Ten reasons -Jikook

Reason 1

Nine cuts done and one to go.

I can't believe I'm actually going to end everything.

It is the right thing to do...

Right?

My eyes opened up and the sun pours in from the window. I blinked a few times to adjust to the light and puled myself lazily from the bed. My cuts sting very much and the blood dried on my arms. I reached down towards the floor to pick up my journal and I hold it close to me.

"I don't deserve you" That's something I wrote on my Journal. The truth is I don't deserve anyone even if it wasn't Jungkook. It still hurts to think that he will never love me but I'm numb so I don't feel it that bad anymore at least it's the last thing I'm able to feel.

The whole day I spent slicing cuts on my skin, cursing profanities and crying into my pillow. Not only that but also wrecking my room. After all of that was done, I grabbed my journal and began to write my last journal entry.

19/4/19

Reason 1

Why can't I learn to be good enough for you Kookie?! I know I'm beyond screwed up but why couldn't you just love me. I know you deserve the best and that just not me, Jungkook. If you ever read this, I just want you to know that I love you.

I finished my journal entry, unable to write anymore. I dropped my pen and journal to the floor and got up from my bed. Staring at the words "I quit" that I wrote on the wall in red paint, I took out a bottle of pills from my pocket. "I don't want to live anymore ..." I whispered as I opened the bottle. I poured all the remaining pills in my hand and just as I was about to pop them all in my mouth, I heard a voice.

"Jimin don't!" The voice yelled, barging into the room. Not just any voice, but Jungkook's voice. Jimin stopped his actions and turned around. "I'm sorry, I have to." Jimin said, holding tightly onto the pills as he closed his eyes and shook his head.

"But I love you ..." Jungkook stated shakily, trying to hold back his tears.

"... I love you too. I always will ..." Jimin said, as his tears started to fall hard.

"Then don't say goodbye ... I need you" Jungkook sobbed, crashing himself into Jimin, hugging him tightly.

That's what Jimin wanted to happen ... but it didn't. Jimin popped the pills into his mouth and they soon started to take effect. He began to step weakly onto the stool he prepared so he could hang himself.

" There are ten reasons why I can't find the strength to live anymore ..." Jimin struggled out, sobbing as he grabbed onto the rope. His vision started to grow weak as did his strength. "Not being good enough for you is on of them ..." Jimin finished as he did what he had to do.

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After Jimin hung himself, Jungkook tried calling Jimin hopes that he would answer. Little did he know that Jimin was already dead.

Jungkook had this weird feeling ...

This weird feeling that something was really off with Jimin this time, so he drove to his apartment.

Jungkook stepped out of his car in a rush and remembering he doesn't know the password, he kept kicking at the door. Ten hard kicks later it flew finally open.

"Jimin!!! Where are you? I know you're upset and going through a lot, but please answer me!!" Jungkook shouted desperately, running up the stairs.

"No!" Jungkook shouted, looking at Jimin's hanging and dead body. "Why, Jimin? Why did you do this ...?" Jungkook cried out, grabbing harshly onto his hair as he made his way into the room.

He could feel it. All of Jimin's pain and suffering lingering throughout the room. Lois sobbed excessively, trying to breath. Sobbing even more, he started hyperventilating the more he stared at Jimin's dead body. "Why?!" Jungkook screamed in the middle of his rough breathing and unstable crying. Jungkook lowered his head down and saw Jimin's journal on the floor. He picked it up and began reading while crying and breathing hard. Once Jungkook got to the last reason Jimin wrote down, he lost it. He started screaming and crying, wishing he could have prevented this.

"You were supposed to wait, Jimin! I loved you so fucking much. I just couldn't bring my self to tell you!" Jungkook sobbed out, falling to the floor with his hands over his face.

"It was always you...I always loved you I just couldn't except it!"

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Thanks for reading and don't cry to much. I'll now watch some cute Jikook moments because I'm crying. I'll better end the story here before I make it even more sad because I had more up my sleeves but I can't bring myself to write that down.