Mellifluous Euphoria

Chapter 16

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'It's 12:45, yet here I am, seeing you even at my deepest and darkest thoughts.'

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Sheena.

I wonder, what if I stop these feelings? What if I didn't have tolerated it and put fire on it? What if I just continued my life, being the nerdy and poor girl that I am. Would that change anything? Would that change the hurt I'm feeling right now?

Naghanda ako, kahit ayokong bumangon sa pagkakahiga. Hindi ko alam kung anong oras ako natapos basta ay alam ko lang napakabagal ng kilos ko. Iiyak ako habang naliligo, nagbibihis o kahit pa nakatingin lang sa salamin. Tatahan at ipagpapatuloy ang ginagawa.

It'a already 1:30 when I arrived at the coffee shop. Hindi ko alam kung nandun pa si Silver pero nang makita ko siyang nakaupo doon mula sa labas ay nagpatuloy na lang ako. Diretso ang tingin ko sakaniya ng maupo ako, hindi ko na lang pinansin ang mga kasama ko sa trabaho na nakikiusyoso sa amin.

"Anong sasabihin mo?" I coldly said to him.

"Let's drink our coffee—"

"Hindi na, hindi naman ako pumunta dito para uminom ng kape. Sabihin mo na ang gusto mong sabihin para makaalis na ako dito."

Mariin lang siyang nakatingin sa'kin, may kung ano akong nakikita sa abo niyang mata. Maybe pity? Anger? I don't know. I don't know anymore, it's like right now I lost all my senses and isn't even capable to hunch what's going on their minds. Kung sabagay, dati pa lang naman hindi ko na mabasa ang mga nasa mata ni Silver, wala nang bago dun.

"Are you sure about that?" He asked as he leaned on his seat. I nodded.

"My brother planned it all."

Kumunot ang noo ko sa tanong niya. "Planned what?"

"To dumped you. He told me to dumped you because he said you like me."

Akala ko wala na akong mailuluha, pero meron pa pala. Dahil ramdam na ramdam ko na ang pangingilid ng tubig sa mata ko. They said that tears are therapeutic but why these tears falling down from my eyes keeps on stabbing me?

Leviticus, why? Bakit kailangan mong gawin 'yun? Bakit kailangang masaktan ako ng ganun noong araw na iyon para lang sa kagustuhan mo? Why are you so unfair? And lastly he planned it all... the confession, the scholarship... fuck. I want to fucking scream.

"He warned me not to talk to you nor look at you, at first it's fine to me but as the time passes by my curiosity about you grew. Why did he want to say that to me, why he seems so protective of you... and now I know."

Hindi maampat ang luha ko habang nagsasalita siya. "Why are you saying this to me now?" I managed to croak out even if my voice is raspy from crying.

"Our mother called me last night, he went berserk because he thinks that you broke up with him because of our parents. He even fucking had the audacity to say yes when our father threatened to disown him." Paliwanag niya.

I gasped because of what he said. He did that?

"Nasaan siya ngayon?" Nanginig ang boses ko.

"We don't know. He's not on his condo." He shrugged.

That's the end of discussion, kahit alam kong may gusto pa siyang sabihin ay hinayaan ko nalang. Hindi ko na siguro maaatim na makarinig pa ng kahit anong masamang balita. I'm fed up with all these things.