Hold me

Chapter 46

Lexi's POV

I've lost the love of my life...

It feels like my heart is being ripped off my chest like I'm splitting on two but more like my half is being torn apart. I try to breathe but my lungs don't seem to be working, it's like I'm drowning but there's no water. The tears are burning my cheeks, like if they were acid. My legs won't work, they won't listen to my commands. I wrapped my arms around myself to keep them from shaking as if was having a withdrawal. I close my eyes, imagining Gabby's face. Focusing on her smell, the way her skin feels on mine, the color of her eyes, and the way they stare into my soul. The sound of her laugh, oh I'm going to miss the sound of it. I don't want to lose this, I refuse to let her but she's gone. She left me, she left me all alone and I don't think I can handle that. I cannot live without her, I cannot be on this earth without her. I was stupid, I was blinded by Holly and her manipulative self. Gabby was right, she's been right all this time. I've lost the love of my life, the only person that loves me for who I am, the person who's seen all my flaws, and think they're beautiful. I've lost my light, my heart, my better half, I've lost my everything...

I can hear Marsha screaming at her phone telling her lawyers to do everything so Holly gets send to jail. Kathy is crying, I've never seen her like this. When Belle died she was sad and cried but not like this, she's screaming in pain as if someone was killing her. My mom told me that Kathy wasn't able to have kids, she was with her when the doctor told her she was infertile. She was depressed, she's always wanted a kid. When she found Gabby she was happy, she said it was like an instant connection. Gabby was so close to her mom and I cannot imagine what she's feeling, my mom, is holding her tightly. I close my eyes again, but Gabby's face is no longer there and I'm left with darkness. I'm shaking and my heart is beating so fast that I think I'm going to have a heart attack. I think I'm having a panic attack, I'm going to pass out...

I feel someone shaking me, trying to make me open my eyes. But I don't want to, I want to see Gabby's face, I want to remember every detail of her. I don't want to forget about her, I won't let myself do that. "Lexi open your eyes," I hear my dad says and I shake my head. "Lex, please," he begs. I slowly opened my eyes adjusting to the bright light. I'm sitting next to my dad, I'm not on the floor. I look around me and Marsha and Kathy are pacing around. Everyone else is nervous, and I glanced over at the clock an hour has passed. It was a dream, it was just an awful nightmare. Oh thank God, I let out a breath I didn't even realize I was holding in. My Gabby is alive, she is still alive... "Any updates?" I asked my dad and he shook his head.

I rest my head on his shoulder, My girl is tough. She's got this, and I will be with her, I'll take care of her. When the door open I got up and walked up to where Marsha and Kathy are, they held my hand. "Mackenzie?" Asked Marsha. "Hello sis," said Mackenzie. Gabby told me that Marsha and her sister don't talk to each other, Marsha doesn't know that Gabby has visited her and Marsha's parents. "How's Gabby?" I asked. "We were able to stop the bleeding before the hematoma was put too much pressure on her brain," she explained. "She coded three times, we almost lost her on the third time but she's a tough girl," she said. "But she's still in a critical condition," she said. "We're moving her to the ICU, and a nurse will be monitoring her and I will also be here if there are any complications," she said. "I decided to keep her asleep for at least a week to give her body and her brain a time to heal, her body has been through a lot," said Mackenzie. "Can we see her?" asked Kathy. "She's unconscious and will be that way for a few days, But I will send a nurse in a moment to take you to her room," She said and Kathy nodded. Marsha hasn't said a word, she was about to leave when Mackenzie grabbed her arm. "Can we talk?" She asked. "We have nothing to talk about," Marsha said. "Please Marsh," she said. I saw them walk into a room and Kathy wrapped in a hug.