The wolf within me (ON HOLD)

Chapter 5

I sat up straight in bed, panting. This nightmare was by far the worse one I had ever had. My parents were in there and what happened that night but it always ended with my mate rejecting and killing me. I closed my eyes and put my head in my hands as the silent tears fell. Something moved beside of me and arms wrapped around me. I forgot I was in Ryan's bed. We had fallen asleep talking. I looked at the time and frowned. We had been asleep for 3 hours.

"Baby. What's wrong?" I turned so I was looking at him. He must have seen my tears because he went into full protective mode. "Rave, what is it?" I shook my head and the tears fell faster. I made a noise and covered my face again. "I couldn't save them. It's all my fault." Ryan pulled me to his chest as he pet my hair. "Who, sweetheart? Who couldn't you save?" I felt a lump form in my throat as I thought of that horrible day. "My parents." Ryan hugged me tighter as my crying started to no longer be silent. He kept whispering sweet nothings into my ears and that helped me and my wolf calm down. Just hearing our mates deep voice calmed us down. I leaned into Ryan as the tears slowly stopped.

After I was no longer crying, I decided that Ryan should know what happened. We were sitting on the bed, facing each other, as I tried to find the words. "We were in the city. I was only 6 years old. My mother and I were looking in the store window, trying to decide if we wanted to go in or not. My father was acting really weird. He would always look around him and over his shoulder. After a while, we decided it would be best to go home. We went down an ally and before I knew it, there were men circling me and my parents. My father tried to reason with them, saying something about how he will pay them back, when one of the men pulled out a gun. He shot my mother... I still remember her glassy eyes staring at me as she died. My father kept begging. He even got on his knees. He was shot next, though not as fast. After they were done, they noticed that I was there, just staring at my dead parents beside me. One guy laughed and said 'how much do you think we would get for her?' I didn't know what he meant at the time but now I do. They were going to kill me as well and take evidence to prove that they had killed the whole family and not just my dad...." I heard a growl and a shiver ran down my back. "No man is going to get you but me." I smiled slightly and took his hand. "No one but you. Now, don't interrupt. It's rude." He rolled his eyes and my smile deepened. "They were all trying to figure out what to do with me when one of the men got fed up and pointed the gun at me. He was about to pull the trigger when something tackled him. He was dead in seconds. The thing turned to the rest of the men and went after them as well. Being just a 6 year old, I just stood there and watched. After it was done, the thing turned and it's eyes stared into mine. It didn't kill me and something deep down within me knew I could trust whatever it was." I looked down at my hands and frowned. "Ryan, you are going to think in crazy but I know what I saw was true." I kept looking down at my hand and Ryan took my hands in his, urging me on. "It was a large wolf... With green eyes..."

Ryan was dead still. "Ryan?" I touched his cheek gently with my hand. He still wouldn't move. I started to get really worried so I pulled his face near mine, looking into his dazed eyes. "Ryan, what's wrong?"

Ryan's POV:
"It was a large wolf... With green eyes..." I froze, remembering that night.
-flashback-

Dad smiled down at me. His green eyes meeting my same eyes. I looked almost exactly the same as him. But I was told that I had my moms nose. Today was Christmas Eve, and dad was taking me to pick out a present for my mom. The snow started to fall and it was amazing. But my dad stopped walking, smelling the air. I smelt the air as well. Blood. Dad picked me up as we ran in the direction of the smell. There were men, about 5 or 6 of them, circling a man and a little girl. There was a women on the ground, blood pouring out of her chest. She was dead. The little girl looked to be about my age. The man was killed next. One of the men turned and looked at the little girl. "How much do you think we can get for her?" I growled. Not wanting anything to happen to the human girl. My father had the same idea because he shifted and attacked the men. His green eyes met the terrified little girls. She couldn't take it as she had fainted but my dad caught her before she had hit the concert. I ran up to my father and stared at the little girls face. She had midnight black hair. Dad shifted back, putting his clothes back on, and carried the girl to the orphanage. "But daddy, what if she doesn't get a good family? Why can't she live with us?" My dad smiled sadly down at me as he set the sleeping little girl by the door of the orphanage. "I'm sorry, Ryan. But you know why she can't. As alpha, I would be endangering the pack. But I promise that I'll keep a close eye on this little one. Now go a head and walk down to the stop sign. I'll meet you there." I did as I was told and watched as my dad rang the doorbell to the orphanage and ran down to me. He used his werewolf speed and was at my side in a split second. We peeked over the corner and saw the owner pick the girl up and take her inside. I was sad that I didn't know her name. Dad took my hand as we went back home. I couldn't get the girl off my mind the rest of the night.
-end of flashback-

Raveanna's POV:
"Ryan?! Please say something!" Tears were running down my cheeks. I had been shaking him for 3 minutes. He shut his eyes and shook his head. He looked at me,confused. "You were that little girl?" I looked at him. "You were there?!" He nodded. "My dad... He was the one that saved you." I stared at his eyes. Same eyes as the wolf. "You were born a werewolf?" He stared at me. "You weren't." I nodded. "I was turned. That was your dad? The wolf that saved me?" He nodded. He wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into his lap. "I'm sorry we couldn't save your parents." I closed my eyes and laid my head on his chest. He pet my hair. "It's okay. I understand." He kissed my forehead. "Would you like to lay down?" I nodded. He leaned back, taking me with him.

"How long have you had the nightmares?" I sighed and played with his shirt. "It used to be once every few months but they've been getting worse." I frowned. "What are they about?" I froze, scared to tell him. "My mate... That when I found him, he would reject me and kill me. He wouldn't just kill me though... He would torture me." Ryan growled. "I would never do that to you. Ever!" He wrapped his arms tight around me as he kissed my forehead. I smiled and looked up at him. I could tell he meant it. "I know." I kissed him gently. "Get some sleep, sweetheart. I'll chase away the nightmares." He kissed me deeply before we both laid back down. I didn't have anymore nightmares that night.

"Hurry up Ryan. We are going to be late for the concert if you don't wake up." I groaned and covered my head with a pillow. Ryan had the same idea so he hid his face in the pillow beside of my head. "That's it. I'm coming in." The door opened and someone walked in only to stop in their tracks. "Oh. Alpha. I'm sorry. I didn't know you were with your mate." Ryan growled and I smiled. He was definitely not a morning person. Sighing, I got up and looked at the person that came in. "If Ryan doesn't eat you for waking us up then I will." I smiled evilly at Caleb. He ran out of the room and I looked over at Ryan. He was already asleep. I leaned over and started kissing his cheek. I laid back down and brushed the hair out of his face. "I can get used to waking up to you by my side." I smiled and kissed his cheek again. "Me too. But we have to get up now." He opened one eye and sighed. "Fine." I got up and walked to the door, heading to my room. "Where do you think you are going?" I rolled my eyes. "Clothes. I'll see you in a few." I ran to my room giggling.

After a quick shower, I put on a pair of black booty shorts with leggings with holes in them, a band tank-top, and my combat boots. I straightened my hair and put makeup on. Deciding to wear my black beanie as well. I grabbed my phone and my bag before running out the door. I bumped into a wall and nearly fell on my ass. "Wow there, sweetheart. You alright?" I got out of the strangers arms and took a step back. "Yeah. I'm fine. Thanks for the save." He nodded and grabbed my arm as I was about to leave. "What's your name?" My wolf was telling me to run. "That's none of your business." The man smiled and looked down at the floor before looking back at me. "I always hated mutts." I saw the fangs before he lunged at me. I growled and dodged him before he could bite my neck. "I've always hated blood suckers." I popped my knuckles and my neck before growling and getting into a crouching fight position. 'Calm down. We can't shift here. To many humans.' I told my wolf. 'Don't care. Piece of shit needs to die.' I was shaking because I was close to shifting. I growled loudly again before lunging at the vamp. He saw me coming and threw me down the hall. I hit the wall hard. I fell to the ground and whimpered. He was at my side in seconds and he lifted me up by my neck. My feet were no longer touching the ground. 'Help!!' I screamed through the mind link to anyone. My vision was going black fast. A loud and powerful growl came from behind the vamp and I was dropped to the ground. I took a deep breathe and laid there as I caught my breath. "Raveanna!" I felt tingles all over my arms as someone picked me up. I looked up and saw Ryan. "I'm fine. Just had to catch my breath." I smiled and sat up. I looked around and the vamp was gone. "The others took care of him." I nodded. "It's not the first time I've dealt with vampires. I'll be fine." Sighing we both got up. "Have we missed the concert?" Ryan laughed. "No. We haven't missed it." I jogged to where my bag laid and then took his hand. "Then let's go. It's Cass's birthday and I'm not letting her down."