⚠️IF YOU ARE EMOTIONAL THIS MIGHT MAKE YOU CRY, I CRIED WRITING IT. BE PREPARED⚠️
I walked into the house filled with
silence and the aroma of lavender hitting me, i coughed a little because i haven't been home in a couple days and i was used to the smell of weed and sunblock.
"Hello?" I called out
"LILIA" My dad called from upstairs, i slowly walked upstairs. I walked into my room with them sitting on my bed.
"What's going on?" I asked with fear trembling through my body.
"Pack" My mom whispered
"What?" I asked
"PACK GODDAMNIT YOU HEARD ME" She yelled, i chocked up a little bit at her voice raising, reminded me of when i was a kid.
"Why?" I questioned
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"I'm tired of you and your little pogue punk ass friends causing shit, getting you in trouble with the cops causing terror around figure eight! your a Kook goddamnit!" He yelled getting up from my bed taking steps towards me.
"But Where am i going?" I asked
"With your grandma." She replied handing me suitcase, My stomach dropped and i've never felt so sick in my life. My grandmother lived in Arizona. No way in hell.
"YOU CANT JUST MAKE ME GO AWAY GODDAMNIT." I yelled
"We can, now pack you're leaving tomorrow morning" My dad said
"No" I whispered
"What?" He repeated
"I said NO" I said tears falling from my eyes, he looked at me with anger and so did my mother.
"WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YALL. YALL HATE ME FOR NO FUCKING REASON IVE NEVER BEEN HAPPY UNTIL I MET THE POGUES. THEY SHOWED ME WHAT HAPPINESS AND LOVE WAS SOMETHING MY OWN GODDAMNIT PARENTS COULDN'T DO" I yelled tears falling from my eyes every blink. They looked at me like they were gonna kill me.
"LILIA PACK GODDAMNIT" My Mom shouted back at me slapping me across the face, i held my face in shock. I looked at her.
"Fuck Y'all." I whispered, "Y'all made me like this."
They looked shocked, i couldn't breathe, I took of running as they chased after me, My father grabbed me by the collar of my shirt i fought off running to the château.
"YOUR A DISAPPOINTMENT. YOU SLUT" He yelled.
i looked back one more time before running as tears kept coming and coming. It was a long run but i got there. I know the crew was there, they said they would stay for the night and offered me to but i decided to go to a place i wasn't loved.
I ran to John B's house banging on the door. John B opened the door pulling me in.
"What the hell." He said, i broke into tears before falling onto the hard wood floor, I cried before feeling them on kneeling down onto the floor next to me. John B pulling me into him, and JJ grabbing my hand.
"Lilia what happened?" JJ asked, i chocked up once again.
"T-they're sending me away." I stuttered before gasping for air, i couldn't believe it. i loved my parents but they didn't love me.
"What do you mean?" Kie asked
"Away, far away." I whispered. I felt them pull me into a hug, we all laid on the ground in silence for about five minutes.
"Lilia? Tell us." Pope said, i sat up trying to gain the strength to talk about it. JJ grabbing my hand and John B wrapping his arm around me.
"They said i was trouble, a disappointment. I'm leaving tomorrow morning, going to Arizona because i'm messed up in the head, all i do is cause trouble. She hit me, my own mother hit me, so i ran. I know the cops will be out looking for me." I explained, they all sat in silence. I heard Sobs come from each member in the group. Kie tears rolling down her cheeks, John B in disbelief, Pope who pulled Kie into a hug and JJ who had my hand to his lips, shaking his head.
"We can save you." JJ said
"There is no saving JJ." I replied trying to keep myself together. I got up from the floor.
"I need to go." I said choking on my words.
"Please Lilia" Kie said
"I'm sorry" I whispered. John B shot up pulling me into a tight hug crying into my shoulder while i cried in his, i pulled back from the hug looking into his eyes "You find that gold, take after what he set out for you okay?" I whispered as he shook is head, the tears falling from his eyes quickly wiping them away.
"Thank You." I whispered with a smile as Tears fell from his eyes again. Kie walked over pulling me to the ground and crying.
"I love you so much and please be safe i'm so so sorry we can't stop this." She whispered, i cried.
"I love you Kie." I said as i went over to Pope pulling him into a hug.
"Goodluck, and thank you for everything." I whispered, hearing his Soft Sobs.
Then JJ was next, he pulled me onto the porch, pulling me into a very very tight sincere hug. He pulled back his blue eyes now filled with Tears, he gently pressed his lips against mine and i couldn't help but cry even more, his forehead pressed against mine.
"We can fix this, we can get you out of here. we can all get out of here." He whispered
"It's to late JJ." I replied. I stepped back as the rest of the crew stepped onto the porch.
I walked down the stairs, my feet hitting the grass. I took one look back to see them sobbing holding each other. I broke right there, seeing the only people who loved me getting taken from me too. I stopped before disappearing into the Dark to admire the people i had and loved. The tears rolled down my cheeks.
"I love you all, i really do." I shouted
"We love you. Come back to us okay?" They said.
"I'll be back. I promise." I said to them before stepping into the dark. I couldn't look back, i heard the sobs and the words but i couldn't it hurt so much.
'I'll be back, I promise, i'll find a way back'
'You'll be back Lilia.'
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𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑓𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑖𝑛 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 -𝑜𝑢𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑏𝑎𝑛𝑘𝑠 {JJ}
Фанфик"𝑖 𝑑𝑜𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑛𝑎 𝑓𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑖𝑛 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒" she thought to herself, trying to get her mind off the blonde boy who wandered through her thoughts, but not only that they were bestfriends. After a promise to make the summer fun and have the best t...
