An Art I Would Always Wonder

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No matter how much I try to divert my mind, not an hour passed by without his memories flashing right through my mind. My brain was on repeat over the same incident and my heart was crying over the same shit which I couldn't control. I really needed to talk with someone but again, it was only lili that I could count on. If I tell her, she might get worried and who knows if she ended up telling it to Jungkook? It's gonna be a big mess so telling her would be a big NO!
Just then my phone buzzed with the only friend I have in my contact..... lili's name popped up on the screen

"You're gonna live long Lisa!" I said
"was I supposed to die today or what? anyways, where the fuck are you!? I've been waiting you for ages" She whispered

"why're u whispering?" I replied not knowing she was in the middle of the class after hearing Mr.bang lecturing at the back

"Wait- are you seriously not coming? Am I supposed to spend the entire day by myself in the college?" She whispered, breathing heavily

"Lili! Hang up the call, I don't want myself to get caught up in your another silly act" I started panicking along with her with the risk she was taking, I mean we both still have our punishment on pending when stuffs happened few months ago, not to forget Jungkook and him...

"You're still worrying about you? What am I supposed to do whole day?" she growled back qnd there was no chance she was gonna hang up until she gets caught so I put off the call. I bet she's crying and cursing at me right now but it's best for both of us.
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One thing I was proud as a child was I could easily do splits and flex in front of my family......who are no longer by my side I guess. But yeah, I was quite flexible and I still am so I wanted to give it a try. Scrolling through my email, I finally gathered up my courage to message Miss Suzy to become the part of cheerleading team. I believed there was not even a half of chance for me to get in but there's no loss in trying right? So I sent a pretty long email, trying to convince her that I'll not fail myself or anyone.

I looked up the phone all day hoping for that one reply from Miss Suzy and still there was no response. My day just went like scrolling through phone, checking the emails back and forth, tearing down on the same shit, watching motivational stuffs that hardly lasted for 5 minutes and back to the sad reality and again zoning out from the reality every 10 seconds.

It was around 7 pm when I finally got an email from Miss Suzy that wrote "Your request is accepted. You don't have to worry about missing classes as Cheerleading practice starts from 5 PM to 8PM sharp so be there on time. "
A tinge of hope flashed in my eyes.

The wait finally came to an end and somehow I managed myself to sleep though it was really hard. I was woke up by the annoying ring of my alarm and my daily routine began. Nowadays it becomes quite chilly in the morning.....After all, it's just not me changing but also the weather. Taking a deep breathe, I started getting ready for the college while packing up my stuffs that was scattered all over my room. I chucked all the tissues that were lying dry on the floor. Gosh! How much river did I let my eyes ran?

Anyways....I reached the college bit earlier to finish off the things that I ended up halfway which of course was the paperworks for this month. There was thankfully no one in the room to distract me and things went smoothly than I had expected. I completed it almost in time and after few hours, I could see Lisa glaring at me from her seat, also jungkook.

I chuckled in a response of how both of them stared me as if they were ready to eat me raw any time. Never had I ever thought that these two would become a thing, they're a total madness but the more I look at them, the more I believe that they were indeed meant to be together.

"It makes sense that Lisa is mad at me but what's with you?" I asked Jungkook while slightly dragging chair closer to Lili who was still upset with me for missing classes 3 days straight

"Why didn't you came to college and why didn't you dare to even call any of us?" He questioned to me as if my existence would matter to him or anyone

"Chill, I caught lil bit of cold, nothing serious"

"Cold? And you missed 3 days? We're not dumb Tzuyu" Lili said in bit of annoyance

"Well, I got a fever too" I lied.....again

"What? Was it too serious? You okay?" her expression changed in a flash with a worried look

"Yeah that's why I'm here"

"you are little bit hot though. You sure you good?" She questioned placing her hand on my forehead getting little concerned

I nodded my head assuring them that I was okay........physically. We settled back to our own positions but just then I couldn't keep my mouth shut around Lisa about the fact that I joined cheerleading so I ended up telling her and Jesus Christ her reaction was as dramatic as her freaking lashes.

"You're not okay right? Did something happened to you?" She asked giving me the continuous glare as if she already knew something was off about me. If only my mouth was able to speak what my mind was telling, I wouldn't have been like this......I wouldn't have felt like this. It hurts when you feel everything but could only speak a little

"I just want to try something different Lisa. Something I had never thought of before, I want to prove it that I can do it" she looks me back with those doll like eyes in a confusion.

"I'm proud of you but don't be too harsh on yourself k? If you truly mean what you say then you go girl! I'll be cheering you at the top of my lungs sitting at the front row" she said and I seriously wanna give her a tight hug but too late, the teacher entered. Anyways, I'm gonna save that for later

"Can I come in?" His voice rang my ears giving me chills, I couldn't look at him but I could figure out it was him as I heard girls whisper around. My eyes remained fixated on the pages that I was holding, my body not moving an inch, my lips silently murmuring each words and lines printed on the paper but my mind taking note on his each step coming towards. I could smell his scent when he passed and it hadn't changed at all, it was still the same. He then dragged his chair and sat on his usual place which was just behind me. Forget him, forget him, forget him...my mind kept demanding on repeat

First classes are always strict, the teacher would ask bunch of questions pointing out to each student that act suspicious, or those who have zero concentrations.
"Lalisa! Come here and solve this!"
Meanwhile Lili who was in her half sleep in the first period itself had no idea what the topic was about.
"Shit! Why does this Math always have problem with me?" She whispered

"I have taught you this, remember the formula we practised last week?" Jungkook whispered from her back trying to save her

"How the hell am I supposed to remember one formula out of hundreds and that too from last week?" She replied panicking a little

"Lalisa, are you gonna take the whole day?" He yelled

"Um....I don't think I have ever seen that question before" she managed to say recklessly in-front of the whole class, I can't believe this girl! She honestly has no fear does she?

"Then you better keep your focus on the board!" He replied

She smiled cutely and nodded her head without any hesitation.