love story (p.h.)

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*a week later*

"i fucking hate quarantine." i say going and laying in bed next to patrick. he wraps his arms around me, "it's all good, it's only been three days." he says. "still it sucks i say hugging him. he hugs me back. i get up and walk over to the dresser, and start to apply makeup. patrick come behind me and puts his hands on my shoulder. "your so perfect bellmay." he says looking at us in the mirror.

"i love you bellamy." he says kissing my cheek. i pat my lap and he comes and sits on it. "i love you too patty." i say kissing his cheek. i start to play with his curls and i see him dozing off. "babe come on let's go lay down." i say. he stands up and picks me up bridal style. "i wanna go swimming." he says putting me in the bed.

he tosses me a bag and i open it. it's a orange crush colored bikini, i see him walk towards me in matching color swimming shorts. i smile at him and get up to go change. i start to get change and throw my hair into a messy bun. i walk out and he looks at me. he walks up to me and hugs me. "i'm sorry for everything bellamy." he says. i kiss he cheek and smile.

he picks me up and he walks downstairs and past everyone and to the pool. he walks down the steps with me and sits me down in the sallow end. he starts to swims away as he holds my hands pulling me with him. i start to sway my feet like he said but i can't anymore and wrap my legs around him. "don't let me go patty." i say hugging him. he hugs me back and laughs.

"i just wanna talk about the whole thing. i've learned from my mistakes and i'm ready to actually try for you." he says holding my necklace. i smile, "im not ready to get back in a relationship right now after what happened." i say hugging him. i pull out and rest my head on his shoulder and look out to the hills. he hugs me tightly. "c'mon." he says pulling me out and sitting on a chair. he pulls me in his lap and i cuddle into him.

i start to play with his curls and he plays with my fingers. i lay my head on his shoulder and watch him play with my fingers. "i'm so sorry." he says starting to cry. i wipe his tears, "stop it patty, your okay. it's in the past." i say smiling at him. he smiles back at me, "i can't believe i just cried in front of you." he says laughing.

i chuckle, "your gonna cry infront of me eventually." i say. he picks me up and walks us inside. he takes us to our room and i grab tye dyed sweatpants and a pink crop top. i walk out and patrick is in nike shorts. "i'm going to go try to talk to nick." i say. i walk out of my room and into nicks room.

i see ryland and nick sitting there, i close the door and lock it. i turn and they glare at me. i look at nick and then to ryland who looks like shit. "nick. no matter how mad you are at me, i need my big brother." i say. "and ryland. you can hate me no matter what, but i'm not gonna hate you." i say.

"you fuck up bellamy. and ryland wants nothing to do with you." nick says. i look at ryland who goes and lays in bed. i walk over to nick and whisper in his ear, "leave the room and let me talk to him." i say. nick gets up and leaves closing the door behind him.

rylands facing the wall on his phone. i go and sit down next to him, "please ryland. i need to hear your voice." i say grabbing his shoulder. "please stop bellmay." he says. "no ryland i'm not gonna stop. i need you to talk to me." i say. he turns and faces me, "why? why do you need me to talk?" he says.

i look at him, "because ryland, i just need you too." i say. "fuck." he says lifting the covers up. i get underneath the covers with him and he wraps his arms around me. he looks at me and quickly unwraps his arms, "who do you want bellmay? because i'm done hurting myself wanting you." he says looking at me.

"ryland i had a dream you and patrick were both bleeding to death and i could only pick one. but you both had thick glass walls keeping me away. i had the option to say one name and the walls would disappear. but i don't want to pick. i tried to break patrick's wall but it wouldn't no matter how hard i hit and kicked. and then i went to you, and i saw you hurting, i tapped into the glass and it cracked. i then slammed my palm into it and it shattered. but you were gone, you were already dead. but patrick wasn't and i didn't choose him but he was still alive. but he was with another girl." i say looking at ryland.

"so what am i supposed to do? because i choose you but i somehow ended up with patrick." i say. "ryland i have feelings for you, and i don't want to hurt you, you actually mean a lot to me and nick would kill me i-" i'm cut off by ryland kissing me.

he pulls out, "shut up bellamy. just stay with me." he says kissing me again. i kiss back and he pulls me into him.

i think i found the person i want to be with.

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