Billie Eilish x Male reader (Discontinued)

Chapter 23

Julian’s House
Y/N’s POV

    I parked the car in front of the garage and went inside. I took my shoes off and collapsed on the couch. I took my phone out and dialed Billie’s number. After taking her sweet time she picked up the phone and I said “Yo bitch” “Hey there hoe. So how was the date tell me the juicy details.” “It was awesome” “Oh really?” I decided to tell her the whole thing “Yeah. Truthfully it was awkward at first then after destroying my stash it went up hill from then.” OH FUCK “Stash what stash are you talking about?!” I decided to play it dumb and said “What stash?” “Y/N Fucking L/N don’t you fucking play with me. What. Stash. Are. You. Talking. About?” oh shit might as well tell her already. “Well I might have kept secret stashes of pills and alcohol that I kept after the purge that I didn’t tell anyone about.” Please don’t kill me Billie please oh please. “And everything is destroyed now?” “Yes totally I after so many years have no drugs or alcohol on me” she sighed deeply and said “Well we WILL talk about this soon. But are you sure I don’t need to come?” Well that went well “Yeah I am sure.” “Well why don’t you go to the guys just in case?” I smiled she really does care about me and knows I might relapse if I am alone. “Ok I’ll go to Josh’s.” “Ok just call me when you get there and I’ll talk to you then ok.” “Ok love you” SHIT WHY THE FUCK DID I SAY THAT. “uh…Love you too. Stay safe babe.” and then she hanged up. God loves me today. I didn’t get arrested by the cops and this didn’t blow up on my face. What more can I ask right. I entertained the thought of driving the Bugatti to Josh’s house but that would be just testing my luck with the police and also Julian’s patience so I decided to just take a cab.

After the cab ride
Josh’s House
Y/N’s POV

“That would be 10 dollars sir.” I searched my wallet and just gave him a hundred dollars cause that was the only money in my wallet. I got out and rang the bells of the gates so that they would let me in. “Y/N what the fuck are you doing here? Did the date blow up on your face or something?” he said through the speaker. “Nope quite the opposite actually. Are you gonna let me in or what?” then the gate opened and I went in. I opened the door and went to the living room to find the guys in their bjs laughing. “Guys you look like 13-year-old girls having a sleepover.” They didn’t say anything. I went and collapsed on the big ass bean bag next to the couch. “So I assume you know what happened by now” “Yeah but it’d be better if you refresh our minds.” I sighed. “Well she found my hidden stash and said that if I don’t stop drugs and alcohol and also destroy every drug and alcohol on me that she would leave” “So you destroyed everything?” “yes Nate we destroyed everything. For the first time in a very long time I have nothing on me” “Woah” “I know Finn” “Why did you come here though?” “Billie made me come here. I called and accidentally told her about and she said that I need to not be alone rn so she told me to come here.” We stayed silent for a while and it was broken when Josh said “Well we are planning to stay up the whole night cause why not am I right. so we were playing truth or dare you wanna join?” I was going to say yes then it hit me “Wait for me I need to call Billie.”

I got up and went outside so that those privacy invaders of friends won’t over hear. I dialed her number and she instantly picked up and said “Hey dude. So you are calling from Josh’s house right?” “Yep” “So you must really like this girl so that you destroyed your pills and alcohol so that she’d stay with you” I sighed and said “Well uh… you can say that and also part of me always wanted to get rid of them you them even though I will have one hell of a withdrawal you know.” “Well anytime you want some company you can call or text me I’m here” I smiled. “I know. It’s just I am still shaken and terrified because of what happened in the morning you know. I just don’t know how to get over it” she stayed silent for a while and said “Maybe you don’t have to get over it” I was surprised. “What?” “I mean listen here. You probably try your best to ignore what happened that you didn’t find closure yet so what I think you should do is try to process it and actually accept what happened and move on.” “It’s not that easy Billie.” I can hear her sigh. “I know that’s why I think you should seek professional help but if you don’t want to I completely understand and if you want to talk about it anytime I am here to support you ok?” “Ok thanks.” “Btw does she know about it” “No I haven’t told her about it. she didn’t even see the scars” “Are you planning to tell her?” I took a moment and thought about it and I compared the possible scenarios. “No I am not planning on telling her anytime soon.” “Ok. I think she would understand. Goodnight bitch I got to go.” “Talk to you later hoe.”  I hanged up the phone and went inside. The guys were trying to seem normal. It was obvious that they were listening to me talk to Billie. Disadvantages of having a sleepover I guess. I went and sat on the bean bag. “OK let’s play this shit.”  

Time skip to 4:00 Past midnight
Y/N’s POV

    “*Yawns* ok dude imma sleep seeya in a couple of hours.” “Good night Finn.” He was the last one standing beside me. The guys all went to sleep. I got up and went to the kitchen to fix me some coffee. While I was pouring myself a cup I heard a voice say “Hey there Y/N/N.” I turned to see Billie standing there with a knife on one hand and a cup of coffee on the other. I sighed and took out my phone to see if I can still read. “I can still read so this is not a dream so that means that you are a delusion.” She nodded and I sighed again. I picked one hell of a day to forget my anti-psychotics home. Wait I destroyed them with the others. FUCK. “So are you going to stab me” “Not if you behave and try not to wake anyone.” I face palmed. This is gonna be on hell of a night. I went to my room yes I have a room at Josh’s house. The last thing I need rn is top wake up the guys.  I locked the door behind me and turned the TV on and made myself comfortable on the bed. She came and sat next to me. “So are you like my normal delusions or not?” She turned to and said “What do you think?” “Well I think that somewhat aren’t because I find the presence of Billie to be comforting so I guess my brain is trying to cope with the impending possibility of me sleeping by making you and you probably would go once I am with the real Billie right?” She laughs and says “Probably but how could I know I am just a way your subconscious is trying to protect itself. Now put you head here and let’s watch some movies till the morning.” I HBO Now and played Euphoria. It’s basically an hour per episode and there are 8 episodes so that would take the time. I put my head on my head on her shoulder and continued to watch the first episode “You know from all the delusions I had you are probably like the most chill.” She laughed. Damn her laugh is like the real one “Well thank you.” We continued to watch the series Right around the 8th episode I heard a knock on my door. I got up to open it. I was greeted by Finn. “Hey man breakfast is ready let’s go.” “Cool let me just turn the TV off.” I turned around to see the delusion was gone. I sighed and turned off and went downstairs with Finn. "Damn my mental health is getting worse." I thought to myself.