Coveting My Bodyguard's Affection (Completed)

Kabanata 19: Red Roses

•TYVIAN'S POV•

I SAW CELESTINA being ushered by a staff striding towards my table. Isang ngiti ang aking iginawad sa kanya. She smiled sweetly and I stood up for a hug. I had invited her a while ago for a lunch.

For known fact, people stared at us with curiousness. Dalawang beses kami naging laman ng tabloids noon. Media assumed that we had a growing friendship that could build a romantic relationship.

"Good afternoon." Hinila ko ang harap na upuan para sa kanyang pag-upo.

"Good afternoon, Tyv." She sat down first and I followed. Kinakabahan din ako. Ilang araw ko itong pinaghandaan ang sasabihin sa kanya.

I am ready to express my feelings. I'll choose my heart's desires.

Celestina and I had dated before. I had confessed my admiration. Yes, I liked her because she's an philanthropist and I can relate to the things she's doing. She's beautiful and that's a fact that let other men drool for her. Nang magkahiwalay kami dahil sa nangyari noong isang gabi sa bar ay buong akala ko ay nangungulila ako sa presensiya niya. Akala ko ay galit siya dahil hindi ko siya ma-contanct. Ngunit hindi iyon ang kaso. I found myself admiring my bodyguard for unknown reason. It's a questionable event but I am having a hard time answering the why's in me.

Suddenly, I thought of Lester everyday and every night. Sa tuwing umagahan ay gusto ko siyang makasama. Ganoon din sa tanghali. At night, I don't want to miss a single second without saying goodnight to him before going to bed.

Noong una ko pa itong nakita bilang bodyguard ay gusto ko na ito. I wanted to befriend him. I can tease him since he got angry easily. Nakokompleto ang araw ko sa tuwing nagagalit ito sa akin. Pwede ba iyon? Na magugustuhan mo ang isang tao dahil sa hindi malaman na dahilan. He just walked there and I found myself admiring him. I don't care if he is a he or he is a she, when my heart cared for him and beat his name, I'll follow it until I will make him mine.

I can feel Lester's secrets are on the air, pretending to be a man.

My intuition is saying that it was not Celestina who I made love with. My sexuality and attraction are saying that it was Lester. Hindi ko ito gagawin dahil sa responsibilidad kundi dahil iba na ang tibok ng aking puso. This is what my heart wanted and I will not question anymore. Dahil kung baka magtanong pa ako at malilito ay baka pagsisisihan ko pa.

"What would you like?" sabay abot ko ng menu board ng restaurant.

"What with this sudden lunch date, Tyv?" She's sweet and kind. Someone can love her truly because I cannot now. I am falling for someone else.

I am a jerk for letting her hope of something romantic can grow.

"I just want to talk to you about something. I want an honest answer." Nagtaka siyang humalakhak.

"Ask away."

"Do you have a twin sister?" Kumunot ang kanyang noo saka nilapag nang dahan dahan ang menu board.

"Just a twin brother. Si Lester." She chuckled a bit. I can see how uneasy this topic to her. She looked so calm but her eyes were nervous. "Why? Siya lang ang kapatid ko na may kaparehong mukha ko, Tyv."

"I made love to a lady who looks like you," deristahan kong saad. "Hindi ako nakakatulog sa gabi sa kakaisip sa babaeng iyon."