An Art I Would Always Wonder

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Another day of high school and I feel like passing out. I may look fine but deep inside, the thoughts from yesterday is still not faded. That new guy even saw me in that state, I wonder if he has talk about that with anyone. I was overloaded with tons of feelings and my whole body felt burnt as i could feel the heat and pressure inside my mind.

*phone rings

"where are you Tzu? Come at the cafeteria, i'll be waiting you there" she hanged up

lili and her excitement never fails to amaze me like seriously i couldn't even say a single word and she already hung up after finishing what she had to say! I went to the locker to put my stuffs and went to the cafeteria.

There were bunch of girls around the centre flirting with boys and not to mention that jaspur guy was there. Lili was so damn right when she said he's gonna be popular.

As i was searching for Lili, his eyes met mine and again "HELL NO" my mind whispered;

That jaspur guy stared at me and so did his whole squads. My heart felt heavy and my mind unclear, not sure of why they were all looking at me! There was this inner voice telling me "may be he spilled what he saw the other day"

now i'll soon be a dead meat after knowing that everyone would be talking about me, about my situation while coming up with shitty rumours. This is why i never liked the idea of high schools however lili called me from the right corner of the table and without looking anywhere esle , I walked towards her

"what took you so long?" lili said while stuffing doughnuts in her mouth

"i was just checking up some stuffs and Mr. Bang wanted me to help him out carry some notebooks" i replied but there was still some things i wanted to share with her about that jaspur guy

"hey lili, i need to say something to you but promise me you'll not react too much" i was scared and confused whether i should say or keep it that way

"what? Is it serious?" she looked concern even though her cheeks were fully stuffed with doughnuts

"not here, i will tell you later"

she furrowed her brows "is everything all right with you?"

I softly smiled at her and said nothing

We went back to the class and very soon the class began. Mr.bang, our homeroom teacher entered inside with a huge glass of Jar and i wonder what he was going to do with that since i was sure that he's not just gonna plant something on that. However, I slowly started feeling something bad was gonna happen. Something I was not sure of and was disturbing my mind. Jinx I would say

"Attention class! I present you this glass where you have to write one name in the paper and put inside it. Then, according to the votes the winner will be the class president" 

As soon as I heard him say that an uncomfortable feeling rushed through my body.

Everybody started writing names and I was still unsure. I had this small piece of paper in front of me and not even single name crossed my mind whom I could choose. Everyone started filling up the jar as Mr.bang approached each rows and now it was my time to put the paper inside the jar.

After collecting the votes, he started unfolding the papers and finally he stood from his chair and was about to reveal the name.

not me please! not me! please make him say someone else name god ! please hear me for this last time!!! I deeply prayed inside my heart...

"Irene" he spelled and damn I was shocked yet so happy at the same time. I clapped at the very moment he said that and I felt a huge burden leaving my body. However, that happiness didn't even last 10 sec when he continued ".....good luck next time, Congratulations to our forever president, Tzuyu Chou!!!"

my mouth wide opened, my hands feezed and my mind not ready to agree with what my eyes and ears witnessed. I hear everyone in the room cheering and clapping for me but Irene was the only single person giving me that death glare.

I had my own problems and I could not bear any extra being a class president. I was already going through hard times and taking responsibility of the whole class was out of my limit. It was too much and I couldn't control my hand lifting up in the air by my subconscious self.

"Yes Tzuyu! You have anything to say?" Mr.bang asked

"Can you change and give that position to someone else?" I requested and the class was all silent staring at me.

"but why? You are perfect for this" he responded

Perfect....I'm tired of hearing this word. Why do people always expect each other to be perfect when they know that there is a word called flaw.

I was about to speak up then Irene interrupted "Bet she wants to run from responsiblity"

I wanted to tape her shitty lips but....she was not wrong though! I wanted to run and yes I wanted to take care of myself instead of papers and duty's. I didn't wanted to face anyone and mostly...Mom.

"Shut up loser!" Lisa shouted at Irene and tried to defend me

she then rolled off her eyes and turned her back but little did I know there would be another person who would go against the decision of the class

Kim Taehyung the jaspur guy