tears up "well....well... we're over!" I shrug "cool"

She runs away, I look at taehyung "why did yoongi go with him?" Taehyung crosses his arms "because jungkook was having bad thoughts....look jimin...you're my soulmate... we've been friends for years...but you need to stop playing with people's hearts.....it's the most painful thing to do....yoongi went with jungkook to stop him from taking his life....think about that jimin....if yoongi didn't go... jungkook would never return here....and it would be your fault"

My eyes widen "he's suicidal?!" Namjoon nods "we think so, jin-hyung said that when he called jungkook he said something about wanting to take his life, he also had bandages on his wrists....he was in pain jimin....and none of us noticed...and you calling him a slut and his son a mistake would have made things worse"

Jackson nods "as much as we love you bro.... you've seriously got to get some shit straight with him...well not straight cause you're gay...but you know what I mean!" I sigh "he won't answer me though I already know that for a fact....what do I do?"

Lee know smirks "get your shit together and the day he comes back you run to him, sweep him up in your arms and kiss him deeply" we all look at him, he tilts his head "what?" Changbin laughs "you've read too many romantic films" Lee know nods "but it could work!"

Chen smirks "but what if he comes home a bad bitch, who dispises jimin and doesn't even want his son to know jimin....what if he comes back and never wants to see jimins face again"
Namjoon glares at him "not helping the situation Chen"
I sigh "he's right though....if yoongis gone with him... he'll help jungkook realise how much of a dick I am"

Seungmin nods "you are a bit of a dick...but we can fix that! All we have to do is ask the cheer team to help us fix you!"
I tilt my head "fix me???"
I jump a little when I hear a voice behind me "as much as he needs fixing that isn't the right thing to do" we all turn around to see IN

I tilt my head "it isn't?" He shakes his head "as much as jungkook hates you right now...he loves you for who you are...yourself...and yes...he will probably come back hating your guts but all you need to do is apologize and build your relationship up"

I shake my head "I can't, if he comes back hating me then he will hate me for the rest of his life!" IN rolls his eyes "don't be so dramatic, jungkook will still love you deep down...you are the father to his child after all....jungkook will come back focused on himself, young-jae and his future....and because you are young-jae's father you should be apart of that future"

I tilt my head "so what do I do?" He sighs "you build your relationship up from the bottom....when he finally comes home he will still be broken...you need to sort your shit out by then...we have no idea when he'll come home but we hope it'll be soon....don't fuck up jimin... He will always love you deep down"

I look down, IN walks to me and grabs my hands,I look at him and he smiles "but you also need to take care of yourself, don't go fucking every girl in school, that is a shit way of coping.... You like singing right?" I nod, he giggles "then sing! Then make songs and perform them....find a better coping mechanism! I know you love jungkook and it's painful to do but for now....focus on yourself"

I tilt my head "but you just sai-" he nods "I know but for now you need to take care of yourself....I'm not great with advice...but I know jungkook....he will always love you jimin and no matter what he wants you to be happy and healthy....so do this for him... If not for him do it for your son.....keep it in your head that you have a son who will one day run into your arms yelling appa....just be patient because that day will come....build up trust"

I smile and nod "thank you IN, I will do exactly as you said" IN nods "no problem....just don't mess this up again" I nod again "I won't, promise" he lets my hands go and then walks away

I ruined everything but when jungkook comes home I will make it up to him! I was a dick....I need to be better....he deserves someone who will care for him! And I will do exactly that....it will take ages to gain his trust again but I am willing to take that time to gain it....
I just want to...one day....hold him and young-jae in my arms and call them my family

I will change....for jungkook... For young-jae....I will be better!

(((Present time when jk and yg get home))

I gasp when yoongi and taehyung walk through the door, I look at yoongi who smiles "go on jimin, he's nextdoor, Tae told me how much you wanted to change and your progress...you've done well...you now have to gain his trust again....don't fuck it up or I will kill you myself...good luck.....young-jae really wants to meet you" I gasp and jump up

I have been studying more, I haven't slept with anyone for ages and when sluts in school try and get into my pants I tell them I'm in love with someone else, I even wrote a letter to jungkook saying how sorry I am, I cleaned his locker up so it's back with bunny stickers on it.... luckily he can still use it since we're still in the same place
((we go to the same building for collage as we do school, it's a massive place, so you'd do high-school in the building and then move on to collage which is the other side of the building)))
And I have done so many more things to try and show that I'm a better person, my mum has helped me through this, mina was clinging to my side but I managed to tell her to fuck off so now she hangs out with Jennie and that small group.

I just hope I can get jungkook to trust me again, we don't have to be together straight away but even friends and I'll feel better....
Anything and I'll be happy....well...if he says that he hates me and never wants to see me again I will probably go cry to my mum cause that will be painful....I hope that won't be his reaction though.. 

I run out the house and run nextdoor and knock on the door....
They might not answer since I have non-stop been asking what I can do to improve myself and if they can help me get better for jungkook....they normally yell 'fuck off jimin we aren't gonna help you anymore with jungkook' at the door so I leave...but I have tried so much to get better

I gulp and whisper "please please please open up.... I'll apologize....I just need to see him...."