Bedroom Floor (Harry Styles)

Chapter 45: i'm having your baby

11th November 2017

"So let me get this straight," Harry said sitting up in his seat, after I explained what has happened between Niall and I. "You're now ignoring him because he's worried about you??"

I scoffed rolling my eyes "no. That's not what's happening. He's being so over protective, he said it'd be best if I didn't come and see you. If I want to then I will. I wanted to support you like you've always supported me. He doesn't have the right to say that to me." I frowned looking at my bestfriend.
Harry nodded "okay," he looked at me again "but I honestly think you should message him, just to let him know you're okay. He gets worried about you, we all bloody do."

I sighed and grabbed my phone.. but then decided on not messaging him. I turned to Harry again "I don't think I'm ready for a relationship.. everything I've been through in this past year.. I'm not good for him right now" I sadly looked down at my lap.

"Do you honestly believe that??" Harry asked as he stood from the sofa and walked to his dressing table looking in the mirror at his hair.

I sit and think for a bit. I looked at him and nodded "yeah"

"Tell him, then" Harry said turning to me "don't lead him on so that he falls in love with you. If you have doubts then end it with him now" Harry's eyes gazed into mine.
I frowned as tears glazed over my eyes "he'll hate mate, though"

Harry sighed gently and walked over to me, he sat down beside me and brought me in for a hug "he won't hate you, love" he whispered into my hair "he won't hate you, he'll understand that you need time. He will give you that." He rubbed my arm.

I nodded.

I've come to the decision that right now, a relationship isn't for me. I grabbed my phone and messaged Niall.

Me: we need to talk when I get home x

I rapped my face and sighed shakily as my hands shook. I don't want to have to do this. But I need to get better for myself. I can't be better for him if I aren't better for myself. And that's true. I can't.

My phone beeped.

Niall: what about? xx

I sighed and shook my head.

Me: I'm sorry about earlier, when I get home we will talk :// x

"Harry you're on in five" Jeffrey Azoff popped his head in. When he saw me he smiled "hi, Anna"

I waved at him "hey Jeff, how are you?" I asked as Harry stood up beside me.
"I'm really good, I'm excited for tonight's show.. are you??" He grinned opening the door more as Harry fixed his ear piece.
"I'm really excited!" I stood up also.

We all made our way to the stage. I gave Harry a big hug "good luck Harry, rock and own that stage like the legend you are! I'll be stood right here supporting you!" I grinned as I pulled back from the hug.
There was screens backstage showing you what the cameras was recording for everyone at home.
So I decided to stay here and watch him.

"Thank you for being here, I love you" he grinned and kissed my cheek.
I took a quick photo of him kissing my cheek and me pulling a crazy face.
I uploaded it to my Instagram and captioned it.

'Good luck handsome, you'll smash it. I'm excited for you!! #XFactorperfomance'

Harry made his way onto the stage before Dermot introduced him. Everyone was screaming as he gave them a wave and blowed kisses at the crowd.

"Welcome home, Mr Harry Styles!!" Dermot said making the crowd go wild after Harry and the band got set up on stage.

"She worked her way through a cheap pack of cigarettes" he sung on the first beat making the crowd go crazy.

"Hard liquor mixed with a bit of intellect
And all the boys, they were saying they were into it
Such a pretty face, on a pretty neck" he sung "She's driving me crazy, but I'm into it, but I'm into it
I'm kind of into it
It's getting crazy, I think I'm losing it, I think I'm losing it—" he sung breathing hard, he removed his microphone from the stand and sung as he danced
"Oh, I think she said 'I'm having your baby, it's none of your business, I'm having your baby, it's none of your business (it's none of your, it'snone of your)
'I'm having your baby, it's none of your business, I'm having your baby, it's none of your, it's none of youuuurrrrrr" he sings and the crowd shouts back. I even find myself dancing and singing to the song.
He went back to his microphone stand and clipped the microphone back into the holder and stood behind it singing his next verse.

"It's New York, baby, always jacked up
Holland Tunnel for a nose, it's always backed up
When she's alone, she goes home to a cactus
She wears a black dress, coz she's such an actress she's driving me... but I'm into it. I'm kinda into it, it's getting.. I think I'm loosing it, I think I'm loosing it" he removed his microphone from the stand again and danced across the stage as he walked away from the microphone stand

"Oh I think she said 'I'm having your baby, it's none of your business. I'm having your baabyyyy. It's none of youuurrrrr... it's none of youuurrrrr. Having your baby, it's none of youuurrrr, having your baby it's none of youuurrrr, it's nooonnneeee of yourrrr MAKE SOME NOISE!!" He shouts as the instrumental begins. He leave his microphone clicked into the stand as he danced around near the fans making them go wild.

I smirk watching him. He's sooo good on stage. He always has been. He's always been so entertaining to watch.

"She sits beside me like a silhouette
Hard candy dripping on me 'til my feet are wet
Nnnnoww she's all over me, it's like I paid for it" he sung, his voice cracking slightly as he said 'now' I made a face at that. He'll come off stage feeling annoyed that his voice cracked.

"It's like I paid for it, I'm gonna pay for thissss AAAAOOOOOWWWWWW" he screamed his voice sounded rusty and sexy. Ugh. I love when he squeals like that. If you're a Harry fan, you know the squeal I'm talking about!!

He jumps away from the microphone and start dances, using his hands and arms as his instruments, slamming them in the air to the beat of his critically acclaimed song.

"It's none of your, it's none of your. I'm havin' your ba-aaby it's none of your business. I'm havin' your baby, it's none of your.. it's none of yourrr. I'm havin' your BA-ABY!!" He shouts the 'baby' part "it's none of your business," he almost speaks into the microphone as he walks around the stage holding onto his microphone wire.

I'll never understand why he chooses to have a microphone that has a wire connected to it. When he was in the band they all had free hand held microphones that wasn't connected to no wires, so they didn't trip or get tangled in them. But he now chooses to have a microphone with a wire?? He's the one person from the band I wouldn't trust with a microphone like this.. he's the most clumsiest member and is always falling on stage.

"I'm havin' your bbbbbaaaaaayyyyyyybbbbbbyyyyyyy" he does a high note, his voice cracking almost. But because it's a rock/pop song it's okay. It's okay to have that kind of edginess to your voice making it sound rusty, like it's gonna crack.

"It's none of yyyaaawwwww, it's none of yourrr." He walks away from the microphone. His back facing the crowd, he then turns to it again and walks to it as he knows the end beat of the song is about to come. "HEY!" He shouted into the microphone and the song stopped. The crowd cheered for him making him smile widely.
He rang his hand through his hair and bent down putting the palms of his hands together in adoration of the crowd, his way of saying thank you.
"Thank you!" He smiled into the microphone.
Dermot jumped on stage and made his way to Harry "wwwoooowwwww welcome home Harry Styles!!!" Dermot and Harry hug while Harry smiles widely.

They talk for a minute or so and Harry comes off stage and envelopes me in a huge hug!!

"I'm so proud of you!" I shake my head as tears brim my eyes. He laughed pulling me into the second hug within the space of five seconds "don't cry!!" He laughed while cooing.

"I can't help it. You're so amazing! I hope to become a amazing artist like you one day!" I poured as he wiped my tears away with his thumbs. He kissed the tip of my nose and grinned "you already are!!"