MEMORIES....SOME LAST A LIFETIME

Chapter Six

When he woke that morning, the first thought that came to mind was of Sanem.  The sleep that was provided by the few glasses of whiskey from the night before had left him still tired and empty.  But empty of what,  that's the question that invaded his mind.  His hurry to return home and pick up on his life as he knew it had been met with a yet another challenge.  The feeling of being blindsided was all he could think of.  He had hoped to share the adventure of the mountain trip with her when he arrived yesterday, but instead, he returned to a new problem and a whole new range of emotions.

He made his tea,  had a light breakfast of toast and fruit,  then sat down to make his plans for the day.   His head was in a fog, everything that came to his thoughts to do that day seemed to involve her.. Sanem.  He started to walk, to try and clear his head.  He walked around the farm, down the road towards Mihribans, then he took the path into the woods. As he ventured further down the trail, the smell of the wildflowers met him.  " That is her smell. " He reminisced.  That smell that made his heart flutter, he knew it had meant something in their relationship from reading the book, but he didn't know the reason that smell had been so important to him.. After a couple of hours of roaming the grounds he sat down on the steps of her house,  thinking, maybe he was trying to hard.  Maybe she was right, the need to remember was pressing on him, he needed to relax and let things happen naturally.  

Sanem hadn't slept and felt the effects of it .  Her mind couldn't focus on her writing, so she decided to take her walk a little earlier that usual.  She took the same way as always,  she had become accustomed to the area and it made her feel safe.. Although the city was large and spread out,  her neighborhood was quiet and calm.  The coffee shop was closed, but she walked there anyway, just looking and teaching herself that this was to be her new look on life.  Let the new beginnings be positive and full of promise, she thought, as she started back to her place.  The thoughts of her old life took over as she wandered through the streets, when she finally stopped she was standing in front of of Fikri Harika. " This is were it all began, My heartache, My happiness, My life. "  she wept.  

She wondered if anyone had ever died from a broken heart..........

Her apartment was only six blocks from the agency. In her heart of hearts, she thought , " Had she choose that apartment just for the location? " But she knew she would need to remain as she was, at least for now. Just to feel that he was close, would have to be enough..........                              It was late in the afternoon when she returned home, tired and drained emotionally.  Her book hadn't crossed her mind as she walked. She was ahead of schedule on it so she could relax a bit..     She tried to eat, but the taste for food was gone. She took a hot shower, dressed in her PJ's, and curled up in bed. The lack of sleep from the night before and the extended walk in the afternoon, allowed her body to welcome the sleep she needed.  In her dreams she entertained the thoughts of Can, and  the happiness of when they first met. That second day in the office as she ridiculed the new boss. Little did she know that he would be the man that would bind her heart and soul together forever.

She woke to her alarm going off. That happened on a rare occasion. This may prove to be a rough day she thought.  She quickly dressed and ate. Making her tea for her to-go tumbler,  to take with her,  she started her walk to work. Thankfully the weather was beautiful, but when it wasn't she would have to take a taxi.  Mondays were always busy,  with people hurrying to start the work week. She loved the customers, they were very supportive and constantly ask about her new book. At he end of the her shift, Maya asked if she was ok.  She assured her things were fine, but avoided direct eye contact.  Her new friend had quickly learned to read her moods.            " Ok. " she said, but if you need to talk, I'm here. And I can keep a secret. " she winked and continued on with her work.. Maya reminded her of Ayhan.  She missed her childhood friend, they solved many problems together, but as of lately she hadn't offered a lot of support for her and Cans' problems. Her solution was to, " Kick him to the side and get on with your life girl. "  And in a way that's what she had done, but It would have been nice to hear some regret in her voice..   As she walked home from the coffee shop, she wondered how Can took the news of her resignation. She thought that her sister might had called her to let her know, but she hadn't received any calls, as she looked at her phone........surprised to see her phone was on silent.....Oh no, ten missed calls, four voicemails and six texts.............all from Can...

Can arrived at the office a little late, still groggy from the trip and his lack of sleep.  Emre met him with a big hug, " Hey abi, when did you get home? "  he shouted.  "  I made it in  on Saturday afternoon. " Can said. " Sorry I didn't call but it was a little tense at home. Where's Sanem, has she not came in yet? "  Can asked, looking around the office for her. Emre braced himself for the eruption that was about to happen.  It seemed that everyone in the office was doing the same.  Deren cautiously enter his office, " Can, welcome back. I trust you had a good trip. " She stuttered.  Leila had entered his office also. They all stood there fidgeting and looking at each other.  Can looked from person to person, trying to figure out what was happening. He waved his arms in a questioning gesture, " Ok, what 's going on.  You all look like you've been sentenced to the firing squad. Can joked. " Brother, " Emre started.  " Stay calm, but we need to tell you something,  Sanem resigned two weeks ago. "  

His heart pounded as the words rang painfully in his head,  why did she not tell him......

His eyes clouded and rimmed with tears, as he scanned each of them. 

" Is that right?" His voice low and full of emotion. He eyes searched each one of them, " Ok, so which one of you are going to tell me where she is?"