Lost in Japan

7th Step

"There's a ghost that follows you around."

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It been a couple of months since fate made our paths crossed. I can clearly recall what exactly happened as if it was yesterday. Hindi naman agaran ang paglimot. Kailanman ang paglimot ay hindi madali.

Tanginang 'yan.

It really affected me to any possible way it can. Madalas kong nahuhuli ang sarili ko na tulala sa kawalan at ilang lingo akong hindi dinadalaw antok. I also become paranoid lalo na pagkikitain ko na ang mga costumers ko. Ang hirap naman kasi. Baka si Akira ulit sila. Baka tuluyan na akong mabaliw kapag nagkataon. Para akong bumalik sa simula. I realized that hindi pala talaga effective na rason ang galit sa paglimot. Galit sa kanya, sa tatay ko, at sa sarili ko. Mahirap mang gawin, kailangan kong tanggapin 'yung mga nangyari. Hindi ko lang alam kung paano at sa kung anong paraan ko sisimulan.

Hanggang ngayon, iniisip ko pa ba rin kung nagkataon lang ba talaga ang nangyari.

Akira can afford our service, well, obviously she can. Hindi rin na man ako nagtataka kung bakit isa siya sa costumer namin. Pero I'm sure, hindi siya katulad ng iba na ang gusto ay ordinaryong satisfaction at fulfilment. Iba siya. I experienced it first hand noon at ayoko ko nang maulit 'yon. Not even in my next life.

She's the kind of woman that give distress to men and to her kind. Not obvious, but I speak with the truth. She is an alpha herself but definitely, not in a good way. Her dominance is not something to be celebrated by women empowerment associations. She's a wolf in sheep's clothing. Isa siyang buhay na patibong. Deceiving and can eat you alive, leaving no traces.

She's insane.

She tortured me in many ways she can.

She made me this way.

Si Akira 'yong taong hindi mo talaga aasahang kayang gumawa ng masama. Sa maamo niyang mukha, magdadalawa kang pag-isipan siya ng masama. Kaya rin siguro sobrang hirap sa akin ang makausad. Pinaranas niya kasi sa akin ang langit pagkatapos bigla niya akong binagsak sa impyerno.

But, her being my story will end soon. I swear. I will make sure of that.

I looked myself in the full length mirror. I saw a broken man that need miracle to be fix. It sounds impossible but no doubt, there is hope in believing.

Inayos ko ang buhaghag kong buhok. Perks of being a curly head. Before wearing my backpack, sinigurado ko munang nasa loob na lahat ng kailangan ko. The happiness kit. At tumulak na papuntang hotel, ang meeting place namin ng kliyente ko sa araw na 'to.

Before, I don't know how to handle women. I'm this clueless boy who prefers staying in his dark room alone than be with people especially with girls, having fun and getting laid. Kaya nung dumating si Akira sa buhay ko, I become a different person. I have to push myself to cather her needs. Akala ko nga dati, sabay kaming matututo sa mga mangilan-ngilang bagay tungkol sa pagpapaligaya pero, ako lang pala 'tong walang alam.

I become frustrated and desperated to learn. Gusto kong maging sapat sa kanya sa bawat aspeto. Gusto kong maging magaling. Gusto kong totohanin lahat ng pantasya na meron siya. Gusto kong sa akin makuntento siya. Ginawa lahat ng bagay na hiniling niyang gawin ko kahit tumututol ang sarili ko. Pero malinaw, wala rin. Kahit gaano ka pa kagaling— nag-improved sa kama, still wala pa rin. Kung hindi ka mahal talaga, hindi pa rin sapat. Ang sakit lang isipin na parang experience niya lang ako.

"Ohhh...yahhh—ohmmm...ah-ah!" Great. I'm doing great.

Pinagbutihan ko pa ng husto ang ginagawa ko. Tutal, I'm here to give satisfaction at it's highest peck. We're trained to bring heaven in Earth. Papangatawanan ko na lang. Yes, I don't like this job, but it doesn't mean I'm not good at it. Well in fact, I'm not the Adonis in our company for no reason.

Nararamdaman ko na ang pagtulo ng pawis sa noo ko, at mukhang bayad naman ang ginagawa ko. Mas klaro pa sa tubig ng malinis na bukal, nagawa ko nang maayos ang parte ko.

Fast and hard like what the client wanted when she said "Touched me intensely."  I granted it and I did it expertly. I applied what I learned in our actual demo, lectures and exams: the art of licking and touching, and the whole foreplay process. I mastered it all to provide the most efficient service to my costumers.

Malagkit akong tiningnan ng kliyente ko pagkatapos niyang makabawi sa pinaranas ko sa kanya, at alam ko na ang ganitong galawan— ilang beses na 'tong nangyari sa akin. She tried to put her hand on my crotch area, pero hinuli ko agad ang kamay niya. No way miss. A boner is a no in this kind of work, but not in a way that it is forbidden. It just personally, I don't want to get turn on at this kind of situation. Good thing, I seldomly did. I always contain my composure and always in control. Not even once I crossed this provider-costumer line and I'm not planning to do it in the future either.

In this industry, everything is on the table except for penetration. Dry hump, licking, oral sex, masturbation, sex toys, vibrators and dildos are allowed, but the actual act of sex is against the policy, and there's an equivalent sanction for that misbehavior. In our company, either it is a fine or being fired or being listed in the block list.

Since Japan's Sex industry is unbelievable insane, it's higly recognized. Unlike in the other countries where prostitution is place underground. It just that Japanese Government does not permit the actual act of sex. Prostitution is legal as long as there is no amount exchange for sexual intercourse. The salary of a legal sex worker like me runs or equal to the paying rate of an office worker. That's is why there are lot of people who prefer to work in this kind of industry. But at the end of the day, every prostitutes have different reasons why they become one.

Why we become sex workers...

Tumingin ako sa kliyente ko. Her eyes were shut and her mouth was slightly open. I want to tap my own shoulder for doing a great job. Good job Hiro.

"Uhmm...faster... Faster!" My client said in a authoritative yet begging voice. How is that even become possible?  I laughed in my head because of that flash thought. But, I caught her looking at me in a death glare.

Hindi ko namalayan na tumigil na pala ako. I mentally smack my own head for being destructed and kissed my client's forehead as an apology. Pero hindi yata gumana. She pressed her lips together. Clearly, she's still annoyed.

But, I still have tricks hidden  in my slaves. Like Jack in the Box, I surprised her and after a few seconds, she reached the heaven that lies here in Earth.