Dear diary || stelena (on hold)

Chapter 8

Saturday morning after the party

"You slept with her?!" I say while I barge in on Stefan getting changed. I don't really care about his state of nakedness, I've seen it countless of times already. "Stefan really? Are you okay?" He hardly talks to girls other than me, Rebekah and Caroline, at least not since that bitch Katherine broke his heart. That's why I was so surprised to hear from Caroline that Stefan, my best friend in the whole entire universe, slept with the new girl. Not to mention she looks a lot like Katherine, they could be family. Thank God Elena actually seems like a good person. "Yes I slept with her and yes I am fine. Now drop the subject Lexi." He said exactly what he thought I needed to hear. Jokes on you, bud. I am not going anywhere. "So you're fine despite the fact that you slept with a girl for the first time since the whole Katherine situation? Oh and Elena looks a lot like her, is that why you try to avoid her at school? Is that why you slept with her?" I try to get information out of him but he's being as stubborn as can be. "Damn it Stefan! I'm your best friend and I'm worried about you! Please talk to me." I plead. I really am worried about him. "God Lex, stop worrying! I. AM. FINE!" he yells at me and throws the night lamp across the room towards me.I step aside and it shatters against where I was standing just moments ago. "See, you're not fine! Get some help!" I yell back at him. His behaviour can be terrifying and he knows it. But he has never scared me. He looks at me, now realising what he did. "Oh, I'm so sorry, if that had hit you-"

"Stop. It didn't hit me, I'm fine." I interrupt him. "Don't apologize, it's okay. Just talk to me. Please Stefan, you're not alone." I take a few steps towards him and put my arm around his neck. He needs me, and if I'm being honest, I need him too. "What do I do with her?" he mumbles. I know he's talking about Elena. "She's a nice girl, Stefan. Just talk to her." He shakes his head. Don't be a stubborn ass. I slap his shoulder lightly. "Say more than three words to her. Be nice and everything should be fine." I'm not sure if he'll take my advice, but I sure hope so. "C'mon let's go downstairs and get some food and water." 

Stefan and I went to the Grill to get breakfast and now we're in the park enjoying the morning sun. "I want to get to know her. Since the day I met her I've wanted to know her. But I don't want to get hurt,....again." Oh Stefan, you deserve all the happiness in the world. "Not everyone will hurt you, bud. I haven't hurt you, have I? Your brother and Katherine are jerks. And don't even get me started on your parents." His parents left him and his brother, Damon, six years ago to travel the world for 'business' and only see them twice a year. Those times of year are hard for him. All his parents do is judge and critisize him. Bad parents? Check. Bad brother? Check. Damon is an ass. That's all I'm going to say. Every time I think about him I get an urge to slit his throat in his sleep, so I prefer to ignore his entire existance. "You're right, you've never hurt me but that doesn't change the fact that most people in my life do." My heart breaks at his confession. I knew he felt like that, it's pretty obvious to me but to hear him say it out loud is something completely diffferent. He needs time to process and deal with everything going on in his brain. And I havbe the perfect idea. "Pack your bags, bud. We're going camping!"

I know this chapter is pretty short, sorry. I didn't double check this for typos so I'm sorry there might be some. 

 Stefan is scared of getting close to people because he doesn't want to get hurt again. Next chapter will be back in present time in Elena's pov. Get ready for same Stefan/Elena/Damon/Katherine drama!