Love Me Too

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Today I give u some Taegyu crumbs
Sorry late update 🥺
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He still hates me. He's just putting up with me just so he can feel better about himself. Obviously, it's my fault. Why couldn't I say just say yes? Three simple letters, one simple syllable and one simple meaning? Why??

Was I really that much of a dumbass not to know that when those words left my mouth, his whole world would go crashing down like waves in the ocean?

That his heart would shatter into a million pieces, worse than a fragile piece of china dropped from the highest height possible?

That his mind would never forget a detail about it, like the knowledge of the repetitive pattern of the sun rising and setting, followed by the moon which copies its movement?

That his eyes would fill up with warm, salty tears and wet his face, wetter than the widest oceans and saltier than the Red Sea itself?

That he would never be able to forgive me again?

Soobin is breaking down in the worst way possible. He was lying stomach down on his bed, eyes red and puffy, hot tears streaming down his red, yet pale cheeks. Occasionally, a small sniff could be heard, but the cries escaping his lips was enough to break the coldest person's heart.

The thing is, he just couldn't understand why he was so negative about it. He was the one who initiated the heartbreak, the one who said no and broke Yeonjun's heart. He was supposed to be the one not crying and attempting to fix their relationship. He was responsible for the damage caused, but it was paid for by the older.

His kind, soft, misunderstood and amazing Hyung. The one who had built himself a wall to hide his past and stay strong, and let Soobin in only for him to destroy it. He had trusted Soobin, and he had betrayed it. As the sobs continue loudly, his hand clutches hard onto his pillow, needing something to hold onto in his state of frustration and sadness.

Damn himself and his brainless opening of his mouth. Damn it all, for fucks' sake. He couldn't do anything about it but cry. He was becoming weak, and there was no reason why he wasn't.

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"Yah, Hyung, go away already." Taehyun nudges Beomgyu irritably as he kept reaching for his baby boy to give him all the kisses and cuddles in the world, but at this point the younger was simply annoyed and just wanted to go to bed.

"But baby, can I have one last kiss please?? For Beomie?" he pouts adorably and points to his lips. Taehyun rolls his eyes and gave him a peck on the nose, before shooting him away again. "Aigoo, you got your kiss. Now go away, I want to sleep." he pushes his forehead away and lies down on his bed, closing his eyes and trying to fall asleep.

"Get a room, oh my god." Yeonjun 'tsk's at them before going back to his phone. "Yah! I'm not the needy, probably drunk person here!" Taehyun shouts from across the room as he tries to hold back Beomgyu, who's climbing on top of him, claiming that that wasn't a 'real kiss' and he wanted another one.

"Well, whatever, it's still really cringey." he scoffs and looks at them, clearly disgusted. Obviously, Hueningkai's squealing like a clown as he snaps pictures of them, further annoying Taehyun and encouraging Beomgyu.

"Look, Kai, as your Hyung, I love you and all, but can you stop fucking snapping pictures and get this crazed lunatic off me so I can finally get a good night's sleep?" he said through clenched teeth, hand on his boyfriend's chin, trying to push him away. "But why don't you just let him kiss you? He'd leave you alone then, right?" he winks at Taehyun, who was a brain cell away from killing both of them.

"Fine. FINE!" he yells as he takes Beomgyu's face in his hands and connected their lips. "Ew, EW! Go make out in another room, Jesus.." Yeonjun pretends to gag and looks away. "Ugh, there, you got your kiss, now leave me alone." Taehyun groans after a few moments and covers himself with the duvet.

"But.. baby.. is that all you're gonna give me?" the raven haired continued to poke him. "For fucks' sake-" Yeonjun decides that it's time to leave and exits the couple's presence and go to the living room. He plops down on the couch and opens Wattpad to search for a good book to get lost in, when he gets a notification from Soobin.

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ISarangBread🍞
Hyung

FmlIWannaDieLol
Yes?

ISarangBread🍞
Can you meet me somewhere

FmlIWannaDieLol
Ofc. Where?

ISarangBread🍞
Remember the place where you showed me? The one with the big tree and the small hill and everything?

FmlIWannaDieLol
Yeah. When do you wanna go?

ISarangBread🍞
Um
What about tomorrow evening

FmlIWannaDieLol
Mk
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Yeonjun exits the messages app and goes to Wattpad. He wonders what on earth Soobin would want to talk about at this trying time. Even though he might be getting over it, he was still sort of uncomfortable and didn't want to see his face yet. He runs a hand through his hair and leans back while scrolling through his recommendations.

"Yeonjunnie Hyung!" the youngest's voice calls out from the stairs. He makes his way down the stairs like a small child, hair bouncing around his head and arms slightly raised at his sides. Yeonjun smiles at him as he makes his way beside him. "I thought you were busy with your.. you know, responsibilities?" he teases, ruffling his long hair. Hueningkai, whose hand was on his Hyung's stomach, grinned sheepishly.

"Things got a little.. heated in there, you know?" he looks at him knowingly and Yeonjun understood what he meant. "Oh, I see. Well, they better not break the bed, because I'm not buying another one." he rolls his eyes and goes back to his story. "They'd better not. What are you reading, Hyung?" he glances over to the other's screen to see. "It's nothing, just a story I found."

"Oh? What's it about?" Yeonjun looks up, deep in thought. "Well, this girl really likes this guy, and her friend, which is a guy, likes her. So it's basically one of those love triangle books." he lets out a small laugh at the end. "I love these kinds. It makes me anticipate the next chapter and sometimes I can't stop reading." he chuckles.

"Aigoo, Hyung, don't read too much or your eyes and brain will spoil. Even though I'm one hundred percent sure that you can pull off glasses, your eyesight will never be the same again." the younger sighs and says, patting his head. "Okay, okay, right after this chapter. I promise I'll go to sleep, okay?" Hueningkai beams and nods his head happily.

"Okay."