you are the reason

chapter eleven _ her

Jughead's POV

"Does it hurt?" Lucas asked
"A little. It's just uncomfortable" I said
"I just wanted to say that I have some painkillers if you need any "
"ok thanks for the offer "

I started my treatments on the first day. Doctor Evans came to the house at night to check on us and when he checked on me, he decided that I needed to use a feeding tube, more specifically an NJ tube. Lucas said that getting tubed is something normal for people like us and we'll get used to it after a few times, but I don't think I'll ever get used to it. It's the most annoying thing in the world and it just gets worse when you have an infant who wants to play with everything she sees.
Lucas was right, the first night was the worst. I was in pain, I had fever and I couldn't stop vomiting; I didn't even think I could make it to the morning and all I did was hugging my little Del. I hugged her like it was the last time I could embrace her and it really helped me forget my pain. I'm sure I couldn't make it if she wasn't there with me, putting her small hand on my heart, telling me to live,to stay strong for her and remember my promises to her.

And for the millionth time my daughter saved my life. That night all I could think about was her and how our father_daughter relationship kinda faded since I started dating Ronnie. I loved Ronnie, a lot but not even she could compete with Del; at least that's what I thought because I started caring less about her when Ronnie came to my life. I used to take care of her just as a baby, not my daughter, not my best friend and not the reason I breathe. I really missed the days it was just the two of us, when I used to talk to her for hours about and the issues we had and she would respond with her sweet giggles. I really hate myself for ruining our friendship because of my demons. I hate myself because I forget her when I saw a girl and I know how much my demons want to punish me because of it but for the first time in my life, I don't give up, just because of Del.

That night I talked to her for hours despite all the pain I was in and she listened to me despite the tiredness she was feeling, showing me that maybe I wasn't the best friend for her but she'll always forget me and remain my best friend. By talking to her I forgot my pain and when the sun rose, we both felt our eyes getting heavy.

Veronica's POV

I did what Jughead told me to do; I went to Cheryl's party after one month. I used to skip parties because Jughead hated them and I always felt bad about leaving him alone and go to parties, so I decided not to attend in any of them. It was the last party of junior year and I had only one goal for the night: enjoying the party

I decided to go with Archie and when we went to Cheryl's house Kevin was there, waiting for us. Betty was also there but I still didn't want to talk to her and ignored her all the night.

"How is Jughead Ronnie?" Archie asked
"He got admitted today, I haven't talked to her since then but I'm going to see him tomorrow after school " I said

"Are you sure you did the right thing about sending him there? I mean last night when I saw him he looked really broken. You know he's on the edge, I just don't want him to get worse "

"Archie, I know he's broken and you know what? He's broken because he's realizing what he's done to himself. By the way we didn't have many choices; so between bad and worse we decided to choose bad. It's not that bad actually, he can find friends because his housemates are good people, he can spend more time with Delphine and more importantly, he's staying in a house instead of a hospital and you probably know how he feels about hospitals. So let's just be optimist "

"Maybe you're right. Can I go with you when you want to see him?"
"Of course Arch. Now if you don't mind I want to enjoy this party as much as I can, starting with drinks "