MEMORIES....SOME LAST A LIFETIME

Chapter Fourteen

Can set up his camp, ready to relax, and stretch out under the stars. He made his tea over the campfire, poured a cup and sat back to enjoy. He closed his eyes and tried to remember the last time he had been camping, it had been his last photography adventure. What was the last thing that made him happy. He shook his head,  shouting out loud to himself, "You aren't suppose to be doing this, your trying to relax and let your brain rest.. just clear it, don't think." Oh my god, how hard that was to do.  He rolled out his sleeping bag and laid down, looking up at the stars. Why had he been dealt this fate, wasn't the rejection of his mother all these year, enough for him to handle in one lifetime. The silence was deafening, almost to much. It had always been what he preferred, but for some reason, now it made him sad and lonely, as if  a major piece of his soul was missing... He stared at the stars until he fell asleep..

Sanem lounged on the balcony,  wishing the publisher would call her. Her life had so many ups and downs it was hard to keep up with them all. Can was constantly in her mind, she tried to move him out but each thought she had was related to him in some way..The book, which was a story of their life and love, was her focus at the time, so how was she to deal with the emptiness that grew in her heart and soul.  All that they where to one another, was recorded and documented into history, and everyone would know the pain that lived inside her.  Her only hope was, she could rise like the Phoenix, in renewal and show the world her fiery colors,  as she rebuilds her life.  She was ready.........

He felt restless. He hiked in the woods, exploring the beauty of it. Just anything to occupy his mind, he thought, and find the peace he was looking for and needed.  That smell, it stopped him in his tracks, her smell.  He looked around until he saw the white wildflower bush that held the fragrance that stirred his thoughts..He knelt down, holding the flower gently, he smelled.  He saw her,  facing him, smiling  and smelling the same flowers.  He closed his eyes, letting the flash of her linger.  He had seen this before in a flashback, but it always touched him like it was brand new..just like it was the first time he had seen her.  He knew she was special to him, if he could remembered bits and pieces of something so small as smelling a flower. 

He packed up on Tuesday morning to head home.  The trip hadn't helped as much as he thought  it would, but work was waiting, and called him back to reality.  The thoughts of returning to his old job of photography had entered his mind. Maybe the diversion would put things in perspective for him.  Possibly  just some small jobs, not to far away, he could still manage the agency just fine.  Emre and Deren would be able to handle things while he was gone...He would make some phone calls and see what was available.. definitely something to think about..

Several days had pasted since she sent her transcript to Bedir, her publisher. She was anxious to hear some news. She also hadn't had a text or call from Can, she wondered if he returned from his camping trip.  " WHY ? "  why was she thinking about him, it makes it so much harder to move on.. It was Thursday and work had been busy, she made it home to rest, and was thinking about CeyCey.she hadn't heard from him in a couple of days, maybe she would call him and touch base..Before she could make the call, her phone rang.  It was Bedir, she quickly answered,  excited and anxious,  " Hello Bedir. How are you? "  she blurted..  "  Sanem , hello, I'm fine and you. "  he answered.  She relayed that she was fine and ready for some news...He informed her they wanted to do a re-release on her first book, just ahead of the launch of the second book.  They wanted to make an impact and boost the popularity of the release.  It was all going to happen fairly quick. The new release, had a projected date of eight weeks, meaning the re-release would come in less than a month.  The promotion for the re-release would start soon and flow into the launch of the new book.  " This means you are going to be traveling for quite some time, is that going to be a problem, " he asked.. Her dream was coming true, the travel, meeting all the people, putting herself out there, making her life what she wanted it to be....               After a minute, she answered with resounding, " No, " It couldn't come at a better time, you have made me very happy." She said.   He shouted, " Great, everyone here is overjoyed. It's going to the event of the year. "  Let me send you the details,  but it looks like we will travel to France first, they have shown a great deal of interest in the new book. "  I will send it all in an email."  He said. She thanked him, and told him she would watch for the mail.  

" WOW! " the event of the year. She was over the moon, and France, did he say France!  I can't believe it..She had to call her sister.  She delivered the news to Leila, and it was met with a lot of screams and jumping up and down...The whole office was watching and listening, as she reveled in the joy of her sister.. " I'm so happy for you Sanem, I can't believe it,....France, Wow. " Deren and Can were just coming out of a meeting, they stopped, noticing the commotion. Can listened as Leila delivered the news to their friends,  " Yes, " Leila babbled,  " a re-release and a new launch at he same time." And she starts her promotional tour in France!!  Everyone clapped and was hugging Leila, telling her to wish Sanem good luck from them...Leila started back to her office and met Can, she stopped, his eyes met hers, she saw the pain and regret.  This was going to be hard, no doubt, but she would stand by her sister and the choice she had made...

Can walked into his office, shut the door.  She's doing it, she's moving on.....

Where did that leave him?......still lost and alone.  Not able to move on, and going back, well it just didn't have the same appeal as it did before.....He picked up his phone. 

" Why didn't you tell me your new book is being published? " .......Send

Sanem was surprised at the text....

" I was going to, but things got in the way. " .........She replied, hitting the send button.

Can replied:  " I'm happy for you, and proud. Will you keep in touch,... please. " ........Send

Sanem:  " Thank you, I will try, I'm going abroad and my schedule is going to be hectic"...........Send

Can:  " Sure, I understand........Send

Sanem didn't reply. She was doing the right thing.....she hoped she was.