Shades

Chapter 15

Hey, umm. Hi. What was I going to put here again? Oh yeah. STRONG LANGUAGE AHEAD. Okay you've been warned so don't come crawling to me and tell me "Plastic they said naughty words!" Yes I know.

Anyways on with the story! (I promise this chapter will end much better than the last one)

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Ame sat on the edge of his bed, looking down at the floor. It was all he had been doing for the last few days. There was a quiet knock on his door.

"Ame mon chéri. You have a visitor." France said, opening the door a crack. He just sat there, not moving. She sighed and turned to Russia, gave him a little nod of good luck, and left. Russia took a deep breath as he walked in and closed the door behind him. He walked over to the bed and sat next to Ame.

"Sooooo, how have you been?" He asked awkwardly. Ame didn't respond, it was like he couldn't, he knew if he did anything other than sit there he would cry until he passed out.

"Listen Ame, I know that-"

"Shut up Russia!" Ame finally yelled, jumping up off the bed. "Just shut up." He repeated, tears starting to fall down his face. Russia sat there, slightly stunned that his basically boy friend just yelled at him like that. He was kind of hurt.

"Ame I-"

"No, just stop Okay?" Ame said, turning away from the taller country sitting on the side of the bed.

"Ame-"

"Shut up Russia!"

"Ame I'm fucking sorry!" Russia yelled, jumping up too. He took as step back as he saw Ame flinch at his raised voice.

"Wait Ame I-I don't mean to-" Russia reached out to Ame but his hand was smacked away.

"No Russia. You wouldn't get it." He grumbled walking towards the door. Russia walked after him.

"No Ame I'm sorry I shouldn't have said anything. You've been through a lot the last few days but we all have-" Russia stopped as he saw Ame freeze in the doorway.

"You've been through a lot the last few days." Ame said mockingly. He turned to face Russia.

"Yeah, I've been through a lot. I just watched your fucking brother commit suicide right in front of me! Right in fucking front of me! And what did I do? NOTHING! Nothing Russia! I did nothing!" Ame yelled as tears streamed down his cheeks. Russia just stood there. He was honestly a little frightened.

"I get it that we're all going through hard times right now but I had enough shit to deal with already and now I have to live with the fact that I could have stopped someone from killing themselves and I did nothing." Ame said barley above a whisper. His voice was now raspy from all of the yelling. Ame let out a huff and walked out, leaving Russia just standing there with a few tears falling down his face.

France looked over at the door as she saw Ame grab his cane and slam the door. She felt her expression soften as she saw Russia slowly make his way down the steps and into the main living area.

"You Okay Russia?" France asked, walking over to him. He wanted to nod and just shake it off but he couldn't. So instead he just shook his head and hugged France. He felt embarrassed but France didn't mind. She was always the one to take care of her children and help them with their problems, mainly because her husband was hardly around enough to do it himself.

The two ended up just sitting on the couch in the living room and talking about everything. France listened to Russia as he vented about everything. He vented about how he wished he had known what his father was doing to Uke so he could have stopped it. He vented about how awful he felt for saying that he was glad that Uke was out of the friend group, he hated the fact that it was Uke's only source of love and support and he just threw it all away. He even vented abou how he was scared that he had done something wrong to upset Ame. At some point Canada managed to get into the conversation and help too. France has to excuse herself for something work related, leaving Canada, Russia, and Tabby all just sitting on the couch. The cat purred as Russia stroked it.