The Untold Cuddle

Chapter 11: The unknown premises

/Sam/
Flashback.

"Hey Top, I'm talking to you!"

It's our 8th Monthsary, I should tell my parents about Top but suddenly my parents disagreed.

"Let's end this Sam! Kung hindi moko kayang ipagmalaki sa mga tao sa paligid natin sana man lang kaya mokong ipaglaban sa mga magulang mo!"

I know it's hard to pursue your dreams lalo na't you're surrounded by norms and expectations from people arround.

"You know it'll happen but you keep on ignoring, you never listen to me, you never consider my feelings Top! Ikaw lagi ang pinakikisamahan ko at ikaw lagi ang nasusunod kahit na mali ang mga decisions mo!"

I'm not the perfect guy to take pride to shout all over the campus that I have a Boyfriend, but I'm the guy na handang mag adjust pero it's not the right timing para magmahal ng taong self centered.

[Present time]

[Cafeteria]

"Coffee Machiatto and Club house ma'am!" I've ordered my Favorite coffee and snack.

I saw Top having an argument with Amber.

"Are you Amber from the Dance Company of college?!" Top asks in an angry voice.

"Yes! I am Amber! What is your problem? Do you have something to say?"

Are they Fighting? Mukhang galit si Amber dahil ayaw na ayaw niyang napapahiya sa maraming tao dahil masisira ang privilege niya as a Leader ng dance company ng buong campus.

"Top, from Engineering Department and you are the one I've been looking for an hour everywhere!" he Yelled again to Amber.

"So? Do you think I care?" Pikon na si Amber based on his tone.

"Just write my name for the audition tomorrow!" Audition for the Dance Group? Makakasama namin siya?

"Amber! Hey amber are you okay? Have you seen this tweet?" I asks.

(where the hell is Amber? Can someone tell me where the Fvcking hell he is?) tweeted by P'Top

I've followed Top on Twitter since we've been together.

"see? nakausap ko nayan kanina! Yung mayabang na lalaki na mukha namang.. Ah basta mayabang! By the way Sam, bukas na ang start ng audition ng mga mag uunder ng training sa OCDC"

"ah yes bukas na nga and pagiisipan ko pa kung manunuod ako."

I don't want to see Top dances with his partner, I felt jealous even were not in a relationship.

"Uhm, Rile hey!"

"Ow, Sam I heard you brok...."

I saw Rile while I'm sitting in Cafeteria with Amber, sh*t Wag kang maingay Rile please shut your fvcking Mouth.

"Rile! Just take a seat with us! Okay? By the way Amber meet Rile a friend of mine from the Med. Department."

"Ow Hi, Rile?"

Amber lend his hand to Rile.

"Mr. Saavedra huh!"

Kilala talaga si Amber ng mga students dahil siya ang leader ng famous na dance group and yes I was the one who introduced Rile to Amber and I don't know that Amber would court her, Top's First Girlfriend and Reason why Top doesn't like girls.

(A week ago after the audition for OCDC)

"Leigh it's been a week since I abstained to see Amber."

A decision from my mind on keeping away from Amber and Top is a good way of hiding myself.

"It's good to hide your connection between Top dahil alam naman natin ang situation ni Amber." Leigh says.

"I still love Top, Leigh. I miss how sweet he is and alam kong andaming nag bago sa kanya since we broke up." I murmured.

"Sam... Please give Top a freedom to find a right person for him."

I can't get over him. How he smile and laugh, how we talk and glance at me makes my feelings back when we are together.

I know na si Amber ang tinutukoy ni Top sa old tweets niya after we broke up. "From an old childhood friend and now seeing as my future." I remember Amber once told me about his old friend from San Martino, Kris if I'm not mistaken and what a coincidence if Top's real name was Kristopher.

(Marco Invited me to go in Win's Bar)

"Hey Sam! Let's go to WinST."

I received a text from Marco's number.

"Why? It's your birthday? Huh?" I replied.

Then I arrived at Win's bar and I saw Leigh and Marco and I don't know why they want us to hang out.

"Let's drink? Haha bakit ba anong meron?" They look seems so intense ha.

"Nothing Treat ko naman don't worry haha." Marco laughed after saying.

We almost drink 1 bucket of beer. Until a two people looks so serious entered a bar.

"Hey! What are you guys doing here? Are you joining us?" I slightly shouted for Top and Amber to hear me and I saw Amber murmured something like unexpected to see.

"Come and sit here, Let's drink and enjoy the atmosphere! cheers!" Leigh lifted his glass for a toast.

"What are you guys up for? Bakit kailangan natin uminom anong celebration?" Amber asks what I wanted to ask too.

"I need to tell you something." Top says.

Do I have the courage para makinig sa mga sasabihin ni Top para kay Amber? At bakit kailangang kasama ako? Para ano, magselos?

"Guys I need to go to the CR." I felt too drunk.

"Wait Sam, you need to tell us something." Top says.

"what should I tell you?" I asks.

"Just tell Amber what is our connection and tapos na, please tell him the truth." Top. Pursuing me to tell about us.

"Truth about what? Connection with you, our past? Huh?!"

"I was the one who told Top na hindi ka pa nakaka move on." Did Leigh spilled everything?

"is that matter? Moving on is not easy but I have proven na mas okay nalang na lumayo, Amber! I'm really sorry but I haven't moved yet with my Ex, yes Top was my Ex and I think it's not good to go around with you."

I ain't need their pitty but I need to say this for top. "Yes Top I ain't done loving you, I always visit your social media, follow every steps you take and I missed how you care for me! Is that good enough to hear na hindi pako tapos mag mahal sa taong nagmamahal na ng iba?"

I've walked out while my tears are keep on dripping from my eyes into my cheeks when passing over a crowd when a big palm touches my arm that stopped me from walking.

"Hey Sam, I know you're the one sending me some chocolates and presents bakit kailangan mo tong gawin?" Top ask with confusion.

"I can't imagine you're having someone na kaibigan ko pa tapos Top alam kong hindi na natin to maibabalik pero Top I want to let you know na ipinaglaban kita sa mga magulang ko since then pero hindi ka nakinig sakin." I tried to wipe my tears but it was dripping too much.

"Sam I'm sorry for what I've done and sorry if I'm courting your friend but I do love him since the first day we met and siya ang first love ko Sam."

"First love never dies huh?" I sarcastically said while reaching my hands to hugged him.

"I trust you to love my friend and I wish you'll last longer than your last relationship huh! Hope you get his answer soonest." I've wish them a luck to show my acceptance but who am I para mag stay pa sa bar so I go out and I'll talk to Amber tomorrow sa klase.