Magta-tatlong oras na akong nakababad sa harap ng computer para tapusin ang acads na naka schedule ngayong araw. Pharmacology. It deals with how the drug acts inside our body and also how the body reacts to the drugs; diseases with signs and symptoms, side effects and adverse effects, overdose & under dose of the drug of choice. And I must say this is the most fun subject that I encounter; kahit na andaming ime-memorise na drugs with brand names.
The enhanced community quarantine has been implemented. My parents were very keen from our safety to our foods. I-ta-take ko nalang din ito na opportunity to eat home meals dahil dalawang taon din akong puro take outs at karenderya sa Davao. Bliss.
Sib is coping up. She is doing well. Nag-uusap kami kapag gusto lang namin asarin ang isa't-isa. We were also comparing our requirements. Their professors were more strict than ours. May oral quiz sila na mismo ang kanilang profs ang tatawag through cellular number. Hooh.
I also finished my manuals and notes. I-sca-scan ko na lamang ito at ipapadala through e-mail. Our profs are been so considerate. Well, at least this time. The school also assured us that this pandemic will not affect our transcript of records thus meetings are on-going in partake to grading system.
My body clock were also affected. For the past 2 weeks, I mostly slept at 3 AM to finished my acads and woke up at 12 PM; read at least one (1) chapter from a book, walked my siberian husky at 4 PM, taking photographs at 6 PM - basically, sunset -, eat dinner at 8 PM and the rest is up to me or based on my schedule.
Ang quarantine na ito ang magpapa-tunay ng katamaran nating mga mag-aaral. Haaay. Indeed, nakakatamad maging tamad.
And Peach, we talked mostly at the morning. All nighters din siya dahil may mga papasahing requirements din siya; portfolio and stuff. We understand each other's time. Kapag tapos na siya, we talked. Kapag naman hindi pa ako tapos, she will sleep and yeah sometimes hindi na kami makakapag-usap. But, it doesn't mean wrong. Ayoko lang ng drama. I am, or we are too old for dramas. Sabi nila hindi daw healthy ang relationship niyo kapag hindi kayo nag aaway, is it faulty? That's too romantic. Bat naman kayo mag-aaway kung walang dahilan? Ano iyon, para may issue lang?
Do not start a fire with your own flame. Masyado ng magulo ang buhay. At kung dadagdag pa kami, what's life more to offer? Hindi naman sa sigurado akong hindi na kami mag-aaway or hindi magkaka-intindihan but as long as universe doesn't permits, why would I risk?
Daming sinabi, Alex.
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"Day 336 and I missed you so much, Alex." We both laugh. I can feel tiredness sa kanyang boses. Katatapos ko lang maligo, 9 PM at katatapos lang niyang mag submit ng hospital shifts niya.
I positioned myself to dry my hair while my phone is on speaker. I bet, maya-maya makakatulog na ang nasa kabilang linya. I just smiled.
"Life's been tough sa quarantine. I can't move. Mas gugustuhin ko nalang mag-aral at pumasok sa dutyyy. Urgh!" I wore my hoddie at nag suot na ng earphones for better communication. Days are too long.
"Tiis lang, Love. We know things are not stable at the moment. No one is stable at this pandemic." I heard her sigh. The situation we are right now is way too hard for a person to handle. It needs public cooperation and support. Just like dominos, if one will fall down everything will fall unto bad place.
Kapag may isang taong hindi sumunod sa protocol ng World Health Organization - social distancing, proper sanitation and patient's cooperation -, he/she may contact to a healthy or unhealthy person without them knowing and then the cycle goes on. And take note, it is symptomatic. Yes, there are factors that might affect people especially for those people who are living in everyday pay. Quarantine will really change values and principle of a person. It is a human nature: defense mechanism.
I cannot argue but blame your own LGU's.
"Anyway, Love, kumusta ang requirements mo?" Our catch up for the day continues for like an hour. We talked everything - in detailed.
When communicating with other people, I tend to be attentive and responsiveness for all the things that they are saying. Kahit walang sense, gusto ko lang matanong, itatanong ko. Others may say I am cold and shy pero sa mga taong kilala ako, I am not.
But for Peach, my Peach - I just listened to her. I am more attentive to her laughter and her breathing personally or in phone. I can watched her all day without any single word coming out from me. Gustong gusto kong titigan ang mga mata niya kapag nag ku-kwento na sya sa mga epic at nakaka stress na situation sa hospital; the way her eyes smiled when she laugh and how expressive it will be when she is sad.
She has the most beautiful soul I have ever met.
"I want to make love with you." Pop out nowhere, I said. She grasp before her stories. I just missed her. The distance is killing me. I feel like there is missing inside me. Nakakalunod ang ganitong pakiramdam.
"..it feels so empty." I continue. I inhaled some air. I can feel my lacrimal gland is betraying me too.
"..I get used to your presence. Imagine, I only admire you from a far for two (2) years and I still can't believe that I have your attention now. I'm sorry but I feel like my heart wants to explode because I can't contain it." I can feel tears running from my eyes. Hinayaan ko lang. This might be the first time I express my love for her, when she's mine this time.
"..I misses you everyday. I want to see you everyday. I want to hear your voice. I want to see your eyes. Love, you are like a sun to me. You give so much brightness in me." I heard some sobs from the next line. I calmed myself and put it all together. The clogged in my nose blocked some air and I started to get uncomfortable.
"I love you, Alex. Mahal na mahal kita. Sobrang saya ko. God.." I just lean my head on my study table and just hearing her calm breathing also calms me. Para akong hinehele ng kanyang mga hininga.
Being exhausted bring me to my sleep waking up with stiff neck.
