bouquet [t.satori × reader]

6/10: love hurts

**reader**

you and tendou walk through the park. you sigh.

"why'd you do that? why'd you leave me there?" you ask. tears brim your eyes but you play it off.

you hear tendou clear his throat.

"i-i don't know."

you frown.

"tendou, im only going to walk with you if you tell me the truth. like i don't push you and then you're yelling at me!" you're angry now, you didn't want him to leave but he did. you trusted him and he left you there.

tendou looks down and stops walking.

"what do you want me to say?" he asks. you feel your patience running out.

"tendou i thought we were friends! this is ridiculous that i have to beg you to tell me things! that's not how friendships work." you spit out.

tendou fumbles with his fingers and finally looks at you.

"i panicked (name)."

"why on earth would you need to panic?" you exclaim. "we've been friends for years! we haven't seen each other in so long and this is how you treat me?"

"i'm not even treating you that bad (name)! get your head out of your ass! you leave me for three years and expect me to welcome you back with open arms?" he yells.

your temper is boiling, you can almost hear steam coming out of your ears.

tendou is being ridiculous! what is wrong with him?

"yes! i do actually! i thought i'd be welcomed with open arms because i'm your friend! what is wrong with you? i shouldn't have come back here. in fact, i'm going to leave." you spat out.

you turn your heels to leave and march away from tendou. you hear him whimper, but you strut across the street and into your apartment.

you sigh and plop down on your sofa.

all the tears you've been holding back suddenly spring to your eyes.

why does he hate me so much?

what did i even do?

nothing. i did nothing. he's just an asshole. you shouldn't have come to shiratorizawa. you should've stayed with your friends. the ones you know will never betray you.

you pick up your phone and dial akaashi's number. it goes straight to voicemail. you sniffle and let the tears fall freely.

soon, you're sobbing and screaming. you're banging your fist on the tear soaked pillow.

"why doesn't he want me?" you scream. you grab your hair and try to pull it out. you enjoy the stinging sensation since it overpowers the ache in your heart.

you hate yourself for loving a boy you haven't seen in three years. you hate him for hurting you like he's never seen you before. you hate akaashi for not picking up his phone. you hate your grandparents for bringing you back out here. you hate shiratorizawa and the stupid volleyball club.

you scream one last time, before your puffy eyes give out.

you sniffle softly as you drift asleep, dreaming about tendou kissing you.

**tendou**
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crap! you're so stupid!

i grab my hair and whimper as she walks across the street. is she really gonna leave?

no, she just got here! her lease isn't up. she can't leave.

i pull out my phone and my fingers glide over the screen as i send a message to the smartest people i know.

[swan groupchat]

monster guesser: i did a big boom boom.

kawaiinishi: oh boy. what'd you do?

oh my goshiki: you washed your uniform with bleach? haha remember when i did that guys?

oh my goshiki: guys?

monster guesser: i kinda told (name) that i hated her without saying i hate her.

oikawa is #1: okay woah dude. that's low. even for me.

mother swan: that is a big boom boom. however, it shouldn't really be a big problem, just apologize tomorrow and give her space.

monster guesser: HAHAH WELL.... THERES A BIGGER BOOM BOOM.

bad hair cut: u mean besides ur life? B)

Ohira is here: nows not a good time....

monster guesser: (name) said that she was leaving and going back home.

yamagatalottacash: okay what the heck tendou.

monster guesser: okay! but! her lease isn't up so she can't leave!!

mother swan: you severely underestimate an angry woman.

farmer boi: go apologize now.

farmer boi: it's your job to clean up the mess you made.

farmer boi: ushijima out.

oikawa is #1: i really hate to say this but he's right.

mother swan: idk. maybe she needs space. the last thing she'll want is to see you, no offense.

oh my goshiki: write a note!

bad hair cut: thats a horrible idea.

ohira is here: no! goshiki might be on to something here.

kawaiinishi: i agree. don't girls like notes? write out how sorry you are and leave it on her doorstep.

mother swan: i approve of this. goodluck tendou.

i sigh and turn off my phone and begin the trek to my apartment.

after opening the door of the two bedroom apartment i share with wakatoshi-kun, i march to my room.

"what were you thinking tendou?" i head ushijima from his room. i keep walking.

as much as i love ushijima, the last thing i want to hear right now is about how much i messed up. i know how much i messed up. i don't need ushijima to tell me.

i sit down as my desk and pull out a sheet of copy paper. i grab my pen and in my neatest handwriting, i begin to write my note to (name).

dear (name),
i hope you don't hate me too much that you throw this letter away before reading it. i'm not a good writer as you're about to tell, but i know how i feel about you, so i'm trying to go off of that right now.
i love you.
a lot.
and i'm really sorry. of course i was suppose to welcome you with open arms. what kind of a friend doesn't. but then again, what kind of friend does what i did. i shouldn't be forgiven for hurting you. but i hope you'll trust me to never do it again, and you'll stay. i've been away from you for three years, i can't do more.
love,
tendou satori