Ten reasons -Jikook

Reason 4

19/4/15

Reason 4

Ever heard of the term "third wheel"? I'm in that situation, but instead of third I'm the seventh. Wherever I go out with the guys it's always Hobi and Suga talking to each other. Then it's always Tae and Jungkook laughing and what not with each other. Then there are Jin and Namjoon walking like an old married couple and then there's me.

The seventh wheel. I'm the loner of the group. Sure, there are times where the members talk to me but it's rare. Even when there is that moment, I'm having a conversation it's always a short one. Once I tried to start a conversation with Jungkook but his attention was taken by Tae.

I can't stand Taekook.

I hate it.

I get so jealous when fans always take notice of Taekook.

"oh look, it's Taekook!!"

"Tae and Jungkook are so awesome!!"

"Taekook forever"

Those are some things fans always say when there's some Taekook action going on. Whether it's on stage or in an interview, fans just can't get enough of Taekook.

Don't even get me fucking started on Sope.

"Oh my gosh, Sope!!"

"Hobi and Suga need to be together, they are like Ying and Yang!"

Fans can't get enough of them.

Where does that leave me?

Alone.

I wish Jungkook didn't think Jikook was bullshit ...

Then maybe, just maybe he'd love me eventually.

The loneliness is driving me insane. Memories of me and Jungkook are haunting me and thinking about him just hurts. It feels like my hurt is torn into pieces. While the pain in my chest grows bigger. I could fell a cold sensation starting to rise from my feet. I started to shake and soon my body became numb and cold. I can't move and my sadness is eating me from inside out. I let out silent screams as my salty tears made their way across my face to my mouth. This being the first thing I tasted in days.

I don't mind wasting away like this. The pain is overwhelming and I can't wait to just end it all. Maybe the little glimpse of hope that is left keeps me from ending it right now. I just need to fight the pain a little longer and then maybe Jungkook will realize he loves me. Gosh I'm being pathetic. As if he would love when he's clearly better of without me. Still Jungkook is the only one that could save me from my misery.