(A/N: Okay, alam ko nakakabitin yung story...kaya lang sabi ko nga, this is a non-fiction story. So after that August 12, wala ng nangyari. As much as I’m hoping na sana magkita pa si Bryan at Kate, well, wala eh.)
Bryan’s status on fb: Sabihin mo saken ang kailangan kong gawin, pls? :/
Then a girl commented (the girl from the pictures I saw on his RIP Tunes): Just treat me like the way you used to.
Oh. That hurts.
So Bryan’s into that girl?
Hindi ko maintindihan???
So para saan lahat ng nangyari???
Sino ba talaga ako for Bryan? The special friend?
T_T
Masakit ah.
Then he posted this music video – Umbrella mashed up – glee version
I do hope the umbrella we shared together just days back had something to do with it.
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Now Playing:
Sometimes I feel his love, sometimes I don't
There's times when he proves it then times when he won''t
Its time I know the deal about how he truly feels
I guess what's killing me is just not knowin
My friends all tell me maybe I should seek a psychic
They tell me just beware I may or may not like it
But either way I know I need to get some answers
About where I stand with him
How do I know, I need to know
If he's for real won't you please let me know
Or is he just playin, what's your magic card show
Something bout when he's here makes me not see so clear
Does your crystal ball show any lovin at all
I know this must seem so desperate
But desperate is what I've become
I'll do anything to know I'm the only one
Anything to get the truth from you
Few days ago, I was too willing to let go of my past, my hopes for Jaydee and I... because of Bryan. ALL BECAUSE OF BRYAN. L Akala ko may chance after that kiss. Akala ko there could be something more. Nagflash lahat ng mga nangyari sa aming dalawa for the past three years.
Bakit kasi siya pa, nandito naman ako.
Mas maganda titigan yung star na nasa tabi ko.
Hinihintay ka, malamang.
Manhid ka raw kasi, kaya may nagpaparamdam.
Yung emotional strength napapasa, kapag sa akin ka nahawa, edi ayos.
Aasa baka sakali.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako umiiyak sa isang bagay na alam ko namang wala lang... Hindi naman naging kami. Wala naman siyang sinabing mahal niya ako. Umasa lang ako. Isa na naman sa mga maling akala ko. Pero masisisi niyo ba ako? Naramdaman ko na mahal niya ako... pero siguro nga nag-assume na naman ako. T__T Lecheng assumption yan!
And, uhm, I just knew he’s dating with that girl again. Do you know just how much it hurts?
Just when I was too willing to let go of myself from a harsh and painful past relationship, nangyari ito.
Well, maybe, this is just a sign that we’re good to be just friends.
Siguro ito rin yung sign na tama na si Jaydee yung lagi kong pinipili.
Kasi ngayon nga na attempt palang na piliin siya, nasasaktan na ako..what more pa kapag natuloy???
Maybe ito yung sagot sa tanong kung bakit si Jaydee kahit nandyan naman siya...
Mahal ako ni Jaydee.
Pero hindi ko man lang nalaman/nasigurado kung mahal niya ba ako.
I wanted to ask for MORE. Pero wala na. Hanggang dito nalang kami.
Matagal ng natapos ang story ni Kate at ni Bryan. Assumptions ko lang talaga ang mali.
Well, definitely, siya rin. He made me feel that there could be more...
Pero wala pala talaga.
What happened to his concerns i just felt the last time we were together?
What happened to all hugs and kisses and holding hands and stares?
Now I wonder if I was wrong to turn away when I had the chance with him?
Bakit kung kailan halos umamin na ako sa sarili ko, tsaka nangyari ito...
Am I too late???
Nagsisisi ako...
Dapat kinausap ko na siya nung magkasama pa kami.
Well, siguro, kailangan ko ngang kalimutan ito uli. Para kapag nagkita kami, hindi na ako masasaktan pa.
Sana lang hindi nalang maulit yung cycle na baka kapag nagkita uli kami, bumalik na naman itong nararamdaman ko.
Maybe for somehow, now, feeling nothing special for him would be the lie I would be living in.
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Siguro nga, sa buhay natin may mammeet tayong tao na sobrang gugustuhin natin...
yung tao na gugustuhin natin kasama kahit ano pa yung mood natin o kahit saan pa tayo pupunta,
yung tao na alam natin na hindi lang kaibigan yung feelings natin towards him pero hindi rin as much as a lover kasi alam nating hindi pwede,
yung tao na kayang kaya tayong apektuhan sa kahit simpleng actions niya lang,
yung tao na sobrang mapapalapit sa atin pero hanggang doon nalang.
Siguro nga, may mga bagay na possible pero hindi lang talaga pwede.
At siguro nga, siya at yung sitwasyon niyong dalawa yung tinatawag na HANGGANG M.U. NALANG.
T__T
The End.
