This book contains life accounts, the way I see and interpret our world and basically a diary of my feelings. It is a non fiction book and talks about some serious and some non serious topics.
I being an overthinker, never thought would ever actual...
In this messed up world I am scared of many things, from heights, dark, snakes (mostly all reptiles), spiders, bats, earthworms (yeah don't judge me), moths, deep waters, hot oil, Velociraptor (nothing personal), stairs (it still hurts like a bitch), zombies and the list goes on and on. But since a few days, I realized what scares me the most.
I am afraid to bear children. I don't want to make a baby and then bring that kid into this world. Not that I am not afraid of the process itself but it just feels wrong to bring an innocent human in the world we live in. I am afraid for that child's future, and if by any chance I do end up with a kid of my own, I would be worried sick for the rest of my life for that child of mine.
Now now now, don't exit the chapter just yet thinking 'it's another one of those', kindly stick with me and I ensure you it's worthy of your time.
Let's see into the possibility of me having a child in some distant, far away future. Firstly the process of fertilization is no less than a miracle. Up to 40 million sperms race to get to one prized destination ( sounds like a large scale treasure hunt going on). The winner gets to live in a prestigious House *winking suggestively* for the next nine months with an associate of the owner until the owner decides to forcefully push out a 3.5 kg baby from a 10 cm wide door.
This is traumatic enough but the possibility of the child to be a victim of any genetic disorder or a developmental disorder which will impede the rest of its life is nerve-wracking. After going through all that, once the baby is out then the real fight begins. Oh, and let's name the baby Sam.
I will be utterly afraid for the gender of Sam. You see living in the 21st century, we still fail to realize what is the meaning of gender equality. But surprisingly sexual violence tends to be gender-neutral.
I will not let anyone even touch Sam or take care of Sam in my absence because I wouldn't trust anyone with my child. According to a survey, 60% of children are sexually abused by the people whom the family trust, so no thank you, I will take care of my child by myself.
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And if you think that if Sam would be a boy, the problem will be solved because 'these things' only happen with girls then you are wrong because actually, statics for males being the victims of sexual assault are higher for that of females.
