Healing Love (Yizhan, Zhanyi) Love COMPLETED

Chapter 19 (Closure Day)

Chapter 19 (Closure Day)

Zan left Yebo and went home. Zan head straight to his room and didn't even wants to have dinner.

His heart is now too painful. He just want to be alone.

He knew that Yebo is now texting him. He took out his phone and saw 30 over messages from Yebo

"Ge, are you ok"

"Ge, I am so worry"

"Ge, please text me"

"Ge, please, you are making me cry"

Zan knew he has to reply because he just could not allow Yebo to be sad on his winning day

Zan text to Yebo

"I am just not feeling well" Zan lied

"I just need to sleep more" Zan lied again

"Don't worry" Zan told Yebo

"Ok, ge ge, sleep well" Yebo last text

Lying on his bed with all the heart aches. Zan just keep letting his tears flood his pillow. His thoughts just kept circling on Yebo.

Yebo has just recovered from his trauma and he is now fully living his life. Zan hates himself for falling in love. He has never knew that he would fall in love with a boy. He often wonder why he is not attracted to girl. But, Zan has also never like or desire any boy. Zan knows that he just love Yebo. Everything about Yebo fills his heart, soul and mind.

It is because of his love for Yebo that he need to leave Yebo and stops seeing him. Zan doesn't knows how Yebo felt He knew that Yebo likes or more than that, maybe loves him as a brother as Yebo doesn't have any siblings and having a elder brother could be anyone's dream in Yebo position.

Zan could not and will never and cannot tell Yebo his feelings, this will put Yebo into more vulnerabilities. What if Yebo doesn't have the same feelings and it would give Yebo another traumatic experiences. Can't imagine having a psychologist telling you that he has fallen in love with you. It is just completely ridiculous and insane for a sixteen years old.

Actually thinking of all these drives Zan into insanities. His heart is aching, his body is trembling, his tears is flowing, his mind has gone crazy, his head is painful and feels like splitting into many parts. Every parts of his body is now giving him pain.

This is the first time Zan fell in love and he never imagine it to be so painful. Loving someone and cannot love, the pain is unbearable. Worst, he can't even tells anyone, not even his grandma, this is just too shameful, too shameful of himself for allowing his emotions to overrule him.

Lastly, he remembered his grandma voice echoing in his head.

"Listen to your heart, do good"

Zan heart loves Yebo, now he wants to think of everything that is good for Yebo.

Love is not possessing,

Love is giving choices to Yebo

Love is patience

Love is waiting for Yebo to grow up

Also, Zan remembered that his dad told him that they had applied to Harvard for his master degree in Finance and the acceptance letter has arrived. Zan's father wants him to study in USA as Zan has been tutoring English since he is 5 years old to prepare him to study in States as their company has lots of foreign investments. This is the master plan, Zan's father had for him. Zan wasn't that interested in the beginning. But now, with his present issues, he thinks it is good to go to USA for 2 to 3 years.