My Snowbarry One-Shots

I'll Miss You

One-Shot request by Scarlett_Speedy
Inspired by the Snowbarry goodbye scene on 6x19

"Barry, what if I stay? I can help," she pushes while sitting on the couch watching her husband pace back and forth. The stress of the coming crisis finally expressed across his features. A sigh leaves her lips, knowing her husband is in his own world at this point and anything she says will just go in one ear and out the other. She bites her lip, debating, before trying to grab his attention one last time. "Barry?"

The faint voice cracks through his growing thoughts and concerns. He turns his attention to his wife, sitting so patiently with a blanket covering her growing stomach. He blinks his eyes rapidly and shakes his head, a method to shake away any lingering thoughts to give her his undivided attention. "Did you say something Cait?"

A humorous scoff leaves her lips as she stares at him, tilting her head to the side. She arches her eyebrows up into her forehead causing him to nod in apology before walking over to sit next to her. She licks her lips, gathering some courage to repeat her words - knowing what he was going to say. "What if I stay? I can help you and Cisco and -"

"No Cait," he snaps standing back on his feet. He sees her slightly jump at his booming tone and exhales deeply, placing a hand on his hip while the other wipes his mouth. 

There's a silence between the pair. Barry looking up at the ceiling with shut eyes, trying to figure out what to say to ease his wife, while Caitlin looks down at her hands in her lap, debating with her thoughts as Frost remains dormant for the safety of the baby.

A sigh leaves her lips, "Bar, I know you are wanting to protect me - us," she slightly smiles with her hand over her belly as her thumb rubs circles. "But, I will be okay. I want to be here with you and help the team."

He squats in front of her, placing his hands on her knees for support, and gives them a gentle squeeze. "I know Cait but, it is better for you to go away until this crisis is over," he looks into her eyes, trying to get her to understand his reasoning. "I need to protect my family," he stresses giving her knees a tight squeeze. His mind starts racing with different scenarios as he looks away from her. "If you or the baby get hurt or worse," he breathes, "If I lose either of you..."

"Hey," she coos, placing her hands over his, causing him to look back at her. "I'm right here Barry. I'm fine," she gives him a reassuring smile. "We're fine," she adds. "I just don't want you doing this alone like you always do," she pushes giving his hands a squeeze. "We need you, just as much as you need us."

Barry sighs in content and moves back to sit next to her, wrapping his arm around her shoulders, pulling her close to his chest. He kisses the top of her head then whispers into her hair. "Can you do me a favor Cait?" She nods her head as she hums for a response. He pulls her closer, shutting his eyes finding the courage to speak his mind. He swallows some saliva, "Whatever happens, you remain strong for our family."

Caitlin pulls away from his embrace and faces him. Her face fills with confusion as she looks over at him just to register his words, reading between the lines. "Barry don't. Don't you dare be saying what I think you are saying," she bitterly snaps as she scooches away from him. 

Barry leans forward, with his elbows on his knees, as his head drops, looking at the ground. A heavy sigh leaves his lips as he runs his fingers through his hair. A pang of guilt and pain shoot through him, finding it so difficult to look at his wife. "Cait," he breathes then slowly looks over to see her heartbroken expression. He feels his body go numb at the loss of words. He is hurting her - he knew it. "If something happens I need to know you'll be okay," he adds reaching over to grab her hand.