Talia
As I walked into the house I made sure to stay quiet so Jordon wouldn't hear me. I couldn't believe what I had just done. It was so impulsive, and I barely thought about it. Was this a mistake? I heard talking in the kitchen, so I headed straight to the stairs, hoping Jordon was in the kitchen. I quietly crept up the stairs and walked down the hall to the room I was sleeping in. As I passed Jordon's room, I heard him call me in. Fuck. I turned to see him lying on his bed on his phone. I walked in, I felt so awkward. I hope he wouldn't ask about my night.
"What's up?" He said, maybe he just wanted to chat.
"Oh, nothing. I was just out. How was practice tonight?" I asked, moving the conversation to him.
"Ugh, hard. But it was chill." He nodded. He was staring at his phone. Maybe he was just bored and wanted someone to talk to.
"So, how was your date?" He asked, moving his blue eyes to meet my eyes. Fuck. How did he know? My eyes went wide and he raised his eyebrows.
"Umm, what?" I asked, I nervously ran my hand through my hair. He rolled his eyes and set his phone down beside him.
"Avery told me you were taking her on a date." He said. I knew he was trying to get details on where I stood with Avery. And right now I was confused myself. I shouldn't have asked her to be my girlfriend so early on. I don't even know if I'm capable of being someone's girlfriend.
"It was good." I needed to change the conversation. I didn't want to lie to him, but I really didn't want to tell him. He would be pissed. "So, Jordon, I was thinking of the other day, that morning... you know when... I was high and you were... you were eating. Umm, I didn't want to bring it up because I didn't want to talk about my high but like are you okay?" I asked, this was another topic I didn't want to discuss but it was better than the whole girlfriend thing.
"Fuck, I was hoping you wouldn't remember that." He said. He stared at me blankly and I watched his chest rise as he took a deep breath.
"I just, sometimes I don't sleep because I can't because I am thinking too much. So, when that happens, I just feel the need to eat. It just makes me feel better. And it's really hard because I never eat unhealthily so as soon as I start, I can't stop, and it just escalates. And then I start thinking of that instead of my other issues and then it is fine." He rambled on. I don't know what I was expecting but it wasn't that. Now I had to talk to him about this and I wasn't good at helping people. I couldn't even help myself. I walked to his bed and sat on the edge.
"Oh, that sucks." I said, which was an awful response, but I didn't know what to say.
"I don't want to talk about this. Just don't tell anyone. Anyway, so did anything happen at your date?" He asked. Fuck. Why was he so curious? I would rather try and help him but his "eating problem" than talk about this date.
"Fuck, Jordon. I don't want to talk about this because I impulsively asked her to date. Like be my girlfriend. I didn't think it through and now I don't know what to do. I don't even know if I'm capable of being monogamous like I don't know why I rushed this so much I'm so stupid." I rambled on. His eyes were wide, and he looked at me with some disappointment.
"What the fuck, Talia?" He said, still staring at me with wide eyes.
"I know Jordon. I don't know what I was thinking. Like I really like her, but I don't know what I did. Did I screw everything up?" I laid back onto his bed. He sighed.
