Did I give him a goodbye kiss? No. But I agreed to. After another sad cry, I went back home. And to my surprise, my mom hadn't realised. So I carried on packing.
I was gonna see Billie before I was drove away. My mom was supposed to be taking me Sunday. Tomorrow she goes on her business trip, Friday night, and she has to get her sleep tonight for driving tomorrow or something stupid. So tomorrow would be my last night with him, and Saturday would be my last day. And I don't know if I was ready for that.
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"Where's Sydney?" Billie asked as he shut the window after he had climbed in.
"She's passed out on the sofa downstairs."
"Passed out?"
"She said something about her next-door neighbour recently having a baby. So it keeps her up all night," I shrugged as I sat down on Addison bed as Billie sat on mine. "Have you told the guys I'm leaving after Sunday?" I asked him.
"No," he said shaking his head. "I figured you'd want to."
"I don't even know how." I shrugged. The atmosphere felt so sad.
"I'm really gonna miss you," he said looking over at me. I got up off Addison's bed as I sat myself next to him.
"I'm gonna miss you too Beej, I don't think I'll ever find someone like you."
"Please don't forget me and all the things we did together,"
"Y'know I won't," I said sadly. Trying not to cry again.
"I never thought this would actually happen. I mean I worried about it so much but I could never really think you'd have to go one day. What about happy endings? Are those just not real? Is that just bullshit?" He asked me obviously upset. "I've been through so much pain, and you're the one thing that stopped it. And now you're going. I don't know what I'm gonna do with myself."
I noticed his hands begging to shake in his lap.
"Billie breathe," I said begging to worry, he was on the edge of a panic attack.
"I am- I just-"
"-Billie please just focus on breathing for a moment."
He nodded. As he breathed in and out heavily. After a moment he looked at me. Upset.
"I'm sorry, I just- I love you."
I couldn't help but smile when he told me he loved me. And I guess my smile made his appear.
"You always had a contagious smile," he said lightly. "I'll miss that."
"I'll call you every night."
"Promise me?"
"I swear," I promised, "I'm gonna miss hearing you sing."
"I can sing to you on the phone," he teased.
"I know your joking, but I'd like it if you did." I sighed.
"If you want me to I will," he said as he put his arm around my shoulder.
I looked down at my suitcase on the floor. It didn't have everything in it yet. I had to get some stuff out my moms closet. In there were Addisons things. And I wanted to take something with me. So I felt like I hadn't completely left everything.
"I still need to grab some stuff out of my mom's room." I sighed leaning my head onto him.
"Like?"
"Most of Addisons things are kept in my moms closet. I wanna take some things with me, y'know?"
"Of course I do,"
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What a tragedy // Billie Joe Armstrong
Fanfiction"I write best when I'm falling in love, or falling apart." He muttered to himself, his gaze was on the guitar he had gently settled into his lap as he traced over the initials 'BJ' on it with his index finger. "Which one is it right now?" I asked n...
