The Drug To My Heart \\ Depressed Reader x K. Bakugo

Chapter 4

WARNING- CUTTING, PILLS, BLOOD,CURSING- ALL ROUND ANGST

A/N 'This means thinking.'

There are still some things I could've done better

'I must punish myself when I get back to the dorms'

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I opened the dorms front door and stepped inside. The cold air whipped my face causing me to throw my head back a little. Taking more steps inside I saw that there were already students sitting in the common room. They were either doing homework or chatting with each other.

'Perfect. Now I hope that no one bothers me.'

I snuck past them and pressed the button to the elevator. A few seconds pasted until a familiar 'Ding!' made the doors open. I stepped inside and pressed the button that will bring me to my floor. The silver doors closed and left me alone in the bland box.

                                                                                     {Time Skip}

I closed the door behind me slowly and let out a sigh of relief. I was finally alone. I had three chooses to make me feel better. 

Option 1. Hurt myself.

Option 2. Drown myself in pills.

Option 3. Do both

I chose option 3, it will just be easier. I walked over to my box that was at the top of my new closet. I lightly touched the top of the shiny wood and put on a sad smile. Lifting the top, I took out the white pill bottle. I dumped about 4 pills into my and and took out the one in my pocket. Throwing my head back I put the 4 of them into my mouth and swallowed hard. I put the extra pill onto my desk and headed to the small bathroom.

Looking into the minor, I hated what I saw, a weak, useless, rude loser. Tears started streaming down my cheeks and soon I was sobbing. I leaned over the sink as the tears were going into porcelain water holder. I opened the drawer and searched for the razer blade I had hidden the night before. Finally I found it and picked it up in font of my face. I look at every side and corner of it. 

~BLOOD WARNING FROM NOW ON~

I raised my arm up and pushed it against my skin. The familiar red liquid started oozing out my of my arm. One for being mean to Deku. Two for being weak. Three for reading minds without permission. Four for being myself. I kept going until my arm my S\C colored skin wasn't visible anymore, instead my whole arm was red. Red from the 13 cuts I carved into my arm.

 Placing the blade on the counter, turned on the sink and washed my arm off. After making sure I wasn't bleeding anymore, I rolled my uniforms shelve down making sure not to hurt my arm. 

Walking back into my main room, I went to my closet and changed into something less tight. I decided on and athletic outfit just in case I need to go out. I also made sure it was a long sleeve. I walked over to my table and put the extra pill into my shorts pocket for later.

At this point the pills were kicking in and I stared to feel dizzy. I sat on the edge of my bed a stared into space and just thought. I thought about my class, my new friends, but mainly I thought about Bakugo. I didn't even realize it. The more I though about him, the more my face turned red.

'It's probably nothing, its just a little crush, right? Or do I really...really like...

Bakugo.'