Bedroom Floor (Harry Styles)

Chapter 92: chasing the high

13th October 2018

i woke up in plane seat groaning, i was due to land in New Zealand at around midnight tonight. it's was now 5pm so i didn't have that long left.
i grabbed my phone from the table in front of me and scrolled through instagram, i liked a few posts and went into twitter to see everyone talking about the Woman Like Me performance from yesterday. straight after that performance i headed backstage changed into a comfy outfit had a drink or two with the girls, said goodbye to them and louis then i was off to Heathrow airport for my flight to New Zealand to carry on with my tour.

I've been since for a little over a month not; and it's not been good. i'm missing harry like crazy. we haven't had any contact. no calls, no messages— no nothing. i have no idea how he is or where he is. and that's what hurts the most. i still love him— of course i still love him. i always will.

i go to my instagram account and put a story up 'ask me questions; flights are so boring😴'

immediately i pressed on that tab after i sent it off and i was already getting questions.
i tapped on a question; 'in the last 8 years, where has been your favourite place to visit??'
i smiled and typed it out instantly 'i really love Amsterdam, it's so beautiful and the fans are amazing! i love everywhere i have been though!' i answered the question and connected it onto my story.

i saw some questions asking about harry and i so i ignored them.

'have you been writing while you've been on tour??'
i smiled and answered it 'yes i have— i'm extremely excited for you all to see what i've been working on'

'what's your favourite part of doing what you do??'
i answered; 'connecting with all my beautiful fans and thanking you for every little thing you do for me!'

'how is louis??'
my answer; 'he's great, he's loving life at the moment!'

'when was the last time you spoke to liam??'
i answered; 'a few days ago, he congratulated me on the song i have with little mix'

'who is your favourite member of little mix??'
i answered; 'i could never choose, they're all my best friends!!'

'have you heard the songs from LM5?? if so which ones are your favourite?? other than woman like me'
i answered cryptically; 'i have a special love for strip, wasabi, more than words and woman's world.'

i went of instagram and went to google and typed my name in.

the first article that popped up was from this morning about my performance last night; this article was from The Sun.

Anastasia slays the XFactor stage with best friends Little Mix;

Anastasia in the past two years has been referenced to the likes of beyoncé and ariana grande as she is SLAYING the game at the moment and is topping the charts with every song she brings out— shes earned herself a staggering amount of number ones since February 2017 when she had her first break with Ty Dolla Sign and Jason Derulo with billboard number one Swalla.

Last night she performed on the xfactor stage with best friends and colleagues little mix with their new collaboration 'Woman Like Me' the song is another girl power anthem. but what else do we except coming from Anastasia and Little Mix?!
Louis, Anastasia's older brother and a close friend of Little Mix's Perrie Edwards, expressed how proud he was of all the girls performing on the show with their hit single, he took a opportunity to thank the little mix girls for being amazing friends to Anastasia in the past couple of months... what that means, we don't know. there is obviously something going on in Anastasia's life that she isn't willing to tell the world just yet. fans think there may be trouble in paradise for one direction's heartthrob Harry Styles and model/singer Anastasia Tomlinson— fans believe that they have broke up as neither of them have interacted online for a matter of months, paparazzi shots of Harry in LAX airport mid September sparked rumours that he and Anastasia where on a rocky road as she wasn't seen with him and he looked quite down in the dumps.
Since early september Anastasia has avoided any public questions about her famous boyfriend, we contacted her management but they refused to give us information— so it does seem that harry and anastasia's ship has sailed. directioner and harry fans will be pleased to hear that!
The paparazzi pictures taken of Anastasia out for dinner with Little Mix's Perrie Edwards taken from the end of last month show that Anastasia is having a difficult time with her breakup as she was seen with her head in her hands and pushing the food around her plate with a fork. a fan nearby said she left the restraunt, paid and tipped the restraunt way more than she should of— but left her full meal untouched. this isn't what she bargained for.
But on the bright side, her nasty breakup with womaniser styles will make a GREAT breakup hit, as it's not the first time a song has been written in anger towards harry styles— or one direction in general.
Anastasia wrote shout out to my ex with the little mix girls which was about Zayn Malik's relationship with ex-fiancé Perrie Edwards— shout out to my ex was also written about Liam Payne. a ex of Anastasia's, they dated from 2010-2015. Anastasia also has a string of her own number one hits that are so obviously about Liam Payne, her ex boyfriend and brother's best mate.
a bitter break up song is on the horizon— even more so that she is best friends with Perrie Edwards who has serious hatred against her ex, Zayn Malik.
more on this story as it progresses.

I wipe my falling tears away and go to twitter to see me and harry trending. fans are in the mix of freaking out over harry and i breaking up— some harry fans are even happy over it. some of my fans seem to be too as i 'deserved better' as one fan stated in her loving tweet to me.

i decided to put out a tweet;

chasing the high but it was always you...

seconds later everyone was retweeting, liking and replying to my tweet; wondering who was it about, if it was a song lyric... wondering if i was okay.

am i okay? am i truly okay??