Most girls would be jealous of Calliope Draycott. She seemingly has it all. The friends, the money, the boyfriend, and in a few years, if all goes to plan, she'll have the job too. So why doesn't she feel happy? It's after a disastrous family dinner...
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I really hope she's awake. Because if she's not, all my planning has gone to waste.
This week has been torture.
It's Sod's fucking law because the week she ends things with Isaac and tells me that she doesn't think that we're capable of being "just friends" has to be the week I'm absolutely swamped with work.
I think the night I spent with her was the only night this week where I've had more than three hours sleep. Honestly, I don't know how I'm still awake now, or alive even.
Ok, so maybe that's a bit dramatic.
But it's just bloody typical that it's this week where I've not had any spare time where I can go and see her.
We've FaceTimed. But it's not the same. Especially when I'm typing away on my laptop trying to get caught up on my assessments and my lecture notes and she's falling asleep.
She's fucking beautiful when she's asleep. That's no surprise though because she's beautiful even when she's got her hair in a knotted mess on the top of her head and she's wearing leggings and one of my jumpers.
She's always beautiful. And it's not just her appearance, but it's her soul too because I don't think I've ever met anyone that is so genuine and cares as much as she does.
It's probably for the best though that I haven't seen her just yet though, because I'm trying to do the gentlemanly thing and give her time and space to grieve her relationship with Isaac.
But god, it's hard, because all I want to do is make her mine.
This week has been a good reminder of some of my other, non-Isaac reservations though. Such as, I don't have enough hours in the day to dedicate to her.
She deserves someone that can put her first. That was one of the problems she and Isaac had, and lord knows that my jobs have to come first. Before everything - because that's what is helping to keep a roof over my family's heads.
And while I could easily see myself falling for her, my family have to come first. I can't leave them to struggle, not when I'm in a position to help.
My reservations haven't stopped me tonight though. I'm standing outside her house, I'd somehow talked Josh into getting the address from Arden because I wanted tonight to be a surprise.
Are you awake? I send to her because as much as I want to see her, I'm not ruining her sleep just so that I can spend time with her.
Yeah, she replies a minute later. Are you alright?
I'm perfect now.
I find a few small stones, gravel really, and when I see what I assume to be her bedroom light turn on, I start throwing some of the gravel at her window.
It's easily the cheesiest thing I've ever done.
It's worth it though when I see her silhouette through the curtains, and when she pulls them open and sees me standing outside, her smile is as wide as it is infectious, and I find myself smiling back at her.
