Bedroom Floor (Harry Styles)

Chapter 15

4th June 2017

"You don't have to do this," Ariana frowned at me as I was getting ready to go on stage.

I nodded "I do.. I do. This is for Saffie and the 21 other angel who lost their lives.."

"You're still healing!" Ariana tried to compensate "I can heal while performing.. I want to do this," I turned to her frowning "I need to do this. I have to do this" I insisted.
Ariana sighed, she then nodded "okay.. okay, you'll smash it. If you feel to pressured or upset.. give Niall the sign and you can come off and he will finish for you."

I smiled and nodded. I was so nervous for this.. but so excited. I've promised to myself I won't cry.
But I just know I will.

It would of been nice if the boys was here to support me. But they couldn't be here. It was only Niall who could make it. Which made me nervous.
But I'll be fine.

The set list I put together for my segment of the show is;
•Half a heart
•Night Changes
•Ready To Run
•best song ever
•Olivia
•infinity
•Where do broken hearts go
• no control
•18
•Girl Almighty
•Don't forget where you belong
•up all night
•through the dark
•Stockholm Syndrome
•story of my life
•happily
•strong
•you and I
•midnight memories
•moments
•perfect
•more than this
•drag me down
•love you goodbye
•history
•right now
•halo

My set is actually the longest.. as I'm a 'victim' so the show wanted me on for longer. I was the most requested artist too.. which is crazy. But this ain't about me.
Sadly, I don't have my own songs.. so I am only singing the songs Saffie chose which belong to the boys.

Niall was going to be with me through every song on this set list. Which is exciting.

The rest of the boys, Liam, Louis and Harry are in America for stuff they couldn't get out of to come down here.. which is sad. They said they'll try and watch the show on tv as it's been broadcasted live all over the world on tv.

"The world will never forget this performance.." Niall smiled widely, making me frown "how do you mean?" I looked at him.
He shrugged chewing his gum "you'll see soon.. come on, we go on in 5" niall said and gently pulled me to the side of the stage.
We were actually opening the concert which was scary...

"Please welcome to the stage.. the Manchester bombing survivor Anastasia Tomlinson.. and with her Mr Niall Horan!!"
We walked out on stage facing 50,000 people screaming at us.
My eyes watered at the love. We waved and smiled.

"Hello Manchester!" Niall said in his Irish accent. We stood together on the middle of the stage and I finally felt brave enough to speak.

"Manchester, gosh you look beautiful" I said to the crowd and they all screamed making me smile "you're such a strong beautiful city and I am inspired by every single one of you that has shown, love, support, bravery, courage and strength during the worst two weeks of your city's life.
Now.. I wasn't really sure on paddling tonight, as you all know, I was a victim of the attack and was severely hurt.. but, one little girl stopped me from backing out of this..." I said and everyone screamed as photos of Staffie came up on the screen behind me.

"She told me she'd love for me to carry on with my career in singing. And she said how much she loved me as a model.." I smiled as my eyes filled up with tears.
"She said something so inspiring to me, that night of the attack when we was high injured and I was sat with her trying to ease her pain as best I could.. she said to me 'don't let hate win' and she said 'don't be mad' and she maybe said that to me around three time's" I spoke and wiped a few tears away from my face as the crowd cheered.

"That little girl is the reason I am stood in front of 50,000 people two weeks after a suicide bombing attack on selfless innocent children and teens.. but I won't get into that part of it.. I won't stand here and talk about the man who took 22 angels lives that night.. because to me, that his giving his name the fame he wanted. When really he is scum of the earth" I said and they all cheered. I laughed softly.

"Now, it's a bit ironic how I only have two songs, yet I'm opening the show, which isn't good enough. So luckily, on that night of the attack I managed to talk to Saffie.. she told me her favourite songs.. and before she died in the hospital, her parents wrote out a list of her favourite songs on a piece of paper, also with a thank you note coming from her.. which is actually in a photo frame which is now above my bed in my room back in London" I said making the crowd cheer "so, she told me her favourite songs. And that's why I am here tonight, opening the show with her favourite one direction songs!" I said and the crowd whaled in excitement.

"It's only Niall and I tonight as you can see," I pointed to the stage, and Niall and I stood on it "but we'll make this work" I nodded confidently.

"But before I get into the songs... I want to hold a 2 minute silence... for Saffie and the other 21 angels who lost their innocent lives that night..."

I bowed my head and a noise rung for a few seconds through the speakers. There was a timer up on the board behind me letting everyone know how long of the two minutes we had left.
I glanced up and the crowd hung their heads in silence, sorrow and love for the two minutes.

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The next chapters are fully dedicated to these songs listed above.. so it'll be like a chapter for each song.
I hope you enjoy.

I've had this part of the story in my mind since I started the book, so I hope you'll enjoy these next chapters.